luified

end of chapter I

2010-01-24T01:46:00.000-08:00

guys,i hate to admit it but its official.

this blog has ended.

started out a new blog at luiboi.wordpress.com

thank you.

goodbye.

see you there.

2009-10-27T03:05:00.000-07:00

"Broken heart again today...
The flowers that i gave to you have withered all away.
Just when i opened up my heart
The one you used to love came and ripped it right apart."

-the last song i will ever write about a girl
ataris

Disclaimer:

This movie review is a biased one. Coincidentally, this movie tells the story of my life a few years ago, my great “depression” so to speak, pretty much all of my friends knows how the story goes and after seeing this movie you would probably know too. That has been a closed chapter in my life but this movie just simply made me write about it again. This review is also lengthy but I tell you its interesting enough to make you read until the end.

Movie Review: 500 days of Summer

Boy meets Girl. Boy fell in love with the girl. Girl does not.

That’s how simple the story goes but what makes this movie great is the way the story is told. As soon as the credit starts this movie already got me. The disclaimer in the beginning of the movie would surely catch you’re attention. Believe me. It’s funny.

I also like that the movie used a narrator. It makes it feel that you’re not simply seeing a movie but it feels like you’re listening to somebody telling you story. I admire how the narrator tells you at the beginning of the movie that this is NOT a love story. True, its not, it’s a romance / comedy / tragedy. If I remember it correctly, back in college I learned the difference between romance and a love story. You might think they’re the same; they’re similar but are not the same. A love story is where you’re main characters lived happily ever after however in romance, the characters may fall in love but they wouldn’t end up together in the end.

The presentation of this movie is also pretty much simple. No breathtaking camera angles, no picturesque view, no dramatic effect or anything, the camera shows you what it wants to tell you. Though I loved how they added choreograph dancing and clips of black and white movies. It made the movie funny, relaxing and not too serious nor dramatic. The soundtrack was simply superb. The right song was played at the right time; it depicts the emotions in each scene.

The actors were simply amazing. Tom (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) was simply the right guy to play the part. He’s just your average guy, somebody you could relate to, someone who can simply be you or me. It’s a good thing that they didn’t get an A-list actor because that would have just made this movie like any other “Hollywood” movie that you’ve already seen. As for Summer (Zooey Deschanel), man, she’s just simply stunningly beautiful. She’s now my new crush. Summer is a girl that has this beauty that makes you want to look a second time when she passes by. A girl that would shut you up no matter how loud you are, you know what I’m talking about, I cant describe it correctly but I know you had experienced it at a time or another.

The strength of this movie lies in its story telling. It doesn’t have the usual things that you would find in a movie, no big name movie actors, no camera effects, nothing really special but what makes it special is its simplicity. It doesn’t have any bullshit, crappy, cheesy dialogues. I would have to say that this is story telling at its purest and with all honesty. The movie tells you that not all stories have a fairytale ending. Not everybody lives happily ever after and for the most people they ended up being left alone and hurt. The movie might have shown bitterness in the story, true but it’s needed because it might have been what they have felt at some point in the story. Bottom-line is may it be a negative or a positive reflection but it was still an honest presentation of the story.

Tom might have been bitter towards the end of the movie but why wouldn’t he? I think he has every right to be. After all the wonderful things that happened between him and Summer it just ended all of a sudden, for no good reason at all, it just simply ended. Now think of it happening to you wouldn’t you be angry, frustrated, depressed and bitter as well. It makes you think what you did wrong? You would end up going around in circles and still wouldn’t have the answer, believe me, I’ve been there.

The movie tells shows how its ok to sulk for some time but after sulking you need to MOVE ON. Time wouldn’t stop for you and you don’t have the right to make the people around you miserable like you do. The movie somehow gives you a definition of what love is about, its no fairytale, its not destiny nor fate. Love in the movie tells you that love simply happens without any reason at all. Love would bring out the best and the worst in you but that’s how it is, there’s really no definition to it, it’s a feeling, you’d just believe in it when it hits you.

What I like most about the movie is the ending. This has got to be one of the films that has the best ending. It tells you that no matter how tragic you’re story turned out to be there’s still hope. As cliché as it may seem but its true, what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger, simply believe, you’d have your own happy ending in the future.

In the end, after Summer, there’d be Autumn.

Rating: 5/5

• After doing that review, it just made me want to share with all of you a preview of my on-going comic book project. Its somehow similar to the movie but I guess my own version to it.hehe. Hopefully I get to finish it by next year and eventually publish it. This project has been long overdue, its been already 3 years in the making (and counting). Here’s a page from the script. Id love to hear what you guys think. Just hit me up in the comments section. Thanks.

Page 14

PANEL 1

CAP: After that day, everything went by so fast. I was practically overtaken by the flow. Thinking ‘bout it now made me realize it happened so quickly I didn’t even have time to catch my breath. Everything was a complete blur. EVERYTHING.

PANEL 2

CAP: I wasn’t ready for her. And she carried on, oblivious to how much everything she did affected ME.

PANEL 3

CAP: Days turned to WEEKS. Weeks turned into months. There wasn’t one moment, one single moment, that wasn’t perfect.

She made everything PERFECT. Like it was the most natural thing in the world. SHE made it all PERFECT.

PANEL 4

CAP: Before she came into my life, everything had its distinct place. A pulse. A rhythm. Having her around heightened everything. Time spent apart was hell. And time spent together was never long enough. Maybe this was the kind of happiness they talked about in books and songs and children’s drawings. Maybe it was REAL AFTER ALL.

PANEL 5

CAP: Life is a funny truth you struggle to get your head around. I’d seen plenty of people come and go in my life. Not one of them ever quite managed to make everything stand still the way she could.

PANEL 6

CAP: Strange. A world made up of over eight billion people …. and it only takes one to reshape the universe.

angels and demons

2009-05-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

movie review:

angels and demons

Angels and demons was an adaptation of one of Dan Brown's famous books.It was also a sequel from one of his previous works,The Da Vinci Code.The two films are not directly connected and are seperated from each other,so you really dont need to see Da Vinci code to enjoy this film (believe me,you really dont need to see The Da Vinci Code).

i wasnt able to read the book so i wouldnt be able to tell the difference between the film and the book.unlike the da vinci code,i was able to read it probably the reason why i didnt like the film.even without including the way the movie was interpreted the first movie failed to amaze me simply because there were a lot of dull moments.Which i think they have take taken into consideration when they made angels and demons.

angels and demons suprisingly is an interisting movie.it would make you think and at times take you to the edge of your seats.the story focuses on the re-emergence of the illuminati in modern times.the iluminati was a group condemned by the church since they believe science more than religion itself.it was the illuminati's turn for revenge after years of being supressed by the catholic church.Prof. Langdon (Tom Hanks) was summoned by the vatican to investigate recent chain of events and to prevent a tragedy from happening.

what i like about this movie is the twist in the story,i never really expected the ending.i cant say too much about it since it would be a major spoiler.overall,the movie has the right dose of action,a bit of comedy,minimal dull moments and a good scenic and historic view of the vatican (just in case you might want to visit in the future).

this movie hasnt had the same hype or controversy as compared to the The Da Vinci Code.which i think is a good thing because the first movie didnt even lived up to the hype.You'd just end up thinking so that's all its about?!Dan Brown's stories/films have generated these controversies since it contradicts what the Catholic Church has thought us for all these years.But both these films should be treated as fiction since they really are.Films are created as an escape from reality,to relieve stress from our daily lives and to enjoy a a few hours at the movie house.Films are not to be treated as an adaptation of our reality not unless of course they're based on a true story.

rating:

4/5

2009-04-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

Note:This is just a temporary post since i havent decided yet if would continue using this site or just simply create a new one and oh,before i forget,this is a lengthy post to make up for lost times.

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blog = a sell-out band?!

wow.after a long hiatus here i am with a new post.i know i mentioned that in my last that it would be my last up to the time that i find my inspiration back to write and that time is now.Its not like something miraculous happened,or there's a divine intervention that made me write this post,it just happened out of my sheer boredom.Uploading posts/updates shouldnt be forced,or simply because you needed to.I think that's what i've learned during my hiatus.Now that blogging has became part of pop culture,it seems like blogging felt like a band selling out.

I find it hard to continue blogging because it felt like im just trying to be in,when in fact i was a part of those few people who started blogging (5 years ago,if im not mistaken) when it wasnt as popular as it is now,a time when most people only knew friendster.im just surprised to see that blogging became this big,i guess thanks to those social-networking sites like multiply,myspace,facebook and of course,the ever popular,friendster.Though i might be mistaken since as my friends say,"facebook is the new friendster".Im not really into social-networking that much,i just got accounts on those sites to keep in touch w/ friends and family.

Going back to the comparison i made that blogging nowadays really feels like a band that sold out.Lets compare the blog/blogging as an indie/underground band and i,one of their long-time fans.i as fan,really loved the blog when they were just starting out,when it was only of few of us who supported it.It felt like the blog was a part of us,our own little website in this big world wide web.But then came a time when the blog became popular,it became a massive hit,when we were only a few hundred fans now it boomed up to millions of adoring fans.That's when it hit me.I lost my love for the blog.it was no longer our "blog" but everyones.it came to a point when it was us who started to blog seemed like were the ones tryin' to be in or posers.

Though in the end,just like any other fan,we would want our favorite bands to achieve success.Even though they have sold out,they never really changed,its just that feeling of jealousy that we they were no longer ours but we share them with everybody else.Even if the blog has gone worldwide,even it were no longer that underground band that nobody knew,its still blogging and as loyal fans,the way we truly are would continue to support and update our blogs regardless if its still in or not,all for the love of blogging.hehe.

anyways,i dont know if what i've just wrote even made sense,its just my way of saying i started to blog again.hehe.On with the post...

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Movie Review:
Dragonball Evolution

i watched this movie with no expecatation whatsover.i've heard from friends how bad this movie was.Didnt even bother to read any reviews either.i just said to myself,im still gonna watch it with no matter what even if im gonna burn a few bucks.

that being said,the movie itself turned out to be good.Normally,the verdict in review comes out in the end but i just felt like writing it already since most of you have also heard how bad this film was prior to watching it.i repeat Dragonball is not great nor is it a must see movie type but it was GOOD,decent.A lot of you might think,am i out of my head?is this what ive turned into after a long time of not making reviews,i could no longer tell which ones are good and the ones that are bad?Its not like that,moview reviews are the opinions of the people who wrote them and this is mine.

Of course,i have to explain my conclusion and heres my two-cents about it.Lets start of with the good points about this movie.First,i would have to say that Chichi was hot!i know its weird that it would be one of the first things that i would have to say about the good parts about the movie.Sorry,but i just couldnt help myself,its just that my hormones ruled over.Anyways,she is indeed one of the few good reasons why you or should you decide to watch it.Next would have to be the special effects/cgi and fight scenes,they werent spectacular but again,it was decent.I loved the slow motion effects during those fight scenes.Another reason would be Chow Yun Fat simply because it was him.Im a bit biased over here since im a fan of the guy but if you've seen any of his flicks you'd understand what im talking about.Stephen Chow,he's not in the movie (he's one of the producers) but if you've also seen his works,you know that this movie has some comedy in it.I think he was also the guy behind orchestrating the fight scenes in this movie because the fight scenes has some "kung-fu hustle" flavor into it.Most of the things about this movie are pretty much the average,which could also be a bad thing.

Moving on,these are the reasons why the movie turned out NOT to be great (or its just my way of saying what sucks about this movie).First of all would have to be the story telling.Dragonball had been an established anime and this movie had failed to attempt in recreating it.The creators were trying hard to make this movie be like the anime.It seems like it was forced.You'd get confused as if they were trying to make a new Dragonball story but also forcing to incorporate the anime into it.To start off,where would you find an american boy,named Goku?They failed with the casting.Since they already couldnt find the right actor to play the part why bother sticking to the original name?Its a good thing that as far as Goku is concerned its only his name that's weird,wait till you see Yamcha,his character was a disaster.When he showed up on the screen,i really didnt knew who his character was not until he introduced himself.Didnt like him,he was the only person who really acted bad.He was an actor but the way he speaks seems like it was dubbed.i dont know why?!Also the story telling was a bit off,in the beginning of the movie it tells how the world was almost conquered by the villian,Piccollo but was successfully stopped by a few monks by entrapping Piccollo into a container.Fast forward,a few scenes after,BOOM!There's Piccollo up in the sky and you would wonder how did he get there?Dont ask me,i dont know either!There's a couple of inconsistencies in the movie,if they were trying to re-write the anime's history,at least they should have kept their storytelling right.

The script would have to be one of the reasons why most people think that this movie sucked.This is not the dragonball that we grew up watching.That's simply it,i couldnt say more.

Overall,just like what i've said in the first part,Draonball Evolution is good.Lets just say that its wwwaaayyy better than Street Fighter:Legends of Chun-li.If youve seen that movie,you'd get the picture.That movie isnt even worth making a review.If ever you'd make one,it wouldnt be a review but a warning for those who dare watch it.

If you dont have anything better to do,no budget to go out of town,i suggest that you go out and cool down at the movie house and see this flick.Its worth your time should you have nothing else better to do.Should you decide to watch this movie,all im asking is that you do the same.Just try watching it with open minds,no expectations and you might just even like the movie.Enjoy!

RATING:
3/5

Movie Review:
Street Fighter:Legends of Chun-li

As mentioned in my other post,this is not even a review.I just wrote this simply because this movie was mentioned in my Dragonball review.Just for the sake of comparison,i would just like you to know how i rated this movie.

RATING:
1/5 (simply because Kristin Kreuk was in it)

2008-09-25T08:09:00.000-07:00

the end of this chapter

its been like forever since i've written on this site.i almost even wondered if the site is still up.days have passed and there hasnt been any single update on this site, reason is i guess i've lost the inspiration to write.i know im not that good of a writer myself but this site used to be one of my avenues in expressing myself.i think work is taking its toll on me.feel like im dog tired day in and day out.yeah,i've been taking a vacation every now and then but i use those precious moments to catch up with a few friends and family but it feels like its not enough..god,i miss my old life.

when this site begun it was almost updated on a daily basis.i know i havent got that much number of visitors here but i was very much inspired to write back then.i write about whats happening with my life,write a movie review once in a while,basketball,comics or basically anything that comes into mind.i've made few friends online in this site (something that i'll treasure like my friends in real life) and even more i got the chance to communicate w/ one of my celebrity crushes,bianca gonzales(hi miss bianca!).a lot of things has happened to me because on this site.im really thankful to everyone who had in one time or another passed by this site.thanks to all of you! :) guess im just going to emotional over this...*sigh*..this site has been like a part of me already...

if you're reading this you might have already an idea where this post is leading to.yes!you got it right!unfortunately this had to happen.as they say;"all good things must come to an end".this would be my last post.i dont want to maintain a site that could not be updated or maintained on a regular basis.once i found my inspiration back,i'd post again (or put up another site) but until then...goodbye...for now...

2007-10-21T17:35:00.000-07:00

Its all about HEROES.

I think I’ve been stuck in a cave for the longest time, its just now that I got to finish the entire volume one of the hit series, Heroes. I never knew that I missed out a lot but thanks to the dvd I borrowed from a friend I was able to experience what most people have been talking about. I heard from friends that it was good but to me I never thought that it could be this so damn good! I wasn’t the type who got hooked in a TV series, I’m more into animation or cartoons. The last series I remember watching faithfully every week was (I admit this would have to be lame) “Dawson’s Creek” simply because everybody else I knew was watching it, it was the cool thing back then during high school. I’m not saying that the show was bad, I even could relate to it somehow since it was a show about growing up which where I was during at that time. Going forward, Heroes is like a cartoon or may be a comic book translated into live action. Its got all the elements of one interesting book and film combined into one. Heroes has a diverse set of characters, its action packed, with a bit of comedy and also it has drama. I’m no expert but what more can you ask for? This show has got the formula to get you hooked to your television sets waiting for what’s gonna happen next. I only wished I could have watched it sooner so that I wouldn’t have been kept long in the dark when everybody else was into it.

Everyday as I came home from work I make it a point to watch one episode before putting my self to sleep. I was really excited to know what happens next each episode. If it was not only for work I could have finished watching the entire season may be in 3 or 4 days but it took me week, I did a marathon watching during my days off. I guess that only shows how addicted I am to the show. As I am writing this post I just finished the last episode and it literally ended with a bang with Peter and Nathan probably blowing up in space. Another good thing about this show is that it also has values or morals in the story. Heroes has shown the importance of family and of being united despite our differences. I think Heroes has shown that there’s more to comic book than being kid stuff. With Heroes it’s cool to be a geek. I am for one a self confessed comic book geek. Im just really thankful to the people who made Heroes, I got nothing but praises for the show. Now I’m eagerly anticipating what happens next in season two I just hope this time I’d be able to watch if not (because of my work I don’t get the chance to watch primetime TV)I guess there’s always the dvd.

Heroes also inspired me to work on my own comic book. Isaac’s or more properly Tim Sale's painting/artworks has influenced and inspired me a lot to draw. Thanks to that I’ve already done a lot of character sketches and thumbnails as well for my on-going comic book project which for the longest time I’ve kept mentioning on this site. If ever I have time I’ll have some of my work scanned and it show it to all of you in my deviantart site (which also hasn’t had an update for a year I think). Hopefully, I might get done before this year ends. I didn’t give myself a specific deadline because I don’t want the book to look like it was rushed. I just want it done right. I don’t want to set any expectations as to how it would come out because for one I’m not a great artist I just know how to draw and tell stories thru my drawings. Though I’m happy to know that a good friend of mine told me that after he finished reading/editing my script he found it to be interesting. That for me means a lot. If one person could like it then others will. Im still thinking though if I’d publish it or just release it as an online comic but im still far from being finished so I guess its too early to think about it. I guess that’s all for now. Be back next time.

2007-09-23T18:05:00.000-07:00

The F.O.B. Experience

September 20, 2007 for me would have to be one of the best damn days of my life. It was really a day to remember, for I was able to go watch and see one of my fave bands, Fall Out Boy perform live! Even from the very start with Chicosci’s opening act I was already singing or should I say screaming my hearts out. Chicosci really proves that we pinoys know how to rock! I could say that it has to be one of their greatest performances that I’ve seen so far from the band. I guess they’ve really up their performance level since they’re opening for one of the famous bands in the world w/c also happens to be their labelmates, Fall Out Boy.

After Chicosci’s energetic set it was time for the band that everybody was waiting for. As soon as the lights went out all the people in the coliseum screamed! Even if the venue wasn’t that packed still you could hear the people’s scream loud. I for one had screamed my lungs out, matter of fact I don’t have any voice as I write this post. Then the band came up stage which made the people scream louder. From their very first song up “Thriller” to their last, “Saturday” I was singing and screaming along. The band did not disappoint. Everybody in my opinion had their money’s worth (since the ticket prices are quite expensive).

I was sitting up above in the upper box section but still the songs came out loud and clear. I even manage to save some video clips of their performances in my mobile phone. The concert was bliss. The band was performing non-stop from start to finish w/c makes you want to ask for more. I didn’t remember though how many songs they played, though I heard somebody said in our section it was 16 songs but im not sure. Regardless of how many songs they sung that night was still a blast.

To the band…“Thanks for the memories”…

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I’ve also just finished writing my script for my comic book. Im quite happy ‘bout it since I’ve been planning it for the past 2 o 3 years and now it’s finished. Right now its just being edited by one of my good friends, Lance. I asked him if he could edit it and im really thankful that he did. He already read a few parts and I’m happy to know that he finds it interesting. I doing some character sketches right now and if all goes well im planning on drawing it starting October. I also have another friend of mine, Mike on board on this project, he’s gonna be my inker. He’s also one talented artist and im really honored and thankful that his willing to collaborate with me on this endeavor. It’s a 20 page comic-book and hopefully I could get it done before the year ends. Im still thinking of publishing it independently (but if ever somebody’s interested to publish it I’d be more than willing to) or may be just uploading it as an online comic. It’s been years since I’ve dreamt of making my own comic-book and now its starting to take shape. I’ll just keep this blog posted regarding developments about this small project. For now, I’m back to the drawing board.

2007-09-02T19:40:00.000-07:00

Feelin’ good

The title of this post pretty much describes the state that im in right now. Never felt so good in quite a long time. I just recently celebrated my birthday last august 14 and im 23 but still the same old me. I just celebrated my bday with my whole family at my aunt’s place. I haven’t hang-out with them for quite while now due to work so it really feels good spendin’ some quality time with them. It was just a simple celebration over lunch. But I still can’t believe that im freakin’ 23 years old already?!

As compared to my bday last year this year was wwwaaayyyy better for a whole lot of reasons. Mainly bcoz this year I’m no longer in a state of depression. Now I can laugh my hearts out and smile. Simply put I no longer in an “emo” state. Nothing special happened though but still its all good.

As a treat for myself I watched “Evan Almighty” and here’s what I think about it…

Movie Review: “Evan Almighty”

Jim Carrey…Adam Sandler…Rob Schneider...Ben Stiller and then there’s Steve Carrell. I believe that these guys would have to be the best comediennes of our time (well, for me at least) and Steve’s got to be included in this list. Im not a big fan of his though, I haven’t seen his big hit “40 yr old virgin” or watched his television shows but still he sure made me laugh in his last endeavor “Evan Almighty”.

The movie is sort of a sequel/spin-off of the first film “Bruce Almighty” wherein God chose Evan Baxter, a news anchor to build him an ark. It’s a Noah’s ark adaptation in modern time. I liked how the story was presented, as to how it was incorporated in our time. Though it was presented as a comedy it still didn’t deviate from the original story. It’s funny seeing how God convinced Evan to do the ark and how the animals flock him. I can’t even remember how many times I laughed; the movie from start to finish was really hilarious. Steve’s acting was superb and the way he delivers is really funny.

The movie was not all about fun it also has some sense in it. It shows the value of faith and love for your family. I liked the part wherein God was convincing Evan’s wife to go back and help her husband. He was explaining as to how our prayers are being answered. I don’t know if these were those exact words but it was like; “if you ask God for patience he wont give it to you but he would give you the opportunity to be patient; if you ask God for courage he want make you brave but he would give you the opportunity to be one…” and it bought sense to me. If God would answer our prayers he wouldn’t give it to us directly but he would give us the opportunity to have our prayers answered. Like for instance love, for sure most of us have asked for this yet we still looked and searched for true love but to no avail. God knows who’s best for us and when that person arrives for sure he would give us that sign or opportunity to love and be love. Another good point from the movie is how we could change the world. Its simple…A Random Kindness or ARK coz if we treat each and every one kindly the world for sure would be a better place to live in.

It was my first time doin’ a review for a comedy and I have nothing but praises for this film. It’s not a heartwarming story which usually makes you cry but its more of a feel good movie which not only makes you laugh but also enlightens you about a thing or two. You wouldn’t miss out on anything if you don’t see this film but you wouldn’t have any regrets if you do.

We sure do need to laugh sometimes.

Rating: 4/5

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Fall Out Boy is performing this month at the Araneta Coliseum. I thought I’d never get to see them live coz their initial play date was sold out but thank God another concert date was announced. I just bought my ticket for their Sept. 20 concert and man, am I excited to see them play live. I’m really a big fan and I wouldn’t miss out on this once in a lifetime chance of seeing them play. I saw Good Charlotte’s concert 2 years ago and I had a blast (even by lonesome) and this year im thankful that im able to go out with two of my friends. Its still a few weeks before the concert and I’ve already uploaded all my F.O.B. songs into my mp3 player. That just shows how excited im for the concert. See you at the show.

…Were goin down, down in an earlier round…(from “Sugar, we’re falling down”)

2007-08-05T20:06:00.000-07:00

BOOK REVIEW: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows

One of the most anticipated books of the year, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows, the 7th installment in the series did stand-out to meet the expectations of us all, Potter fans. I’m actually just a convert I’ve only been a fan since the 3rd book (Prisoner of Azkaban), I used to think that Harry Potter is just for kids and I was wrong, so wrong.

The 7th book picks up as to where the last one ended. It shows Harry continuing the mission that Dumbledore left him, the quest to find He-Who-Must-Be-Named’s remaining Horcruxes. Harry no longer went to Hogwarts since he would be an easy target for the Dark Lord. He also parted ways with the last connection he had with his family, the Dudleys. Harry along with Hermione and Ron traveled all across the wizarding world looking for Horcruxes while at the same time hiding from the grasp of the Dark Lord. Along the way they learned that legend of the Deathly Hollows, which are three magical things whose possessor of all three would be the Master of Death. Harry then not only looks for the Horcruxes but the Hollows as well.

In this book it explains the complete story of Harry’s past, the true events that happened to his parents when he was young, the true connection that he had with the Dark Lord, Dumbledore’s life and his family and the shocking revelation about Serverus Snape. The answer to the question: “Would Harry be able to finally defeat the Dark Lord?” Yes, he did but that wouldn’t spoil your fun because you would need to read as to how he did it. For sure, you’d love it, I’d say that it could be the best or if not one of the best moments that you’d ever read in this book.

What I like mostly about this book are its twist and turns. There are a lot of surprises in this book or more properly shockers in this book. I hope this would not be a major spoiler but there would be a lot of deaths in this book and you’ll be astounded to know which ones would die. One of my favorites in this book is the “The battle at Hogwarts”, I imagined it to be as somewhat similar to LOTR’s “battle of Helms’ Deep”, only with wands. J.K. Rowling is for me, a genius. I love the way she writes and the imagination that she has, its magic. I love this book because its written in a simple way that both kids and adults alike would understand. I only got praises for this book. It’s really a must read for all Potter fans. For the occasional reader it’s definitely worth your while.

2007-07-08T20:02:00.000-07:00

More than meets the eye

A line from one of the famous franchises ever made…the Transformers. The movie adaptation of this cool toy line from the 80’s was really superb. Couldn’t ask for anything more, the story, visuals, cinematography, everything was great. This is could be pretty much the movie of the year! Just finished watching the movie (planned on seeing on last week but I was sick) but this post ain’t a movie review. This is something different, it’s about a talk I had w/ one of my female cousins. Our discussion ended up w/ about how ladies think of us geeks (I’m proud to be one).

We met at one of the many coffee shops in Makati. She asked to meet me bcoz of a favor she was asking for. We had coffee and she asked for advice as to how she could break up w/ her long time boyfriend. I simply told her what the last girl I had a relationship with (though I don’t know if that could even be considered a relationship). I told her to just keep it simple and painful. I told her not to beat around the bush. I told her that she no longer needs to say stuff like; “its not you, its me” and other crappy reasons that people give. I advised her to tell the guy the facts. She could point out things as to how the relationship is no longer working for both of them or may be she could tell him as to why she’s no longer happy with him or even tell him as to why she’s tired of their relationship. It may be brutal but it’s the truth. Nobody goes through a break-up without any pain; it’s a part of the deal.

I don’t know though if she would use my tips but at least I somehow helped her clear her mind ‘bout the ordeal she’s goin’ thru. I pity the guy. He’s not bad at all but I think the problem with him (which my cousin agreed) is that he’s your typical guy. I cant exactly describe it in words as to how he became generic but to simply put it you could refer to it as somewhat of a jock or a “coño”. Got nothing against them its just that you could easily classify them. They’re the type of guys who has a way with girls, has a car, likes to party,
hang-out at bars, gets laid every now and then, in other words they’re the type of guys that MOST women go for. They’re the type of guys that’s everything I’m not.

In your typical high school movie, you could easily classify me as a geek. I’m not that intelligent enough to be called a nerd and not cool enough to be in the clique. It’s a sad reality but I was able to live with it. With the help of my friends I was able to learn what it takes to be “cool” but still I was a geek by heart. People now see me as of those typical guys but its just an image. Im still that geeky kid inside and sadly when ladies knew about this more often than not they turn away. It doesn’t matter what you look nor what your attitude is once they know you’re a geek its over. This might be my opinion but it’s because it was based on personal experience.

Im a 22 yr old comic book collector and I’m considered as childish and immature bcoz of it. Why? Simply bcoz of comics? Its unfair to judge us simply bcoz of our hobbies. Yeah I’m a grown up but you couldn’t simply take away the kid in me, it’s a part of me already and I find happiness in it. You might say that I need to grow up but I beg to disagree coz I have already did. Im into comics but I wouldn’t put it first on my list of priorities, you know how to define a hobby right? Its simply a past time. I just don’t get it why most women don’t understand this. Most of them say that we should think about something else like may be our future, our careers, our lives and honestly I do. Its just that these women couldn’t stay long enough to see that we’re also capable of such. At first you would get long well, have fun, share stories and when it gets to the part where you get to know each other that’s where the problem occurs. It would be a BIG and I mean a BIG turn off once they learn your into kid stuff like toys and comics. They’d just simply stop there and think of you as a geek. They wouldn’t even give you the chance to see what you’re capable of. In the end they would even give it as a reason as to why you two could never get together bcoz of it. These women wouldn’t even see themselves with guys who are into comic books, toys, video games bcoz they’re rather be with “real men”.

Call me a geek, call me envious, call me bitter, call me whatever you want. I just wanna get this off my chest for a long time now. Its unfair for people like us to be treated like this. All im asking for is a chance to show that we could also do what you’re “real/cool men” could do and heck may be even better. We may be geeks but its not like we’d put comics or toys first before you. We are not like you’re typical guys who always find reasons to argue with you. May it be because of jealousy, your punctuality, your dress, or may be simply bcoz they need to bcoz they need to keep fuel the relationship so that it wouldn’t be boring. I find it crap. Why waste time arguing when you could talk more about live, love or better yet do something memorable together. I believe that problems help make the relationship stronger but you don’t need to create the problem, it would eventually come. When it comes that’s the time wherein your relationship would be tested.

Simply bcoz were into our hobbies it doesn’t mean were boring. It doesn’t mean that we’d only tell you stuff about comics, toys and video games. We also know about other stuff if you’d only let us. We’d only tell you about our hobbies if you asked us about it.
My point is simply this, I hope that you could accept us for what we are as much as we accept of you are, I guess you could call it respect, which I think is also an integral part of a relationship. Like for example, women smoking is not an issue for me. Smoking doesn’t define your character. It may be a part of your system, it may be a bad habit to break but I wouldn’t scold you like your parent would bcoz I believe you’re a grown up individual and you know it in you that its bad and eventually you’d fine it in yourself to quit. I just hope that you could also see us geeks in that aspect. That comics, toys or video games doesn’t define us; give us a chance to prove our worth, what we’re capable of and you’d see in the end that we’re more than meets the eye.

2007-05-19T23:52:00.000-07:00

3inOne

I’ve been pretty much having fun this summer so far. I got lots of things to share w/ y’all. I guess these posts would pretty much make it up for lost time…

PULP SUMMERSLAM VII DEADLY SINS

April 28 2007. A Saturday that I couldn’t forget, a day wherein I went to the grand daddy of all rock in the country, its like Woodstock Filipino style. Ever since I’ve heard of the event, its always been my dream of goin’ there. Luckily I got the chance this year. Not only was I there to experience the fun but also to support my friend Pau and his band “maryzark” (see previous posts for info regarding the band).

We arrive at the venue at around 1pm and to our surprise the line was freakin’ long. I might have to say that the line went around the whole block of the stadium in Amoranto. The line was no joke, we fall in line for 3 long hours under the scorching heat of the sun and with sweat, a little more sweat, a couple of more by the minute and by the end of the line we’re like drenched in our own sticky sweat, all for the sweet (and not sweat!) love of rock and roll.

We got in at around 4:30. I dunno who’s playin then but I just immediately texted Pau to know where he’s at. I met up w/ him at the side of the stage. Catch up on old times and after a few minutes bid goodbye coz he was about to go up on stage. They were the 6th band that played that day and to my surprise when it was their band playin’ a lot of kids got up and went to the mosh pit. I was like, “man, its freakin’ cool!”. I didn’t notice that they were already this big. I would have to say that their set was best next to Urbandub’s
that afternoon. They were the only indie band that I remember who made all the kids jump that afternoon.YEAH!

The fun doesn’t stop there though, we were in for s surprise, something that we didn’t expect to come true but I admit I was somehow hopin for it too. Guess what? We got backstage access!!! Damn! We were really are lucky bastards that night. Imagine watching our idols performing right up front the stage. It was like rock star heaven! And just as how the home tv shopping says; “but wait there’s more…” yup. There was something else. We also had our picture taken with them. It was my first time meeting these rock stars in person. Just to name a few (w/c I think you might this envious) I had my picture taken w/ the guys from BAMBOO, FASPITCH, pau and ice of MARYZARK, pacoy and chi of TYPECAST, ney, rye, chuck and bob of 6CYCLEMIND, sib from JACKTV, the female host that afternoon (I forgot her name but believe, man she was hot!), jay of KAMIKAZEE and of course w/ the lead vocals of the bands celebrating their 10th year anniversary that night, reg of GREYHOUNDZ, jamir of SLAPSHOCK and ian of QUESO.

I was really a major fanboy that night. I didn’t get to finish the concert though. Gotta leave early coz I was still goin back to the province the next day. As they say, all good things must come to end and guess what? It did. As we were passin’ by the TRIBAL booth to get our shirts something terrible happened. I was in line w/ pau and another friend when there was a sudden commotion that happened. People began to rush forward to get their shirt. After I paid for mine and got away from all the ruckus I approached pau and he just told me that he lost his phone. Damn! Its just a terrible way to end the might. We were in shock. I just don’t get it why do some people need to such terrible things. We do also work our asses off to buy our belongings. It was a night of celebrating good old rock and roll, everyone was having one and then this had to happen. To whoever took pau’s cellphone I only here’s my middle finger for you! I know this doesn’t look nice but still F**K YOU @ss****!!! Hope karma gets you back!!! Im a nice guy but people like these just really piss me off! Because I too have my own share of losing my mobile phones, I got pick-pocketed three times so I know what it feels like…

Overall the night was fine except for the phone incident and even if I didn’t get to see one of the bands im lookin’ forward to play that night, TYPECAST and DEATH ANGEL play live. As for the latter I it’s ok (though I’ve heard that they really played well) because I’m really not into the hardcore, heavy metal genre but nothing against the music, I guess its simply to each his own. I has been a really a memorable experience for me. It was really a blast. If you’d ask me would I go back next year? Hell yeah I will!!!

ME AS A MODEL (the girlfriend magazine call center road show)

April 30. The Monday after the summerslam, I was on day-of but I gotta carry my ass to the office for a fashion show. Yep. You read that right a “fashion show” and im in it. During college I was able to join a few but I wasn’t the model then its either im one of the even coordinators, production staff or may be even the host but this time its different im gonna walk down that ramp.

It all started with just a mere curiosity. There was this mini-fashionista contest that was held at the office. I joined just for fun coz for all I know it was a mere picture taking and people would vote who will win, as simple as that or so I thought. A week later somebody from the organizers came and got my measurements for the clothes that we’d be wearin’. That’s when it hit me, I asked why? He told me that there’d be a mini-fashion show. I was stumped.

My friends all laughed bcoz of the mess I got into. So who would have that my curiosity would have landed me in that mess. Hehe. Guess there was no turning back from that point. On the day of the said event I was there early and freakin’ nervous, afraid that I’d make a fool out of myself. Waited for about an hour and half and we started to rehearse. That’s where I learned that its also hard bein’ a model, its just not simply about mere walkin but also remembering your cue/spot. I guess its not really my thing doin’ this but I loved the clothes. It fit me. I just wish somehow we could have taken it back home.

The actual even lasted for about an hour and after w/c I was drenched in my own sweat (I’ve been really sticky during this weekend). Thanked God, I didn’t embarrass and humiliated myself. My friends thought that I did good, they just had few funny comments about me that night. I didn’t win though somehow I wish I could have (I guess there’s that feeling every time you join a contest) but in the end it all feels good. It was another memorable night. I guess this year’s coming up pretty good for me. I know it’s still early but I hope everything works out fine for all of us.

DANITA!!!

Actually this is just a side-post from the previous one. This post also happened on the night of the fashion event. I first saw her backstage when we arrived and I know immediately that she’s she, I mean that she’s really DANITA! For those of you who don’t know her yet (as if I’d really knew her that well myself) she’s an up and coming artist in the local music scene. As some of you might have read, she also came from a well established celebrity family. She’s a celebrity herself but she just opted to walk a different path, not away from the limelight but just on the other side of the road from show business, the music scene.

I first learned about her from a newspaper article. I read it and as I look at her picture I thought that she kinda resembles Iya (another celebrity crush of mine). That was the first reason why I got attracted to her. The second one was the time that I got a chance to hear her play live on a local radio station. Man, she was so damn good! That pretty face of hers really has a beautiful voice to match. She looks like an angel who could rock!

I was thankful that not a lot of people showed up that night. I was lucky enough to see Danita perform up close. I mean literally, I was like a few steps away from the stage. If she’s pretty on paper she’s way more better lookin in person! She’s really beautiful to the nth level (w/ regards to my standards of course) and you could take my word for it. Her performance was great but the crowd was simply just not into it. I think I was the only person having fun w/ a few of my friends of course. This time I was really making a complete fool out of myself, shouting, cheering and jumping in my place. I know that she had easily noticed me because believe me its hard not to.

After her performance I immediately ran to the side of the stage where she’s at and asked if she could take a picture w/ me. I was thankful that she agreed and not only that, I also got of copy of her album, had it signed and chat with her for a few minutes. Danita is one of the most beautiful, talented and nicest people that I’ve met so far. I would have to say that this opportunity was way more better that winning that fashion event.

Danita, if ever you got the chance to read this I only have one thing to say…thank you and I hope to see you again.

***
I would have to say that im on a lucky streak that weekend coz of all these things that had happened. That weekend was really a blast and this post was sure a lengthy one. This post was actually weeks in the making. I hadn’t done it in just one sitting. I couldn’t exactly remember as to when I started to write this post but for all I know I was immediately excited to blog about this after that weekend but i just couldn’t find the time to do it. I already have a couple of posts in the making so just feel free to came back, I guess in a month’s time. Hehe.

Later.

2007-03-09T18:45:00.000-08:00

Blog on life-support

Before anythin’ else let me first give y’all my long overdue greetings for Christmas, the New Year and just a few weeks ago, valentines…

I know its been ages since I’ve last written something. Its just now that I had this urge to write. Months have passed and if this blog was a house it could already have cobwebs in it due to its inactivity. Time is the very reason why I havent updated this site in quite a while. Just like what a line in a song says; “so little time, so much to do...” my time is mostly consumed by sleeping because of my work (I don’t have a normal job, im one of the nocturnal ones, im a call center agent for almost two years now) and for my remaining time, I either play video games, read or if Im inspired, I draw. If im lucky enough I got to hang out with my family and at times a few friends. I rarely got a social life these days. With these being said, hence the title of this post, this blog is on life-support. It doesn’t mean that I would be ending the life of this blog but due to time constraint and poor time management, I’d try to write every once in a while (hopefully, once or twice a month…)

2006. Another year has gone and I could say that a lot has happened this past year. This past year has been quite a rollercoaster ride. During the early months of 2006, I was happy, happily in-love. Around that same time, something tragic happened. I lost my grandmother and a few weeks later my cousin became seriously ill. Never thought such things could happen. I guess if there’s love and happiness, there’s pain and suffering just ‘round the corner. I might say that 2006 is pretty much a f**k up year for me. Not only had I been hurt but betrayed by some people whom I consider “friends”.

Valentines day, was just like any other day again this year. Nobody and nothing special happened. Been getting’ used to it though. Its been like this for 5 years now. Lonely..

This coming year I hope to do a number of things like: achieving my dream of finishing my first comic book, either being promoted in my job or transferring to a different field (preferably the media industry), spend more time with family/friends, save money and probably work-out,hehe, been gainin’ weight these days. I admit I already have a noticeable belly, people thought its beer belly but its not, its due to laziness and lack of exercise.

As much as I would like to write more its just I no longer could. I’ve been awake for 20 hours now and my bed and pillow is already calling me to sleep. Its bout’ time that I put these eyes to rest *yawn* …

album review: maryzark “good mournings”

2006-11-12T18:28:00.000-08:00

album review: good mournings by maryzark

as they say the local music scene has been quiet healthy these days. Its nice to see that a number of great bands are emerging in this present time. Though a number of bands has been sprouting like mushrooms here and there, some bands do really stick out from the rest and “maryzark” has been one of these bands.

With all the members of the band hailing from one Alma matter, St. Mary’s academy, Pasay (hence the name of the band), this band is set to introduce a new brand of music to this generation. Maryark’s sound is theirs alone. I couldn’t find a band similar to their type of music. If would have to brand what genre their music falls under, I would have to say that it’s a mixture of emo, punk and pop. I do believe that through their music you’d get to appreciate what “emo” is.

Their songs are deeply emotional; it talks mainly about love and its different faces; the joy that you find in it and the pain that it also brings. Experiences that a lot of us (me being one) could easily relate to, who has not experience love and the joy and the pain it brings, most of us right? What’s nice about the songs is that most of them are tagalong songs so it hits you closer to the heart.

I’ve been lucky to be one of those people to have seen this band grow. These guys have a really gone a long way. I got to chance to listen to their demo cd a few years ago and I would admit that I’ve been a fan ever since. Back then I only got to listen the demo tracks of “m3”, “hindi na” and “enmity” and I’ve been hooked ever since and long have I waited for this album to come out.

Aside from those tracks that I have mentioned, other commendable tracks are “back to paradise”, “another song without you”, and their single “kai” which could easily be your LSS (last song syndrome). Among the 10 tracks my fave track would have to be the song “4/2”. That song really hit me. The songs in the album are all potential LSS (last song syndrome). I mean, you could easily be addicted through their songs.

Overall, “Good Mournings” is a nice debut album. It clearly introduces what the band’s music is all about. Some might not like the “emo” tag/genre but putting that aside the album is good listen and a good buy. After listening to the album numerous times, I could say that there are times when it feels good to mourn, reminisce and then move on.

Unfortunately, their album is not yet out on record bars. You could only get a copy at their gigs, their mailing list or if you want you could message me here at my blog and I’d get you one.

Rating: 4/ 5…if you don’t like their music, I guess you prefer something else.

Do watch out for the mtv of their first single “KAI”, it’s gonna come out either the 3rd week of November or early December on MTV. You can catch the preview at http://bluerainmultimedia.com/videomtv_kai.html. And if you like what you saw or if you happen to like their music, you could join their mailing list @ maryzark@yahoogroups.com.

a new post.a new skin.a new life.

2006-11-12T18:25:00.000-08:00

Finally after a few weeks of hibernation, I’m back. As you could notice there’s a new skin to this blog, courtesy of my cousin Zhela. I went to their place the other day to have my pc fixed ‘coz I bought a new hard disk. Thanks as well to my cousin Ku’ Allan for fixing my pc and giving me his old cd writer. Thanks a million!

Honestly, I could say that I’ve finally moved on. Gone are the nights that I’d cry and think ‘bout her and how we used to be. I’ve grown tired of living in the past and trying to bring back somethin’ that could never be. As how a song puts it, its just like simply chasing a ghost of a good thing. Regardless of what I do, I can never bring it back so I’ve decided that there’s no more room left for me but to move on. I detach myself from her. I no longer care ‘bout what she does now with her life. I just wish her all the best. I thank her for all the good and the bad. I’d treasure all those memories. Guess’ its ‘bout time that I follow my friends’ advice to finally love myself this time.

If you’re thinkin’ why I chose this template for my blog, its simple Good Charlotte’s my favorite band. Actually this is just a hurried post. Just wanna’ simply write somethin’ coz I haven’t blog in a quite a bit now. ‘till next time. Love to hear from y’all soon.

a break from all that is emo

2006-09-17T01:59:00.000-07:00

this post is quite different from my previous posts.somehow i got tired of bein' too emo is this blog.its some sort of refresher.a new start for my blog and hopefully for my life...

just wanna have a big shout-out to the whole adamson falcons basketball team.hands down to you guys.you've accomplished a lot this season.even though im no longer goin' to school, im a proud alumni that you're able to make it to the final four this season.sadly,we lost our game to ateneo but guess that's basketball.you win some,you lose some,still there's nothin' to be ashamed of,be proud!nobody expected that we's make this far.congratulations!...to Ken Bono,you're still the man!im a fan!for us,you're still definitely the mvp!congratulations!

im back to drawing once again.its my anti-depression right now.hopefully,id be able to upload some of my works at my deviant page.to see my previous works feel free to click on the link "my deviantart".

i was also recently hired as an artist for our company newsletter.nobody else applied so i ended up having the job.hehe.i don't get extra pay for it but its the honor of having your art printed on the newsletter.my strip is somewhat beerkada-ish style.its a comic strip that tells of our lives in a call center company.hopefully,my first art would pass and get printed on the next or first issue?

finished listening to maryzark's first album "good mournings".damn.its such a nice album.sadly,their album is not yet available in record bars.you could get a copy of their album at their gigs or at kerplunk!studios at the midland mansions in makati.their single "kai" is already being played on some radio stations.hopefully you get to listen to it.lets support the band.i'd be coming up w/ my review probably next time.

im off to work.got shift tonight.damn.

im still not over her...

2006-09-16T04:07:00.000-07:00

Pagmulat ng mata.Agad kong naalala kagabi sinabi mong ayaw mo na.May mali ka bang nakita?May mali bang nagawa?Bigla na lang naisip mong ayaw mo na...Lahat ng gusto mo tamang sunod ako.Nagtataka bakit biglang ayaw mo na.Nabigla ko ng lubusan.Nang ako iyong aking iwanan.Basta na lang naisip mong ayaw mo na...Lumingon sandali lang.Bago mo tuluyang iwan nais kong sumigaw palabas at sasabihin sayo ang lahat.Tumakbo, palayo at iiwanan na ang alaala mo...Nanginginig, nalulungkot, nahihibang, at tulala.Pagod na yata ang ngiti nauubos din ang tuwa.Nag-iisa, umiiyak, nahihirapang huminga pagod na yata ang ngiti nauubos din ang tuwa,nanginginig nalulungkot...At kung hindi na babalik sana sa pag-gising ay wala na ang nadaramang sakit at kung hindi na babalik pilit sasabihin na hindi ako nagkamali...

"director's cut"

-kamikazee

goodbye

2006-09-10T03:43:00.000-07:00

"can i just be something?somewhere in your room,that you wont notice.may be ill be paper or books thrown on your floor.move me when you want to.ill live where you put me, in your VCR if i become a cassette or on top of your computer if thats where i would fit then so be it but things cant be perfect all the time that i know.sometimes we just have to let some things go. i will not say one word ill just hang around i wont annoy you at all.when you move out ill stay until im thrown away but then it wont matter things cant be perfect all the time that i know sometimes we just have to let some things go because things cant be perfect all the time that i know sometimes we just have to let somethings go.i promise to stop but things cant be perfect all the time that i know sometimes we just have to let some things go.things cant be perfect all the time that i know sometimes we just have to let some things go.letting go is my life,ill be on my way..."

"kind of perfect"

-armor for sleep

a post that describes what im feelin right now

2006-08-27T03:41:00.000-07:00

"goodbye old friend,goodbye goodnight.i'll move on. you'll call it fate, i'll call it karma.we had our time, it was fun while it lasted.i'll look back, with honor and no regrets.i won't be mad, won't feel bad these memories will never leave me.don't be sad cause life goes on, life goes on it's getting too late tomorrow is here..."

"call it karma"

-silverstein

maryz ark

2006-07-18T20:29:00.000-07:00

guys,check out the band of my good 'ol buddy paulo "maryz ark". they're an upcoming band and they're out to rock your world, seriously. i mean, im not saying this just b'coz im friends w/ the drummer of the band. believe me, they're awesome. i mean words are not enought,so just feel free to watch their live perfomance of their song "kai".i would have to say that "maryz ark" is one of the best emo bands to come out of this country.i do believe personally that after hearing this band you'd get to appreciate what emo is all about.Their album is coming out on July 21st, "good mournings".watch out also for their live perfomance at Myx's "bandarito" (pau,you're one lucky guy, nakasama mo na yung biggest celebrity crush ko si IYA!hindi ka man lang nagsasabi)scheduled by the end of this month, july 29th i think.for detailed skeds,just go to rakistadotcom na lang.So if you like what you see, got get a copy,ayt?this is not yet the best but only a sign of things to come...pau,free plugging na 'to sa site ko,ha?just wanna help out in any way possible.good luck and congratulations...

local emo

2006-06-15T21:51:00.000-07:00

as you may all know i'm really into emo and most of mylyric-post have been all emo songs. guess its 'bout time that i post something about our local emo.this band needs no further introduction in the local music scene, typecast. i've been listenin' to their "the infuation is always there" and here's one of my fave tracks, "assertion"...

"unexplained sight whenever you're around this unfulfilled adjacent of moment comes around impulsive scene shivers over and over again i wonder if i could completely present myself to you i dont have any brilliant words to say anyway and affirmation denies everything i need to say take back everything like nothing's left for me why cant you feel the way i'm feeling now? could you even pretend that you want me?"

"assertion"

-typecast

angels & airwaves

2006-06-04T06:09:00.000-07:00

im pretty sure that you've heard about this 'bout band.it's a new band by ex-blink 182,ex-box car racer frontman, tom delonge.the album's nice,just got a copy the other day,if you have time go pick one.here's a lyric post of "a little's enough" from their album "we don't need to whisper"...

"I, I can do anything If you want me here and I can fix anything If you let me near Where are those secrets now That you're too scared to tellI whisper them all aloud So you can hear yourself...I'm sorry I have to say it but you look like you're sad Your smile is gone; I've noticed it bad The cure is if you let in just a little more loveI promise you this, a little's enough..."

-"a little's enough"

angels & airwaves

i know i've said it a couple of times but i just havent found time to upload my actual posts reason why its still lyric posts that i have here in my blog.hopefully next time its goin' to be a full post.thanks.

amber pacific overload

2006-05-06T06:12:00.000-07:00

another one from my current fave band,amber pacific...its a sad song...

"This is for the ones who believe their lives won't change.Hoping that someday things will mend and be the same.And this is for the ones who have lost it all. When all that's left to gainIs a simple reminder that the things that we're blind to slip away...How can I say?Say I'll be okay...And if I fall through these days that go by without cause.Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own and if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on.Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on...Now that the line's been broken I'm too afraid to just look back.The pages have left an empty space.You were all I had.Why does it have to be this way.These things they'll never change.Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy, this is all I need..."

"if i fall"

-amber pacific

for what its worth

2006-05-06T06:06:00.000-07:00

i've just recently discovered a new band named "amber pacific" and man,do i love their music..i dont know know but i guess they're also emo-punk.if ever you got a chance listen to them, they're nice no they're not, they're good...here's another lyric post from one of their songs...

"We missed our chance.I won't forgetAs time will only tell where to go.Though I wish that you weren't breathing.I still just can't believe.You're gone..."

"for what its worth"

-amber pacific

"one in me"

2006-04-18T05:16:00.000-07:00

" just can’t stop the pain.That you’re beside me yet so far away.Am holding on to these lies.Believing that one day you’ll be my prize...It’s like wishing on a star that I know will never be mine.And so I cry and cry whenever that star is there to shine.So now I tell my heart, before I lose my mind.That I don’t have you, but baby….Hey I’m here for you and you just don’t seem to care, but I’m here to stay.And will forever pray that I’ll be in your arms.Hoping that someday you’ll see me.Find the one in me...How I wish that you’d know even just a bit of me that I can’t show Coz am Dreaming of you every night hoping that someday you’ll be by my side...Now it’s killing me… this fantasy’s been blowin’ up my head and I just wanna wake up, but sure I’ll fall back there again.And so I might as well believe, that you’re the only one for me..."

"one in me"

-akafellas

im sorry for the delay in my actual posts.haven't found the time to finish my actual posts coz im in a bit of a situation right now reason for this type of lyrics again and im catchin' up on my sleep.most likely i'd be able to upload those posts by this week coz im off tom...

"My Favorite Accident"

2006-04-18T05:01:00.000-07:00

"You said we were an accident.With accidents you’ll never know what could have been.So we were an accident.You’ll always be my favorite one..."

"my favorite accident"

-motion city soundtrack

pink white blue

2006-04-01T11:52:00.000-08:00

"You're my angel, in my own heaven, Life is a miracle.It's so surprising, uninviting, i'll never be alone..Life to me is very real, a miracle that I can feel.Everytime I try to sleep, I dream of you and it feels so real.Everytime I try to breathe, i suffocate and I start to bleed.All of these because of you..."

"pink white blue"

-mayonaisse

we are so last year

2006-03-29T23:45:00.000-08:00

"i just wanted you to know i think about you every night.when i fall asleep,you are in my dreams and just like in a movie the one you want to see with a happy ending..."

"we are so last year"

-hawthorne heights

ung tagalog

2006-03-22T05:30:00.000-08:00

i guess this would have to be the first tagalog post on this blog.i guess you'd get the picture of what i'm goin thru right now thru the words of this song...

" Akala ko noon may pag-asa sa'yo dahil sa iyong sinabi na maghintay lang ako ngunit, isang araw nagulat nang naglalakad ako may kasama kang iba, nakayakap pa sa'yo...Sana'y 'di na umasa pa! mukha tuloy akong tanga.noon pa man ay mahal ka na ngunit sinayang sa wala..."

"ung tagalog"
-kamikazee

scars

2006-03-20T00:08:00.000-08:00

"I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut.My weakness is that I care too much.And my scars remind me that the past is real.I tear my heart open just to feel..."

"scars"

-papa roach

your boyfriend sucks

2006-03-15T18:14:00.000-08:00

and the lyrics still goes on....

"...Finally got the nerve to tell you.How much you mean to me.You said that i was your best friend,A real sweet guy.But thats all i'd ever be...And I'm still here,Waiting there,To catch you if you fall.I don't know why I care so much.When I shouldn't care at all..."

"your boyfriend sucks"

-ataris

my paper heart

2006-03-15T01:52:00.000-08:00

here's another one of my new found way of posting, my lyric posts...

"Please just don't play with me.My paper heart will bleed.This wait for destiny won't do.Be with me, please, I beseech you.Simple things, that make you run away.Catch you if I can...Tears fall, down your face.The taste, is something new.Something that I know.Moving on is easiest when I'm around you...So bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea.Watch it away as you cry...Waiting, day to day it goes through.My lips are sealed for her.My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you.To settle for less is not what I prefer..."

"my paper heart"

-all american rejects

and the lyrics goes on...

2006-03-12T01:48:00.000-08:00

i dont know what's gotten into me but lately i just feel like uploading lyrics or excerpts of a song to express what i feel for the moment.'guess its shorter as compared to a usual post.i just hope that thru this lyrics you get to picture out what's goin' on with my life.here's another one,enjoy?later...

"i don't want you to give it all up and leave your own life collecting dust. and i don't want you to feel sorry for me. you never gave us a chance to be...i just wanted you to tell me the truth. you know i'd do that for you...why are you running away?...' cause i did enough to show you when i get close you turn away. there's nothing that i can do or say. that i was willing to give and sacrifice...is it me? is it you? nothing that i can do to make you change your mind...is it me? is it you? nothing that i can do to make you change your mind. is it me? is it you? nothing that i can do. is it a waste of time?"

"running away"

-hoobastank

Ohio is for Lovers

2006-03-09T01:32:00.000-08:00

this post is another excerpt from a song. again, this somehow describes what i feel, honestly right now...im freaking frustrated....

"Spare me just three last words I love you is all she heard.I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever..."

"Ohio is for lovers"

-Hawthorne Heights

if you were mine

2006-03-03T21:58:00.000-08:00

this is a chorus to a song from a couple of years back.'guess this could somehow describe what i'm feelin' right now...

"if you were mine, everytime you would be the one to make me feel alright day or night,feel you close in my heart...if you were mine,yes its true there will never be a day without your smile,take your time,baby i would feel so real if you were mine..."

"if you were mine"

-bed & breakfast

the guy's rules

2006-02-11T23:35:00.000-08:00

as i read my mail today i saw this email from a friend,which is worthy emough of uploading to this blog.it may look ridiculous but somehow its true so girls please take time to sit a while and read on...

The Guys' RulesAt last a guy has taken the time to write this all down Finally, the guys' side of the story.(I must admit, it's pretty good.)We always hear "the rules"From the female side.Now here are the rules from the male side.These are our rules!Please note.. these are all numbered "1"ON PURPOSE!

1. Men ARE not mind readers.
1. Learn to work the toilet seat.You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.We need it up, you need it down.You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moonor the changing of the tides.Let it be.
1. Shopping is NOT a sport.And no, we are never going to think of it that way.
1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want.Let us be clear on this one:Subtle hints do not work!Strong hints do not work!Obvious hints do not work!Just say it!
1. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question.
1. Come to us with a problem only If you want help solving it. That's what we do.Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.
1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.
1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.
1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.Don't ask us.
1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one .
1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done.Not both.If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.Peach, for example, is a fruit, not! A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
1. If it itches, it will Be scratched.We do that.
1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.(this happens to be my favorite...)
1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear Is fine...Really.
1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation,or golf.
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.
1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!
1. Thank you for reading this.Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.Pass this to as many men as you can -to give them a laugh.Pass this to as many women as you can -
to give them a bigger laugh

why me?

2006-02-11T23:28:00.000-08:00

(I think this is a timely post since hearts day is fast approaching. I’ve been alone for the past three years, how bout this year will I have somebody by my side already? as I’m writing this post, im waiting for a message comin’ from her…)

last night I was having a serious conversation with the diane and she asked me; “why me?”. She was asking why out of all the girls in the world or in the office to be precise; why is it her that I chose to love. That time all I could tell her was; “that’s a very interesting question; why does it have to be you?”

nobody falls in love overnight and never did I believe in love at first sight. Attraction, yes but love at first sight, I don’t think so, I just believe that’s just a famous cliché. Something that a lot of people would like to believe in, but not me, it ain’t my style. Then how come I could say that I already love her? I do believe that you fall in love with a person gradually, you fall in love with somebody as you know her more which is what is happenin’ to me.

I admit, its more over two months that we’ve known each other but a lot of stuff has happened already. its given that we barely know each other but as each day passes by somehow little by little we get to know more about each other. I just hope that somehow she’s also getting to know the real me, that there’s more as to what her eye can see, that im somebody who’s sincere in everything that I do. someone who’s sincere in loving her in my own special way.

Goin’ back to the question as to why I love her, the answer would be its what I feel, I mean there’s no specific reason ‘coz if there is, once you take that reason away then you fall out of love, which is a part of life but I do believe in cherishing what you have now and just worry about tomorrow later. I think love is immeasurable, its not quantitative, it’s the quality of love that you provide.

I could enumerate all the wonderful qualities that diane possesses but its still not enough. I love her not simply because of what she is as a person but I love her as well as to how she made my life turnaround. As you all know I’ve been losin’ my motivation, its like I was inspired before as what I thought but then again, its not. I had a wrong intuition but this time im definite that she has given my motivation back, which this time I could really say that im truly inspired. Not only she gave my energy back to work but she had inspired me back to draw. Nobody has ever did that before to me ‘xcept her. Which I am truly thankful for and im plannin’ to repay her the only way I know how, by loving her truly and sincere.

This aint just sweet talk, whenever I say these words you could very much tell that im sayin’ the truth. Just pardon my grammar but all of which are true, this is how real as I can get, this stuff is purely impromptu, its like that words came out of my heart, processed by mind and then typed by me hands into the keyboard and then uploaded into this blog.

As I end this post she still hasn’t messaged me, which makes me worry, I don’t know what tomorrow brings but I just hope that somehow it’ll all be better for me. I’ve been prayin’ that god would grant my prayer this time, its not that im in hurry but its already getting tirin’ having always to be the one sufferin’ in pain. I’m believing that after what I’ve already been through, I’ve been downed a number of times already and a lot of people who knows me knew that, if I’ve always been down I guess the only room left for me is to go up. I just hope that this time I didn’t just have a glimpse of heaven and then in the end it would be taken away from me once again…lord, please don’t….

finding my heart…

2006-02-11T23:26:00.000-08:00

this is a nice way to start the year, another one of my so called emo-posts…

a good friend of mine, Honey made a comment to this blog recently. I think it was with regards to my repost: “why does it always happen to me”. She mentioned about me having found my heart and I guess she’s right, this time I really believe that I did.

As what you all know I’ve fallen and got hurt numerous times already. everything seems to be some sort of déjà vu. Its like I’ve always found myself in the same situation as what I was in before reason why the story always end up with me on pain’s receiving end. I’ve been downed a number of times and I’m already askin’ when will the hurtin’ stop? Im only wishin for happiness and I guess this time I think, feel and hope that this could be really the one that I’m waitin’ and lookin’ for…I don’t know but that’s what I really feel…never felt this happiness before only ‘till now…

Just recently I’ve somebody special; she’s the type that I never expect I’d meet, seriously. She’s like the girl of my dreams personified, you know the type that you prayed for every night that to hopefully meet someday. I couldn’t find the right words to express but its like finally finding your true love or something similar to that effect. Arrgghhh! There are times that I’m really not good with words. The moment I saw her I was immediately attracted, I mean she’s really pretty, as in (even if she claims that she isn’t, its ok though ‘coz for her I’d even change my perception of what beauty is). Though before I’ve just contented myself in looking at her from afar or even simply glance at her when she passes by. My friends have already met her before me and I was like how come you already know her and I don’t? When I was given the opportunity to talk to her I was even humiliated by a friend, damn! It even took me a long time to ask for her number. Its like even when we already knew the existence of each other I was mute, whenever she’s around all I can do was smile and say hi! I couldn’t do anything’ else, my friends were even my voice…’guess I do have a history of sucking big time!

I don’t know why, when or how but when I finally had enough courage to talk/text to her we just suddenly clicked! It feels like we’ve known each other ever since. Everythin’ happened by so fast. Its like from total strangers we became the closest of friends. Man, if you could only know how much happy and thankful I am right now. Its like everythin’ falls into place, its like everythin feels just so right whenever she’s around. Somehow you’d already get an idea ‘bout what I’m talkin’ ‘bout.

But she’s just not just a pretty face, she possesses qualities that as a whole makes her a wonderful person inside and out. She has qualities that would make any guy fall and in my case I’ve already fallen so deeply. She’s nice, sweet, responsible, hardworking, dedicated, funny, cheerful and so on…its like what’s there not to love…I know we’ve barely known each other but as I know her more, the more that I fall…

For the past 21 years that I’ve lived in this earth it’s the first time I’ve ever felt this way. The feelin’s different this time, its like its more intense right now. I know I’ve already mentioned in my previous posts that I was willin’ to take the risk but I guess I have never really did only up until now. Another good friend of mine and one of the people who knew me best (which happens to be my one and only ex) even calls me choosy when it comes to girls, even idealistic when it comes to things, certain in almost everything but I guess this time I’m gonna throw away those conceptions that I’ve had before. This time I’m willin’ to take a journey into the unknown, I don’t know where this road leads to but I’m still willin’ to push thru, its like this time I’d never miss this one chance to be happy with somebody that I really love. I guess I’ve really found my heart this time…

Before, I’ve never mentioned the name of the person that I talk about in my posts. It’s not that I’m afraid or shy to mention their names, I don’t know but I just feel writin’ about them in that way. Its not that I’m comparin’ them with one another but this time it’s really different, this time I’m willin’ to tell the name of the one that I love. I guess this is really the start of somethin’ different for me, hopefully a brand new start as well…

Diane, you know how much I’m happy with what we are and what we have right now but I would admit that there’s that part of me that wishes and pray that we could be more than what we are now but don’t worry I’m very much willing to wait. It’s enough for me that we have this special kind of relationship and I’m happy that you know how much I love you…

the ’06 comeback post

2006-02-04T23:45:00.000-08:00

to those few people who care and pay attention to this blog, my apologies for not being able to update my site like I used to. I’m also sorry if I haven’t yet updated this site like I promised to. In all of this I only got one simple explanation, I don’t have the time, sorry.

Before I proceed any further, I just want to greet all of you a belated happy holidays! And also an advance happy valentines!

Not much has changed in my life during my absence, I’m still working at the same company, I know got a new phone (again) ‘coz I had lost my beloved 5510, I’m still single and still waiting, I still love emo-punk, what else? Hmmm..Oh!I do now sport a colored hair and obviously I’m still good-looking (I invoke my right to freedom of expression).

Basically this post is the official comeback post of ’06. I know I missed out on a lot of things in the blogging world but hopefully this year I could update this regularly like I used to. It’s really hard having no internet access at home. Good thing internet access was restored at our office pantry so somehow internet life became easier.

Truthfully speaking I’m not yet that inspired to write another post. I just did this to have something officially to start the year ‘coz as you can see my two previous posts are either a hurried post or a re-post. This post is really the newest post to officially start the year…

A year that I hope would be mine…

A year that I hope that she would finally come…

re-post: "why does it always happen to me? "

2006-01-21T03:43:00.000-08:00

somehow history does repeat itself, i dont know why but somehow what i feelin right now feels some sort of deja vu, reason for this re-post..*sigh*

rejection is something that is not new to me.i've always been honest that i experienced it a number of times before (7 times and still counting...) and im somehow wonderin' why does it always happen to me?i've always been on pain's receiving end,can't i be the one happy for a change?!

im already gettin' used to it but im also getting tired of it.i've heard of numerous lines that really shattered my heart into pieces but i would no longer mention them one by one.the line that somehow stucked into my mind is;"you deserve someone better"...over the years a lot of people told me that and somehow i still don't get it.does that mean that i've always made wrong decisions?that the person im giving my heart to is not deserving of such love?im not asking for too much,having my love requieted is enough for me,is that too much ask for?what will i do to acquire such?im very much in need of help right now...

i miss y'all

2006-01-21T03:29:00.000-08:00

its obvious that this blog has been inactive for some months now simply because i no longer got easy internet access at home and also most of time is consumed by work or if not resting. i miss writing. i miss blogging. hopefully,this year i'd be able to find time posting.i got my posts already saved in my pc, i just really havent found time to upload it all.belated holidays everyone and an advance happy valentines also.
see y'all next time (hopefully soon...)...

For you…

2005-11-12T14:19:00.000-08:00

Notice: this event happened a month ago already but its just now that I was able to have time to upload this entry. A lot has happened since then (like losing my phone)which I would be tellin’ you some other time. Well, without further adieu here’s another of my so-called emo-posts.

*this post is a little bit different as compared to my other posts ‘coz this aint really a post. This is a letter that I did for somebody special to me. A letter that I got no plans of giving (well, at least for now) I just thought of putting it in this blog so that I could have an outlet of what I feel as of the moment. If by any chance she stumbles upon this site then we’ll know what happens by then but as for know read on. To that special person in my life this is for you….

These past few days have been so wonderful, almost as near as perfect, you know want to know why? It’s simply because of you. You’ve bought back my inspiration, my motivation but most importantly a reason to look forward to something everyday.

Thought I wouldn’t have this feelin’ anymore. I thought this feelin’ was just something from the past. Guess’ destiny sometimes really plays a trick on us or more specifically on me. I’m not sayin’ that I don’t like this ‘coz it’s obvious that I do, ‘coz why wouldn’t I? In fact, I’m so thankful that somehow we’re back to how things used to be. It’s like déjà vu or something ‘coz it’s like I’m living in a dream or its like having your dreams come true or something like that.

I know I’m goin’ in circles but guess that’s really what its like when you love somebody. Simply seeing your smile early in the mornin’ starts my day right. I’ve observe that you seem to grow more and more beautiful everyday. Believe me, I ain’t playin’ nor am I sweet talking you. These ain’t one of the jokes that I crack, its something that true, so true that I don’t have the courage of saying it to you up-front and face to face.

I love your smile, your voice, your eyes, the smell of your hair, your kindness, your stories, the way you flip your fan, the way you sleep or even the way you hold the strap of my bag, your beauty , your jokes, your texts, your laughter, your family, your dogs, the way you talk, your caring sweetness, your friendship, even your food, your candies but not too much on the way you smoke but its ok (got nothing against that), your fashion sense, your colorful accessories, your earrings and even your cute butterfly clips. I could go on and on telling you the things that I love about you but simply put all I need to say is that I love every little thing about you.

It’s not that I’m afraid or a coward for not having the courage of saying these things to you instead of doing making this pathetic post in this blog with hopes of somehow you’d be able to read this crap feelings of mine. But then again, I hope you’d never stumble upon this post ‘coz I don’t want things to get complicated between us. Believe me if I say that I’m contented with what we are right now but I won’t also deny the fact that there’s a part of me who’s dying and hoping that we could be more than what we are already.

I’m contented in loving you in silence ‘coz I’m already privileged with this wonderful friendship that you’ve given me. I’m not askin’ for more ‘coz if I do I might even lose what I have right now, your friendship. Even if I don’t talk about it it’s obvious what I feel about you. I know you’re in a superb relationship right now that’s why I’m holding back my feelings for you. I’m holding back ‘coz I don’t want to take advantage of the friendship that you’ve entrusted me with. I know your happy with your man and I also don’t have anything against that. All I’m wishing is your happiness which he seems to be givin’ you so well. Knowing that your happy is pretty much enough for me. All I am doin’ for you is what any other friend would do for you.

Who knows may be someday or somewhere down the road we could be more than what we are right now? There are things called destiny and serendipity, right? I want to believe that somehow such things do exist. I’m sorry if this may be too far-fetched but I really do hope and pray that somehow destiny would smile at me and make this poor fella’s dream come true. If it wouldn’t then who am I to argue, ‘guess may be its really not for me. If that may be the case I’m still happy ‘coz I’ve still got a wonderful friend, not bad right? You might not feel the same way as I do but it’s alright. I really just want to have a release about what I feel right now.

If by any chance you’d be able to read this just want to say I’m sorry and I hope that nothing’s gonna change between us. All that you’ve read in this post is true and so does what I feel for you. Don’t worry I understand where my place is and that is by being by your side as your friend who would be there whenever you need somebody to laugh, cry, joke, tell stories with or even simply having someone that you could hang around with. Nothing more, nothing less.

I used to call you my “meant-to-be” and in my heart you still are. I may end up with somebody else and so do you but in my heart you’d always have that special place as my “meant-to-be”.

Thank you for everything.

I love you.

*if you want to know as to how the story started please refer to previous posts; “Butterflies and Cigars", "Sometimes it just simply sucks to be me (a.k.a. déjà vu)", "81484". thanks.

Komikon ‘05

2005-11-12T14:13:00.000-08:00

October 22,2005, 9:45 am, Cubao, I met up with my cousin/partner in crime, CJ or more popularly known as Dribs (a.k.a Momopi), well he goes by a lot of names but I prefer calling him dribs ‘coz that’s what I’m used to already. He was with his girlfriend, Rhen and as usual I’m by my lonesome, hehe, don’t even bother asking why. Anyways, lets cut to the chase, that day was quite significant or more properly monumental ‘coz that was the day we would go to the Komikon 2005 at UP Bahay Ng Alumni.

We didn’t know what to expect in a comic convection so we only bought ourselves and some cash so that we could buy some comics that might interest us. A big mistake I would say ‘coz we never know what awaits us at the con’. We forgot to bring our comics to have them signed and some extra sketch papers to get our idol’s autographs or even some simple sketches (dribs was luckier though ‘coz he got to have one sketch)*sigh*…

The Komikon was like geek haven (this post really brings out the fanboy in me) ‘coz there were a lot of artists, writers and of course comics in the event. More importantly, I was able to see some of my comic book heroes in the event namely; Mr. Gerry Alanguilan and Mr. Berlin Manalaysay.

Mr. Alanguilan is the guy behind the comic book novel, WASTED. For those who still haven’t read this book yet, you should try it, it’s a good read. Wasted has shown me that comics are not all about superhero stuff. That comic books that deal with human emotions are good read as well. You don’t need super-heroes nor mutants to have a good comic book. Telling about human emotions such as love would is a nice basis of making a good comic book. Basically, this book has inspired me a lot to do a comic book that is not superhero based.

As for Mr. Manalaysay, I could say that he was one of my heroes as I was growing up. Do you still remember that ever famous comic book when we were still young (by the way, I’m just 21), Funny Komiks? Mr. Manalaysay was guy behind the Filipino version of Rockman, Combatron. Cool isn’t it? He’s already like a cultural icon ‘coz a lot of kids from my generation knows him. It like every kid during our time was able to read an issue or two of Funny Komiks. Man, those were the days…Luckily, Dribs was able to get a sketch of Death Metal drawn by Mr. Manalaysay himself before he left the event (I envy that guy ‘coz I’d love to have my own sketch as well, darn! Well, anyways there’s still next year I hope…).

I would have to say that I’m priviledge to have seen my comic book heroes ‘coz they were like the people who inspired me to continue and develop my comic book skills. Thank you sirs!

The komikon also featured a lot of nice indie pinoy comic books out there. In fact it also inspired mo finally put up a comic book of my own (tentatively titled as “Boys at the Back”). Hopefully, before the next komikon I’d have it finished and may be display it along the other indie comic books there. Got a lot of things in mind its just that I haven’t got the time to do it.

(a picture of me and my idol,Mr. Gerry Alanguilan)

To the people behind the first komikon, hat’s off to to you guys! Nice job! We’d be back next year!

I’d love to tell you a lot more of what happened at the ‘con its just that I don’t have enough time to tell it to all of you guys. If you could notice as well this is a rushed post, my thoughts are a bit unorganized, my apologies, I also haven’t written somethin’ in a while and my writing skills are startin’ to get rusty.

Hehe. That’s all for now, ‘til my next post. See yah.

holding back...

2005-11-12T14:10:00.000-08:00

After a long break from this blog here I am goin’ emo once again. I’m sorry but there are certain times like this when I just feel like writing some mushy, emo stuff. I don’t know the reason why may be because there are certain times when you just cant help but be lonely even if how wonderful things are goin’.

Yeah, I admit, I’m lonely.

As you all know its been like years since I had a significant other, a girlfriend to say the least. It’s not that I’m rushing things but there are times (just like now) when I miss the feeling of being with somebody special aside from your friends and family.

And just like what I’ve previously posted on this blog, I’m into somebody right now. I know the words aren’t appropriate but all I wanted to say is that I’m captivated by a particular person right now. She’s pretty, nice, intelligent, easy to get along with, caring, sweet, or basically she has everythin’ that made me fall.

I don’t know if it’s serendipity, destiny or plain simple false hopes. I’ve already told you that we’re neighbors, we travel goin’ to and from the office together everyday, we both have the same schedule and even day-offs, our stats in the office are next to each other, we’re even next to each other in the name listing in our team. What does these things mean? It’s like somebody up there is bringing us together but then again in reality these things doesn’t mean a single thing.

But more importantly is that she’s already taken. Meaning, she’s in a relationship, she’s got a boyfriend and I got no chance. Harsh but true. It’s a fact I’ve learned to accept a few weeks or months ago.

If I know what the situation is already, then why am I still hoping? Its stupid still feelin’ this but what I can I do? I admit I just couldn’t brush the feeling off that easily. Believe me if I say that im no longer head over heels over her but the feelings still there. Im no longer hurting and I can say that I’ve already moved on…like may be a feet or two. I know its not that far but it’s a start right?

The reason why I still cling on to these false hopes is because of the…”what if?” probability. I know there’s a slim chance that we end up being together in the future but then again, what if? Do you get my point? I know its confusing but what I’m simply tryin’ to say is that still you may never know what destiny holds for us. We may be living separate lives today but what ‘bout tomorrow? It’s pretty obvious that she’s contented and very much happy from what she has right now and I don’t plan on taking it away from her.

I could honestly say that I’m pretty much contented with what we are right now, great friends. I know I’m still wishing things to go more than this but if this is all that we could ever be…I’m still happy.
That hardest part of being in my shoes is the feeling of restraining yourself from doin’ something that you really wanted to do. Holding back or suppressing your feelings is hard but if its one way of moving on then I’m willing to grab the chance. Sometimes you wanna jump around in happiness because of something wonderful but all you can do is to smile. In plain simple words, holding back is the best thing that I could do right now.

public announcement

2005-11-08T16:11:00.000-08:00

i would just like to announce that i no longer got my mobile phone.

its either i lost it or it was stolen.

gonna' miss that phone for sure...*sigh*

a quick commercial break

2005-11-02T14:21:00.000-08:00

here's just a little something to read before i publish my actual posts.i got this survey from mam jen's blog.

read on...

First best friend:
Marvin Noguerra

First car:
owner-type jeepney (silver & stainless) :)

First break-up:
around 3 years ago...

First screen name:
Leo

First self purchased album:
Eraserheads (Fruitcake)

First funeral:
my granddad's (father side)...

First pets:
none (sorry but im not that into pets).

First big trip:
baguio

First music you remember hearing in your house:
beatle's yesterday

LASTS

Last kiss:
yesterday, w/ my mom...

Last good cry:
around 2 years ago...

Last movie seen:
Land of the Dead

Last beverage:
Sprite Ice

Last food consumed:
Mcchicken & twister fries..

Last crush:
does this mean the most recent one? if that's the case then that would be...nikki..hi nikki! :)

Last phone call:
my sister

Last time showered:
this morning...

Last shoes worn:
leather shoes for work...

Last item bought:
Sims Collection Cd

RELATIONSHIPS

Who is your very best friend?
my cousin Dribs and of course my buddy up there,God.

Do you have a girlfriend?
nah,though i wish i have.

FASHION/STUFF

Where is your favorite place to shop:
mall

what i'm looking for:
comic books.

Any tattoos or piercings:
none.

SPECIFICS

Do you do drugs:
nah.

What kind of shampoo do you use:
any would do.

What are you listening to right now:
Blue & Yellow (the used)

Where do you want to get married:
at a beautiful church.

What would you change about yourself:
im happy w/ what i am.

FAVORITES

Color:
green

Food:
tinola

Boys' names:
Anthony (coz that was supposed to be my name according to my name)

Girls' names:
Iya

Subjects in school:
Film & Prod Class

HAVE YOU EVER

Taken a bath with someone:
nah.

Smoked:
nope.

Made your self throw up:
not yet.

Skinny dipped:
na-ah.

Made your self cry to get out of trouble:
nope.

Cried when someone died:
of course.

Lied:
yup.

Fallen for your best friend:
nope.

Rejected someone:
yeah.

Used someone:
no.

Done something you regret:
yup.a number of them actually...

ARE YOU

Open Minded:
uh huh.

Arrogant:
i dont think so.

Interesting:
somehow...

Moody:
nope.

Hardworking:
YES!

Organized:
hehe..no.

Healthy:
i think so...

Bored:
yup!

Responsible:
somehow..

Angry:
why?

Sad:
a bit.

Disappointed:
no.

Hyper:
YES!YES!YES!YES!YES!

Trusting:
uh huh.

Talkative:
i guess so..

Legal:
im of legal age so i think so..

WHO DO YOU WANNA.

Kill:
none.

Slap:
none.

Talk to online:
my high school buddy,parmandeep grewal...

WHICH IS BETTER

Coke or Pepsi:
Sprite..hehe..coke for me...

Flowers or candy:
chocolate.

Tall or short:
tall?

Thick or thin:
thin.

RANDOM

In the morning I am:
awake.

What do you notice on a person first:
eyes.

Last person you danced with:
my cousin zhela...

Who makes you smile:
almost everything.

Who do you have crush on:
Iya and a lot of other girls more...

Who has a crush on you:
i dont know.is there anybody who has?

DO YOU EVER

Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you:
nah ah.

Wish you were young:
i'm young for i am a 21 years old w/ a mind of a 16 year old.hehe.

this blogger is still alive...

2005-10-18T14:25:00.000-07:00

well,as usual this blog has been obviously outdated for the last month or so.got nothing specail to share with y'all lately, though i've done a number of emo posts again which i plan on posting whenever i have time.oh, before i forgot something wonderful did happen to me,i'm now on a day shift and im already a regular employee for the call center company that i work for.ain't that great?

'guess that's 'bout it for now.later fellas.

remember this blogger is still alive...i'm just bored.

Anybody who had a long stressful week of work/school deserves a good laugh…( a movie review)

2005-08-31T11:55:00.000-07:00

One Sunday afternoon I went a on date with..um, you know…ah, this certain girl…nah..i just went out and had a good time with my younger sister and its been quite some time since we went out and watch a movie. In addition to that, its been like years since I made a movie review (obviously, I’m bluffing but that’s really what I feel ‘coz I missed doin’ reviews).

Just like my other reviews, it goes also little something like this…here’s what I think about the movie…

The Longest Yard

wrestlers + rappers + comedians = riot!

Over the years we had a number of football flicks such as; “The Replacements” “Any Given Sunday” “The Waterboy” and may be some other more, its just that these are only the movies I’ve watched and these are the ones that easily come into mind. I could say that this movie is a combination of these three films. The humor and story of this film could be at par or may be even better than any of the three films mentioned. Of course, each one is different from the other but they all had one common denominator…football.

Adam Sandler was, as always, hilarious, he may not be as hilarious as compared to his other films but still he doesn’t disappoint. In fact, after watching this flick, I would have to say that this is my new favorite Adam Sandler flick of all-time. Its not only Adam Sandler who bought laughter to this film but also thanks to his loyal, side-kick, Mr. Caretaker himself, Chris Rock. I believe that these two makes a perfect match, a white and a black comedian, not bad, right?

As far as the acting is concerned in this movie (particularly the wrestlers and the rappers) I believe its just fair, not that bad but not that good for any of them to earn an award. The wrestlers to begin with, somewhat already have a background in acting right? With a line up of Stone Cold, Goldberg, Kevin Nash (who played a ground-breaking role), Nelly and a bunch of funny extras, I never expected that they would have such a nice chemistry. Oh by the way did I already mention that Courtney Cox was hot?

Story-wise, its also not that bad. It only has a simple premise, a famous sports figure turned bad, went bad, got into jail, tryin’ to serve his time, his past haunts him, redeemed himself and the story ended happily after. Not that complicated right? And what’s good about its fast paced but it wouldn’t leave you hanging and askin’ for more. Basically, it’s a story that you could expect out of a sport’s flick. Cinematography was also good, it could somewhat also be compared or may be even at par with that of “Any Given Sunday”.

This movie also shows some serious issues like discrimination, that nothing much has changed from the past. That there is still between a clear division between people with different social class, cultures, race and even color, the only thing that bridges the gap between all these differences (as what has been shown in the movie) is sport and the love of these different for the game itself. Another issue is that of the brutality that convicts receives from people who run the penitentiary, the jail guards. Convicts even if they are already convicted criminals they still do deserve humane treatment just like you and me.

Overall, as you could read, I’ve obviously loved this film. You’d know what I’m talking about once you get to see the film. In these entire crises that our country is going through, economically and politically, we do somehow deserve a break and escape from all these conflicts. The movie is a well worth-spent of your money and time that I assure you. If you wouldn’t have fun, you would have a blast. The Longest Yard is best seen if you’d watch it other people (it doesn’t matter if its your significant other, friends or family) because its nice having someone to laugh with. In case you’re a total loner or has the guts to be seen as some kind of weirdo laughing by your lonesome, then go ahead, by all means, laugh your hearts out…and that also goes out to everyone as well who’d be watching the movie…

*rating: 5/5

once again, it’s the part that I have to say until next time. I’ve still haven’t continued working on the stuff that I’ve told y’all ‘bout. As soon as I find the time I would finish it because I’m also excited to share it with all of you. Here's already a sample of what i have recently done.its not that much but its a start,i guess...please click here to view.

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2005-08-25T10:36:00.000-07:00

*notice: this a lengthy post for this narrates the memories of my birthdays from my yesteryears...if you have time please read on…thanks…

this day marks the 21st year of my existence in this world. Somehow I cant believe that 21 years have already passed and here I am still alive, kickin’ and writing this post.

Lookin’ back at all those years I can tell that nothing much has changed. Im still see myself the same way I see it before. Im still the same old luiboi that some people have grown to love. the only difference in me now is that for one, I’m older, a little more responsible, mature and undeniably good-lookin’. Hehe. Im just playin’ with you guys.
By the way, speaking of good looks, im once again sporting the classical mohawk haircut (hope I could upload a picture this coming days).

Anyways, going back to the reason for this post, this year my celebration (if I could even call it such) has been like what it was the years before, ordinary. There are only a number of my birthdays which are a little bit special that I could remember of. First would have to be my 7th birthday, its obvious though why this is unforgettable, it’s a given fact in our culture that every kid celebrates his birthday with a feast during this year (I just don’t know as to what are the reasons why). As far as I can remember our compound back in cavite with lots and I mean lots of people. I think all of my relatives (even to the farthest degree) were there. The reason why this is memorable is because that’s probably my first and last birthday wherein I received a lot of gifts. I even felt bad when people give me money because how could I enjoy it? I’m just 7 years old back then. I was really into toys back then specifically action figures like T.M.N.T, g.i.joe, ghostbusters, thundercats and the likes…

After that year, everything seems to be monotonous, year after year, a simple celebration would be enough, which im not against of. I’m really thankful that I was born to family that has provided me the things I need and more. Im just saying that its like it has become a habit because after that year I can’t seem to remember any significant birthdays ‘xcept for the birthdays that I haven’t told you ‘bout yet.

I was also happy when my birthday falls on a school day because my classmates would sing for me and its like you’re a star for a day. Everybody greets you and is nice to you. Also, what’s nice about that is that some of my crushes would greet me which makes me really and I mean really glad.

I could say that may be the most memorable birthday that I ever had so far was back in first year college. That was the year I celebrated my birthday with my first and only girlfriend (so far…). I celebrated it with her at our house and I introduced her to my family. It was simple but special but that’s not only what makes it memorable. I got a call from my high school buddy, Prime, a call that I thought was a simple greeting but ending up as a surprise. He was already calling me just outside of our house with his girlfriend and they decided to give a visit. All the while I thought it was just the two of them but as I went out, I saw them with the girl I had previously courted before I ended up with my girlfriend. I was like…f**k, what am I gonna do? My girlfriend’s inside and there I was standing with the girl that almost became my girl. I told my buddy that I was really surprised, very much surprised! I wouldn’t be in a frenzy if my girlfriend hadn’t known my past with this girl but she does. To make the long story short, I didn’t get to enjoy that night, I was literally caught in the middle. My buddy was spendin’ time with his girl and my girl was good enough even to talk to the girl that almost became my girl instead of her. I was trying my very best to be casual about the situation but I was really uneasy the whole night.

But the story didn’t end there. Next day when I taught everything was already over but I was wrong. When I got home from school I got a call once again, this time its not from my buddy but from the girl herself. I was asking what was the reason for the call and she’s telling me if I could go outside cause she was already there waiting. I even had the nerve to ask her why and she told me that its bout her book. I was like; “what book?” she told me that she left it last night and then my sister who is hearing our conversation handed me a book and I was like; “f**k!”. I hurriedly hung up the phone, grab the book and went outside to meet her. I handed her the book and the same time asking; “would there be anything else?” she asked for a glass of water and off I went grab a pitcher and a glass of water. She drank the water then asked; “can I go inside?” (peeps, I’m not making up this story, believe me…)

Guess, what I’ve said…I’ve said; “um, can we just stay here instead cause the house is a mess…”…damn! How ungentlemanly can I get? F**k! my hormones were goin’ haywire that time reason why I opted to stay outside to avoid sin and waste a very good opportunity to you know…well, forgive me I was young then ok…a lot has changed since then but again goin’ back to the story… she wanted to go inside to talk about serious matters she said. I said what can we talk about inside that we cant about here outside. May be she gave up because she can tell that I was firm about my decision that we won’t go inside and so the conversation began with her askin’…

“are you happy?” I was like; “of course, why wouldn’t i?i just celebrated my birthday last night…” she gave me a blank face telling; “not that stupid. I know you know what I am talking ‘bout.” I answered back innocently saying; ‘uh, if its not that then what ‘bout? I really have no idea…” once again, she gave in to my answer and slowly and shyly asked me back; “are you happy with her? Can we bring back the way things used to be?”

then it hit me. This girl still has feelings for me and then it happened. I broke a young lady’s heart. (*guys, if you could just see her she’s not one ordinary girl, she was a hottie, you know the type we guys go crazy for) I slowly answered; “yes. I’m very much happy with what I have right now. Can we just be normal friends?” F**k! I feel guilty ‘bout what I did ‘coz this girl and I really had something good goin’ on before I met my girl…nothin’s wrong with her its just that I felt that we wouldn’t click coz I cant ride the lifestyle that she has…she was like a party girl (not the negative type though) and I was the geeky, homeboy next door…may be all I wanted was a simple life.
I admit, I was wrong for not giving her the chance and see what things could have been. I didn’t give us a chance because I’ve met a girl that has all the qualities that I am lookin’ for. When my friends heard this story they were all like; “man, are you dumb, stupid or gay? “ my friends knew this girl reason why they we’re all like feeling sorry for me and some ridiculing me to some extent. But I never did regret that decision ‘coz I know that from that moment I knew that I was loyal, that I never did cheat on my girl. As you all know that relationship lasted for two long years…

But not all birthdays we’re good ones. There were years, two years to be exact that I was down, heart broken and lonely during my birthday. The first one would have to be during third year high. I was courting a girl a year ahead of me. We almost became a couple. We we were like seeing each other after class, writing letters and stuff, you know the mushy things that young kids do. I thought that she feels the same way that I do but I was wrong, I was so wrong! She gave me a promise that she’d give a surprise on my birthday but guess what? On my birthday she hid away for me. Even the week after my birthday, I searched for her but her friends keep telling me that she’s not around.

One day, eventually she was no longer able to hide from me. I confronted her and asked her what the problem is. Finally, se had the guts after a week to tell me the painful truth…that she already has a boyfriend….wow! This girl has just let me in for a ride. She told me the crap that she just saw me as a baby brother or somewhat. That she was sorry and all but at the end of it all she just made a fool out of me. She indeed gave a surprise, a painful one…

Just last year was another lonely birthday for me. My family was celebrating in the province and I was left alone here in the city by my lonesome ‘coz I was still doin’ my thesis then. We had scheduled to have an interview with our thesis respondents. Our group mates and I came but guess what? They didn’t. I think we waited for like 2 hours or so but no one showed up. Obviously, we’re all disappointed and pissed off. As for me, I spent my birthday alone, no one to celebrate with and eating instant noodles. Guess it only means that even if its your birthday you’re not spared from loneliness.

This year, I’ve not spent my birthday alone but still it was a little disappointing ‘coz I had a shift that day and I had to work. Work was pretty stressful that day. Good thing something wonderful also happened to me that day, the girl who loves butterflies and cigars prepared me a homemade breakfast, which has really made me glad. No one has ever done it yet to me. the food was really delicious but I held back some of my happiness ‘coz I know that she’s only doin’ that because we’re good friends and I know that her surprise doesn’t mean anythin’ ‘xcept for the only reason that we’re good reason.

After shift, I went home to have a simple celebration with my family. It was a relaxing feeling ‘coz its been like 2 months since I last went home be with my family ‘coz I had shift during weekends. I played and hang-out with my cousins something that I really had missed to do. wish I could bring back the days when I was still a student, a time wherein there was a lot of time for everythin’. My life now is pretty much boring which only revolves around work and home. Everyday is like a routine.
Ending up this 3 page length post I’d like to thank family, my friends and all the people who greeted me. I know my birthday has passed already days ago but its just now that I was able to upload this post but nonetheless I’d like to thank you for spendin’ the time out to read my ultra-lenghty post. Simply finishing reading this blog has already been a nice birthday gift for me. Guess, this could pretty much make up for the days that I wasn’t able to post something on this blog.

Good day! Y’all take care….

*im almost done with my artwork that I’ll be adding to the template of this blog. Thanks to my cousin drib’s photoshop tutorials I now know how to color my artwork on adobe photoshop (take note: I only know how to but I’m still not great at it). If you have time you could visit his deviant page at http://momopi.deviantart.com

anouncement

2005-08-04T22:45:00.000-07:00

there would be no posts until further notice...(in other words, this is just a pathetic attempt to post something on the blog)..but seriously though im working out something for this blog.

please stay tuned for details.

thanks.

good day.

finally…

2005-07-15T11:15:00.000-07:00

It’s really been quite sometime since I last posted something meaningful here in this blog (as if all the posts are really that meaningful). I just hope that I still know how to blog. He he. I’m already living a rout nary-quite-boring life, my life is no longer as fun as what it used to be…I miss all of ma’h friends from high school up until college!

GOOD CHARLOTTE: “Noise to the World tour” Live in Manila

2005-07-15T11:10:00.000-07:00

July 8, 2005. The Good Charlotte Concert. The event that I wouldn’t miss this out for anything in this world. Nothing would stop me from goin’ to the concert. Not the political crisis, not the rallies that call out for the president’s resignation that day, not even my work could stop me. And so I did. I went by my lonesome to something that could be a once-in-a-lifetime event for me.

The concert to begin with was simply a blast! The front acts we’re also great! Kamikazee, Mayonaisse, Chicosci rocked! Though I was disappointed by Typecast, one of the front acts because of their attitude. They even didn’t get to finish their set because their vocalist was making a mess on stage. He was like pushing the mic stand every now and then which caused the stage crew to always put it up again every time the vocalist pushes it down. He did it consecutively and when he can’t get enough of it he was about to throw or smash his guitar. Good thing the crew had stop him before he hurt he was able to hurt anybody or more over before he hurt himself. I don’t know if he was under substance influence or he was just like that because that was the only time I heard of such band.
With regards to the performance of the other bands just liked what I’ve mentioned they rocked the house down! Kamikazee’s rockin’ set and funny antics have jumped started the crowd with their crowd! Mayonnaise got the crowd moving! Chicosci (w/ their my chemical romance inspired-look) pumped up the crowd more for the main event!

And then it began, the event that I have waited for! Good Charlotte came out the stage after the “Battle for Life and Death” intro. They started their set with “The Anthem” and there I was standing along with the crowd singing my lungs out to their songs. I was really happy to see my idols singing up on stage! Before I could only see them on t.v., watch their videos/dvd, listen on to their cds and then there I was watching them perform live! I couldn’t express the happiness I felt seeing my idols perform! I was amazed with their live performance because they sounded like what was on their cd!

The guys were so happy to perform that night because amid the political situation in the country still people showed up to see them! The guys were so happy that they performed as many songs as they could that night! Here’s a list of the songs they performed (in no particular order) as I remember them:

1. the anthem
2. predictable
3. I just wanna live
4. s.o.s
5. walk away
6. mountain
7. we believe
8. my bloody valentine
9. girls and boys
10. riot girl
11. festival song
12. the young and the hopeless
13. lifestyles of the rich and the famous
14. the world is black
15. the chronicles of life and death
16. hold on

They even mentioned that they should have came in our country a long time ago because they didn’t know that Filipino’s know how to rock! They said they would be coming back to the country for sure but they only don’t know when (most probably after they finished their next record). Benjie even joked that he plans on moving to the country and start a family here. It’s obvious that its not only the fans who had fun that night even the band. Joel even played the guitar during the song “the world is black”, it was my first time seeing him play the guitar because I was used to seeing him just singing.

If I only knew where to get the vip tickets I would have bought them. I only got the general admission tickets which is just fine because the number of crowd that night wasn’t that large reason why I still got to get a clear view of the stage. One thing which puzzles me is that on the band’s website it says that the concert here in the country was for free but how come there was price for the tickets? Anyways, its just fine with me because for a ticket price of P250.00 it was already a bargain.

Even if I miss out on work that night and I spent a lot on taxi fare, it was worth it. The concert has met my expectations and more! I only wish I was with somebody to share my happiness that night! Nonetheless, I still had one of the greatest nights of my life! It was like a dream come true! I’m already looking forward for their next concert here in the country and their next record of course. I may have missed out on the concert of my other favorite bands (namely Linkin Park & Hoobastank) but good thing I didn't fail to watch this one. This concert has been really too memorable for me and I'm really thankful that i was able to see my favorite band in person even once in this lifetime.

Butterflies and cigars

2005-07-12T11:00:00.000-07:00

In my life I’ve been blinded by the feeling that we called love a countless of times already. As young as I may be, I’ve been quite a lot through already. From my early days of getting rejected by a number of girls, breaking up with my girlfriend, falling in love with somebody new and breaking up my heart once again. I admit, I’m a sucker when it comes to these things.

As I continue on with life I thought another chapter has begun. I thought that a door has opened for my heart once again. I thought I have already found her. A person that I’ve been waiting for all this time, I’ve never thought that I’d finally meet her.

A person who’s obviously a head-turner, gorgeous, beautiful, a girl-of-your-dreams type of girl, and her physical appearance has already captivated from the very beginning. But I’m not a person who only goes by the looks; I’m also looking for a person who has substance, a person who has brains that I could converse with. Incidentally this person also has that quality and more. She’s also nice, funny, out-going and loves butterflies and colorful things.

As days pass by, we got closer. Surprisingly, I also found out that we’re even neighbor’s reason why we go home together. We spend hours together at work, eat together during breaks, accompany her when she smokes and tell stories as we go home. It seems like everyday seems to be perfect. There’s something that I’m looking forward to everyday at work.

In a short span of time, she has already taken me. Suddenly she became my inspiration, my driving motivation. Everything seems to be perfect but once again, I over-looked something so important, she already has a boyfriend. Though, their relationship is still new which caused me to hope that somewhere along the line she’d see something in me that would make her fall.

In my silence I’ve loved her because I know it’s wrong to be vocal about my feelings towards right her because she’s already committed. The days went on and things turn from good to worse. I don’t know what I did wrong but she suddenly changed. From the warm, sweet feelings everything turned cold. It all happened one day which caught me off guard. The person I’ve fallen for has suddenly changed before my very eyes. I was suddenly ignored and put into the back seat. Actually, that’s just fine with me; the only thing that I don’t get is that I don’t have a single idea why? She seldom spends time with me and when we go home fewer stories are bein’ told. A deafening silence is all that can be heard.

As they say, all good things must come to an end and that was the end for me. Something that has started beautifully has ended abruptly without any reason why. Well, for one may be she has realized that its wrong for things to be that way because she already got a guy. But then again, I really don’t have any clue as to what could be the real reason. I admit I lack the courage why things turned out that way. I never asked because I don’t have the right to. We aren’t and haven’t been committed reason why she has no obligations to tell me the reasons why. I just wished that she could have been more straightforward. All I know is that I have to wake up from this dream because the lady who loves butterflies and cigars could and would never be mine…

coming soon...

2005-07-09T23:00:00.000-07:00

i'm just finishing my posts for the blog (though i'm still finding time to finish them though).
i'll be postin' them pretty soon.
'ope you guys are doin' fine.

in a jiffy...

2005-06-14T02:36:00.000-07:00

im sorry for the lack of updates with my blog.
i'll inform you the latest happenings 'bout me pretty soon.
it's just that im pretty busy with my job right now.
actually,im just on my 15 min break as of this moment.
hope y'all doin fine.

A year old

2005-05-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

at this time last year I stumbled upon this site, blogspot. A year ago, I decided to blog reason being that I’ve been waiting for a long time to have a website of my own. Surfing the internet has been one of my hobbies and in doing so I was able to visit different sites and later on blogs which also inspired me to start my own.

With my blog I’ve been able to share and express my feelings and thoughts to the whole world wide web. I’ve been able to communicate with different people and made friends as well. This blog has helped me a lot for its also my way of releasing my frustrations regarding different things.

I know for a fact that there are only a few people who really visits my site (its indicated in my web counter) and im very much thankful to them because I know that there are still some who cares about what I got to say or if not they got lost and ended up with my site but still im thankful for it. If it weren’t for them I might have stop blogging a long time ago.

Just like what I’ve previously said before I’m quite pre-occupied with work reason why its seldom that I’d be able to update this site. Its not only posts that this blog lacks even updates. I’ve been wanting for a long time to change my template it just so happens that I don’t have time and I only know a little. I’d gladly appreciate it if anyone would help me personalize this site.

Being the very busy kid that I am now I’d end this post here. Again, my thanks to all of you. Ending up, here is a copy of my first ever post last year…..

my first time
HI!My name is louie and this is my first time posting something here.I really have no intention of having my own blog not until i was able to read other people's blog.I mean its cool having been able to read what other people write about.As of this time,I don't know yet what to post.Nothing much happened in my day today.I went to school this morning for enrollment and I finished around 2:30 in the afternoon.When I finally received my schedule i was surprised!For MWF,my classes start at 11 am and ends at 3 pm.It's my sked during TTH which really surprised me.Think about this,most people go home usually at 5 pm but as for me,it's only the time i'll be having my class.It starts at 5 pm and ends at 9:30 in the evening.Man,talk about getting home late.Its not that I hate my sked it's just that i'm not used to going to school while everyone else goes home.I just hope that i'll have an interesting semester ahead!

PINK
i chose pink as my color for the reason that i want to be unique.it's not that i'm gay,feminine or anythin(note:i have nothing against such people)i really just want to be unique.i know that most male would chose blue,black or any manly colors but as for me,it's really pink.i know im not making any sense here by defending why i chose the color pink it's just that i want to talk about it,in case you might ask.

Some of the best things in life are really free.
some people may have everything in life,cellphone,cars,houses,clothing even bling-bling and other stuff which you might envy them about.i,myself might say that i envy them too.but i am proud to say that i too have some of the best things in life.the only difference between them and me is that mine comes for free.though,it ain't something that you could show off,it's just simple & most of y'all have them too...friends.some of these friends of mine did something wonderful for me today that i'm really thankful about.just imagine having your meals for the day completely free.you won't even have to spend even a single cent.it ain't something that could happen to you everyday(except when your stucked at home).well,the story behind such is because one of my good 'ol college buddies,PAULO,promised us(me and my other buddy,JamB)breakfast for today as long as we went to their house right after JamB finishes enrolling.we did as what the agreement was all about and we were treated to our favorite breakfast,bacon & cheese.simple yet delicious!As for our lunch,here's the story...the reason behind we had to go to paulo's place is because that's we're supposed to meet up coz we had to visit our previous ojt supervisor who eventually became a good friend of ours,Mam Lani.their office was at makati and we arrived there a quarter before twelve so we ended up having been treated to lunch which we're all thankful and happy about!regarding my diner,i had it at home so that's why it's free.hehe.

what im trying to point out is that simple blessings such as this could even be considered as something to be happy about!its not everyday that you get treated as such that's why i'm very thankful to these people.

remember the saying;"Mas masarap kumain lalo na pag-libre"it's true.very true.

NBA BALLERS
I got a chance to play PS2 earlier this afternoon at the University Mall.i picked up nba ballers which was a one-on-one basketball game featuring today's top gamers.it's a cool game coz you even got a chance to create your own baller and personalize it the way you want.starting from the gear,oufit even up to the bling-bling.another cool feature about this game is that the basketball courts are located in the player's residences.some of it include that of kidd,shaq,duncan and a couple more.try this game and i assure you that it itsn't a waste of your time.

The Other Guy

2005-05-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

It has never been and it wouldn’t ever be good or fun to be the other guy. The other guy is somebody who would do anything for the girl that he loves, hoping that one day he would eventually be the real guy or basically the number 1 guy. The other guy does things that the real guy couldn’t do or provide. It’s the other guy who makes up for the short comings of the real guy. The other guy doesn’t court the girl while she’s still in her relationship, he’s just there for the girl whenever she needs somebody. The other guy and this girl could go on dates, be sweet with one another, care for one another without any malice and without the girl having to cheat on her real guy.

The girl loves his guy for sure but the other guy also holds a certain portion of her heart. To some extent the girl also loves the other guy but still this love is not enough to replace her real guy. Yes, she loves the other guy simply because she loves to hang out with him, she loves his company, she loves certain things that this other guy does, she loves a lot of other things more about the other guy but that’s only how far her love can go for the other guy.

It is a given fact that love has a tendency to blind a person who has fallen deeply with it. As they say love fills a person’s world with wonderful colors. They even say that the person you love the most, the one who makes you perfectly happy is also the one who makes you cry. The other guy is blinded by this love. The other guy tends to neglect the fact that the girl is already committed and the girl only do those wonderful things to him because she values the friendship they have already established. The other guy gives meaning to everything that this girl does which makes things harder for him. The other guy believes that the girl does that out of love but in reality its really friendship that the girl could offer for now because she’s still committed. If she was free then it would have been a totally different case.

In some instances (but very seldom though) the other guy eventually gets lucky and ends up with the girl. The other guy’s hard work, sacrifice and perseverance have finally paid off because all of those things that he did have been noticed by the girl that the other guy has long aspired for. The girl has finally realized that it was the other guy she was looking for all along. Again, this is a rare occurrence, its not every time that something like this happens to an other guy though it has always been his dream from the very beginning.

The other guy is in heaven every time that he’s with the girl. Nothing can compare to the happiness he experience every moment that he’s with the girl. Those rare moments are moments that the other guy really treasure. Each and every little thing that the girl does makes the other guy’s heart go wild. The other guy always wishes to be with the girl even if in reality he couldn’t. No matter how sweet, happy and compatible the other guy and the girl is, at the end of the day the girl still belongs back to her man. That moment always brings pain to the other guy, that moment is the time the other guy snaps back to reality, the moment which the other guy realizes that he is nothing more but an other guy.

The other guy continues to pray and wait for the moment that this girl would eventually became his or may be for a different girl to come along who doesn’t belong yet to any other guy on this planet. You might think how come do I know this too much stuff about the other guy? Sadly, even if it hurts to admit it, in reality this other guy is me.

Sometimes it just simply sucks to be me (a.k.a. déjà vu)

2005-05-17T01:09:00.000-07:00

Y’all know what I just recently went through emotionally, right? Funny thing is here I am going through it all over again only difference is that its with a different person. Its either that im just plain downright stupid or im simply hard-headed and I never seem to learn my lesson.

I don’t know what it is with me but I always seem to get involved with a girl who’s already committed. What’s worse is that I keep on falling for that girl and hurt my self in the process eventually. But why can’t I fall? The girl’s got all the qualities that would make a guy easily fall for her. The only real problem is that she’s already committed.

I don’t know if destiny’s just playin’ with me because why does it always have to be like this? Can’t I be the one with the happy ending and not be the one always on pain’s receiving end? I know its up to me to have that happy ending that im longing for, may be I just have to keep on waiting, waiting and waiting….but when would the waiting eventually stop?

A friend recently told me; “when love feels like magic its called destiny when destiny has a sense of humor its called serendipity.” He told me he got it from the film serendipity (a film which I haven’t seen up until now) and over the last few days im thinkin’ may be its true.

May be what im having right now is serendipity itself or may be destiny is simply playin’ with me. Never in my wildest dream have I ever thought that I’d meet this certain girl I’m falling for right now. She’s nice, pretty, sweet, simple, interesting or lets simply say she’s just wonderful, somebody near perfect, somebody a guy would easily go crazy and fall for (reason being I ended up like this once again). The thing I’m really surprised about is that we’re neighbors! Its like everything just simply falls into place. Its like we’re really meant to be or may be these things are just false signs because she’s committed.

It feels like magic but it doesn’t seem right. Everything seems so perfect except for the fact that she’s already into a relationship. But then again may be this is just destiny’s way of bein’ funny and may be somewhere along the way destiny would stop playin’ with me and grant me serendipity. May be, just may be we could still end up being together. If not, well, what else is new, right?

And the search eventually goes on…

Here’s something to ponder on as I end this post…I’ve read it from my honey’s post.

“If loving you now is a wrong time then would tomorrow be a good time to be with you but what if we realized that there will be no tomorrow for both of us.”

The things I don’t get with womankind

2005-05-17T00:04:00.000-07:00

Disclaimer: Being the kind of guy that I am there are a couple of things that I simply don’t get about women. I’m not saying that all women are hard to understand, im not generalizing them, im only pertaining to some.

The one thing that I probably would always have a hard time understanding about women is their ever changing way of thinking. One moment she says and a second after its different. Talk about being indecisive. There are also times that you’d ask them about something and they’ll answer you with something which isn’t actually what they meant. Most of them wants us guys to decode the underlying messages in their answers. When in the first place they could just say what they really want, right?

All im tryin’ to say is that somehow women could be more straightforward. Im not sayin’ that I’m the typical kind of guy who doesn’t understand women at all. Im tryin’ my very best to try and understand women but sometimes its just too much and its makin’ my head-ache. All im wishin’ for is that at least they could mean what they say. If they say it’s a yes, then let it be a yes and a no for a no, no more in betweens because it just makes simple things complicated. Its hard to guess all the time.

Something that I also don’t get with women are their constant mood swings. Its also something that brings pain to my head. One moment both of you are having fun and some time after she’s totally different. In my case, a week before both of you are obviously ok and getting along very well then suddenly the week after the situation’s completely different. Damn!

These two things really gives me a hard time right now. Im really clueless ‘bout certain things. I even think back if there’s something that I did wrong but to my recollection there haven’t been any. So what am I goin’ to do now, guess? Guessing isn’t really the best option right? Because guessing is as good as assuming and girls doesn’t like assuming guys, ain’t that right?

Women’s comments are greatly much appreciated for this post. Guy posts are still welcome though. Girls, if you have some explanation to either of these two things that I talked about please tell me. Your thoughts would be of great help to me. Thanks.

In the words of the band ATARIS;
“I guess I’ll never figure out what womankind is all about…”

HARI NG SABLAY

2005-05-16T23:01:00.000-07:00

It’s one of the monikers that have been added to my name. It seems that I couldn’t get anything done right recently. I never intended for things to end up the way they did but it just happens that they did. Can’t do nothing more ‘bout it. What’s been done has been done and all I’m wishing for is that I could make up for those mistakes.

I know first impressions lasts but everybody deserves a second chance, right? I just don’t simply get it why do these things always happen to me? I’m really starting to believe that it sucks to be cause lately nothing has been going my way. As they say may be it’s just one of those days but in my case it’s been weeks.

All im wishin’ for is a change of fate. It’s difficult to always be in a losing streak. Why can’t I do anything right? Everything always comes out wrong even if I don’t intend them to. How do I get rid of this luck? I’m really starting to get pissed! Damn! Its like the whole damn world is conspiring against me..

I just hope this week would be a good one for me…

Tere…my one and only honey

2005-05-16T22:58:00.000-07:00

For some time know you may have noticed that this blog has been overwhelmed by posts ‘bout my honey. But you have never known yet who she really is? To begin with, her name’s Theresa or simply Tere. We’ve known each other for years (four years to be exact) but its just recent that I realized that I do love her. During the years that I’ve known her I’ve never thought that I’d go this far. In fact, she’s someone I’ve never expected to be a significant part of my life. I admit, that the moment I laid my eyes on her I immediately got a crush on her. She’s a looker, a head-turner, a real beauty to say the least and I know a lot of guys wouldn’t argue with me the moment they’ll see her. Some even say that she has a resemblance with Heart Evangelista. But she’s not only a beauty, she’s also got the brains. You’ll not only be captivated by her looks but also by what she says. Reason why, I love having conversations with her cause she’s got a lot of insights regarding different things in this world. In other words, there’s rarely a dull moment when im with her. Oh, by the way did I already mention that she’s sweet? She has this way of making you feel that you’re somebody special but most importantly she makes you really feel that you’re loved, that you know when the world turn its back on you, you still got her, ain’t that nice?

She also changed my views on a number of things. I used to be this ideal and certain kind of guy but because of her I finally understand things that I don’t usually do. She opened my eyes that not all things could and should be understand by the mind cause some things are really meant for your heart’s understanding. She also made me see that some things are really possible like a girl courting up a guy, something that was quite new for me back then. After experiencing a number of heart breaks I never thought that a girl would eventually like me. The only problem was I’m already in a relationship that time. I was afraid to take risks back then reason why we didn’t end up being together. Right now, as much as I wanted it to, it’s still simply not possible because she’s the one in a relationship and I can see that she’s very much happy and contended with it.

I guess there’s nothing wrong to continue to love her even if she’s still a relationship. I don’t have any plans of ruining their relationship because its also not my style. I’m just happy with what we are right now, though im still hoping that someday destiny would be too kind and let us be but if not its fine by me and I guess I have to live with it.

I used to regret a lot of things between me and her. I regret that I was too late to realize that I also do love her. I regret of the times that passed by that I could spent with her and the list goes on and on ‘bout the things I regret. Now, I’m no longer living in regret cause she helped me understand that I shouldn’t be living such. She’s right cause why should I live in regret? We may not be a couple but that doesn’t mean we could no longer be together. In fact, I’m lucky and proud to have her in my life. I’m also happy that she loves as me and for what I am, I could be myself when I am around with her, I got nothing to more to hide, she knows a lot of things or almost everything ‘bout me and not everyone could do that.

Tere would always and will forever be my one and only honey. Yes, for sure I’d meet a lot of other girls out there but no one could match her. Even if I ended up with somebody else she’d still be my honey because nobody else could do the things she does cause each person is different from the other. I may have other girls in my life but for sure there’d only be one honey for me.

on temporary break

2005-04-25T10:37:00.000-07:00

im no longer able to update this blog these past few days because i've been quite busy with work.yup!you read that right,work!im already working reason why most of my friends no longer see me and this poor blog isn't updated that regularly just like it used to be.as soon as i get enough time i'd update this blog for sure.oh,by the way next month would be my blog's first birthday!damn!how fast time really is..never noticed that i've been blogging for a year already.

once again,thanks for all the people that have visited this blog for the past year.hope you won't get tired visiting this site.'till next time.

the end of the line?

2005-03-27T15:46:00.000-08:00

as what i've mentioned before,im goin' to a battle that is already lost.hope is very much invisible as of the moment.i can't cling on to something to hold on,i feel like letting go and givin' up already.i know the battle's only startin' but how can i continue if its already lost?i guess, God wouldn't grant me the miracle that i was praying and hoping for.guess,this is not really for me.i've asked for signs but i got none.

im very much willing to continue but i feel like all my effort would just put me in more pain if id still continue.i could no longer do anything to change her mind,i've heard from numerous friends that she seems to be very much happy and contented with what she has right now.i love her reason why even if it pains me most im very much willing to let her go.as usual,im the one that is left in pain but somehow im beginning to get used to it (no kidding).if she's happy then its already enough for me,i only wish her happiness,something that she wouldn't feel if i continue to act this way.im just thankful and proud for all the memories that i've shared with her through the years but most importantly im thankful that she loved me as me, not as a friend nor as a brother, but as me and for what i am.im sorry for all the troubled i might have caused her because of my emotions but i was just trying to be true to her and to myself.

im not saying that i've already given up, all im saying is that im retreating from the battle and may be someday fight again.i'll just content myself loving her in silence so there wouldn't be any more complications.i long to see her face smiling again, something i haven't seen for a while since i've been true to my feelings.i do spent a lot of time with her but i feel like she's quite different lately.i miss her affection,her sweet nothings,her text messages and all those things that made me fall for her,its as if she suddenly turned cold.may be its her way of showing that she couldn't offer me anything and that she is very much happy in her relationship.

i never believe in destiny but i guess this time,i will.if it will happen, it will...that's what destiny is as how a close friend would describe/define it.if it doesnt happen then and now, someday it will...the only question is when? i chose to turn away because this may not be the right road for me,for now.i only hope that someday i could finally cross this same path and be with her at the end of the road.i also do hope that by then i could have a fairytale ending and live happily ever after.if i ended up with somebody else in the future, guess we're not really meant to be and that's my destiny.

this book may have been closed but this story is still far from over.if this was a movie,it's open-ended and definitely,for sure there'd be a sequel...

-as pathetic and corny as this may seem i'd still announce it to the whole world wide web and even to the real world...

i love you honey.

why does it always happen to me?

2005-03-23T15:31:00.000-08:00

rejection is something that is not new to me.i've always been honest that i experienced it a number of times before (7 times and still counting...) and im somehow wonderin' why does it always happen to me?i've always been on pain's receiving end,can't i be the one happy for a change?!

im already gettin' used to it but im also getting tired of it.i've heard of numerous lines that really shattered my heart into pieces but i would no longer mention them one by one.the line that somehow stucked into my mind is;"you deserve someone better"...over the years a lot of people told me that and somehow i still don't get it.does that mean that i've always made wrong decisions?that the person im giving my heart to is not deserving of such love?im not asking for too much,having my love requieted is enough for me,is that too much ask for?what will i do to acquire such?im very much in need of help right now.

diversion

2005-03-21T15:45:00.000-08:00

for a change i'll post something different today as compared to my usual emotional posts.its not that im gettin' tired of writing 'bout it (i do hope that y'all not gettin' tired of readin' it) i just want something different for a change like these things...

when you dream,dream big

guess the title says it all...ever since i've entered college i've dreamt of being a dean's lister and luckily with hard work and determination,i did.never thought that it would eventually come true and based from this experience i could very much say that dreams do come true, you just need to put some effort in it. as graduation day approaches,i was hoping that i could graduate with academic honors but it seems that i won't.i think my average isn't enough or i may lack some of the qualifications to be a honor student or even a cum laude.

its not that i'm regretting 'bout it im just thinkin' that may be i could have dreamt of something bigger like graduating a cum laude and not only being included in the dean's list.to dream is not wrong,right?and besides dreaming is for free so next time i'll dream of something,i'll dream big coz i don't know it might eventually come true.

graduating with honors or none isn't important to me at all.im already thankful for the mere fact that i'll be graduating on time.im also thankful for all the people that i've met along the way (my blockmates,classmates,friends,acquaintances and my beloved professors) for this journey wouldn't be as much fun as it is if i haven't met them.to my batchmates and friends (and to all who'll be graduating this month);CONRAGULATIONS TO ALL OF US!

ma'h high school hommies

i went to mass last sunday and i've never thought that i'll see my high school homeboys.im very much happy to see some of them coz i havent seen them for a while.it was such a nice feeling again to be with their company (even if im still left out coz most of them have their girlfriends with them).most of us are graduating this month and we've talked 'bout plans of having a get-together/grad celebration next week (though i only wish that i could be there coz just like what i've said we're currently moving out to Pasig).im eager to go coz that may be the only oppurtunity that we could be complete.i really miss y'all guys!

the pacquiao-morales bout

for sure im not the only one dissapointed that the "pacman" wasn't able to win his bout with "el terrible".it was obvious that manny did his best it just so happened that morales was a tough match for our hero.morales' reach proved to be his major advantage coz manny was having a hard time landing his punches on the mexican.i already knew who won the match even before it was shown on national television coz we we're listenin' to the radio and the match was broadcasted live.the "pacman" may have lost the match but he deserves all the credit coz he fought his way out, he did his very best up until the last round even if he had a cut on his eyebrow.my hat's off to you,manny!you'll get them next time!

i wish i could but i couldn't

2005-03-17T21:36:00.000-08:00

its quite hard and confusing to be happy and miserable at the same time.this post is still about the certain girl that i've been mentioning recently.this girl has infected me with a severe case (even terminal to some extent) of heart poisoning.i may be exagerrating but its just that i can't get rid of her in my system.she's in my mind and obviously holds a major part of my heart.she's like a drug that i keep on longing for each day.she's like a spider and im already caught up in her web.in other words,i've already fallen deeply in love with her.

i know you can't possibly fall in love overnight and i didn't.i've already known her for years already,my whole college life to be exact.i've known her for years and its just now that i realize that she means something to me.its just that i want to be sure when it comes to things like this.i dont want to tell her that i love her when i actually don't.i just made it sure to myself that what im feelin' for her is true,that what im feelin' is not just the flavor of the month,im not that type of guy.im the type of guy who mean what he says.if i tell you that i love,i really do love you.i guess its also the reason why im miserable right now...its too late.

i still remember the first time she entered the room,she has already caught my attention right from the very start.i was caught in awe coz she was simply beautiful,in other words i immediately got a crush on her.she was like the girl of my dreams personified.she has all the qualities that i'm lookin' for in a girl.problem was,i was in a realtionship back then and i just ignored any possible feelings i may had for her back then.a stupid decision as how a lot of friends would describe what i did.days went by and i treated her like how i would treat my other friends.

fast forward to the present day...she's no longer free and obviously there's a minimal chance that we would ever be together.i do love her now but what for?she's already committed.damn!i really feel sorry for myself.damn!how stupid can i get?!im regretting that i could have love her back then but i couldn't.i do love her now but she's already committed.may be its clear and simple that we would no longer be but then again i'm not yet giving up my hopes just yet.im still hoping and praying that God would grant me the oppurtunity to be with her and love her.

but that doesn't mean i couldn't love her right?its not wrong to love somebody who's already committed right?i may love her but only to some extent and that's what pains me.im in pain for not being able to love her with my all though i wish i could.it pains me to hold back but if i don't i'd end up getting hurt more.it pains me not to expect anything in return but obviosly i really shoudn't.

i bet you don't want to be in my shoes right now.i can't even clearly described what im in right now.im happy but in the back of my head miserable.i want to be with her all the time but i couldn't.i wish i could treat her the way i wish i could but i cannot.if i could only turn back the hands of time i would but then again,i couldn't.i love her but i couldn't force her to love me back the way i love her.when im with her, i want to treat her the way i wish i could,you know treat her like my girl but the again,i couldn't.i wish i could use my mind to think of possible solutions to my problem but i can't coz i would only make decisions that would put me in more pain.all i could do are to pray and to rely on my heart that the only right thing to do is to continue loving her and hope.i admit,im already blinded by this love.

i don't intend on ruining their relationship but im still desperately hoping that we could still be together.the only question is when?we couldn't then and obviously we couldn't more now.God only knows if we could still end up together in the future.

all i'll be doin' right now is to continously wait and pray and love her in my own special way.

in the words of mr.hitch;"i jump because god would let me fly and not fall like a rock.now here i am falling,hoping you'd help me fly..."

damn.sucks to be me.

i'll go down fighting

2005-03-17T21:18:00.000-08:00

its clear to me that the battle's already lost,that victory is as good as vanished,that there is no hope in sight, that im already good as defeated.in a basketball game,its already the 4th quarter and goin' into the last two minutes and the opponent has a 50 point lead against me.in a boxing fight,i may already be knocked down already but the bell hasn't rung yet.im not yet down for the 10 count, i could still stand up continue the fight and may be, just may be, turn the tides around or i could end up falling down the mat even harder.it just shows how impossible this fight is.

im going to this fight blinded and just relying on my heart that its the right thing to do.i'm no longer entertaining thoughts that are in mind, im just following my heart.im goin' to the battlefield head-on with my heart and not with my mind.in other words,im risking it all this time!im goin' to break out of my own personal conventions and risk it all.im already living in regret but i no longer want to regret more.i don't want to continue living with...what if?

my friends told me that this may be not a good decision but they told that if that's what i feel then go!that i should fight for what i believe in, that i should fight for what i feel!if nothing happens then i guess that's it.i could no longer force anything,just like what i've said im no miracle worker but im really hoping,praying and dying for one.i may lose this battle badly but at least i tried.if anyone is to get hurt and to be blamed you could point your fingers at nobody else except...me.

i'd end this post with a few lines from good charlotte's "the truth";

I know that this will break me
I know that this might make me cry
You've gotta say what's on your mind
On your mind
I know that this will hurt me
And break my heart and soul inside

and hoobastank's "crawling in the dark"

I will dedicate and sacrifice my every--thing
for just a seconds worth of how my story's ending
I wish I could know if the directions that I take
and all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing

Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer
Is there something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer

Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to
use my heart and not my eyes
to navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?

Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer
Is there something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer

So when and how will I know?

How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know? (finally know)
'cause I am looking and I just can't see what's in front of me
in front of me

Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer
Is there something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer

movie review

2005-03-17T21:13:00.000-08:00

hitch
this movie isn't great because it stars will smith and eva mendes nor because its casting.it isn't great because of its cinematography.it isn't great because of its soundtrack.it isn't great because its hilarious and its a comedy.what makes this movie great?the story alone makes it great and the other things that i've previously mentioned just helped to make this movie better.

you might even think that this movie is just another chick-flick or better yet just another comedy that stars will smith.yeah,some scenes are already quite predictable but the movie also offers some things that you haven't seen before.the movie is like a new approach to match-making,it presented it as profession that you could avail when you needed one.in fact,i learned a thing or two when it comes to making moves towards a girl you like.i'd recommend this movie to be a great barkada movie!its not good to be a date movie cause guys your dates would surely know your next moves.so you better watch this movie with your male friends and if you can, take down notes.hehe.guys,trust me this movie is worth every single cent of your money.not only would you be having a great time but you'll learn as well.hehe.

rating:5/5

is there any possible way that north could meet south?

2005-03-17T20:59:00.000-08:00

impossible.its simply impossible that north and south could meet at some point but they're always connected its just that they're on opposite poles.you might think what the hell am i saying?well,i guess this would best describe the situation that im right now.still this is about this certain girl that i've been continously talking 'bout in this blog.like what i've previously mentioned,she's ms.risky and i'm mr.certain,now how in the world could we meet?just like what im continously saying and continously believing...im willing to go that extra mile so that we could be together.im willing to leave south and risk it all this time so i just could make it to the north.im no miracle worker but im hoping,praying and dying for one.north and south could be poles apart but they can be together right?

the luiboi is in pain

2005-03-17T20:55:00.000-08:00

you might always see smiling these days but is there something that i should really be happy 'bout?yes,there is.undoubtedly and without a shadow of a doubt i'm in love but the moment i think of situation that im in right now my smile begins to faaadddddeeeeee.....im obviously deceiving myself with these smiles but im admit that im really in pain,a pain that im still trying to bear.im starting to live in my own created dream coz thats the only place where i could be happy...for now.i know i'll overcome this pain eventually.God only knows when.

im beginning to doubt myself these days coz why does it always happen to me?back in the day i've faced too many rejections and eventually i got used to it.now,im not being rejected its just that my love has always been unrequited.am i that hard to love?or is it just that its not the right one for me?but how will i know if its not the right one?people say that there would come someone better, that there's someone more deserving of my love, that i don't deserve this pain.i just dont simply get it.im confused because people are saying this to me everytime im in pain but what if its not what i feel.even if im in pain i still love these things that i do,that the person im giving my love to is worthy of such love and i deserve this pain because i choose to be this way.

sometimes it sucks to be me(a.k.a. i love you came too late )

2005-03-14T20:23:00.000-08:00

i've said it.i already told this certain girl that i'm talking 'bout on my previous post that i love her.of course,her initial reaction was that she's surprised because why all of a sudden i became like this,acted strangely towards her and do things i don't normally do?.we've known each other for four years already and then just suddenly i woke up one day loving her.who woulnd't be surprised,right?i don't know if its just me or may be its just like that...love comes when you're least prepared.i admit that even if i've known her for so long it's really just now that i realize that i love her.

during the years those years that i've known her (when she's still free) i had all the oppurtunity to love her more than a friend,to love her in a special way,to love her as her and to love her unlike any other people in my life.but problem is,i didn't,i suck big time!sometimes i hate myself for being like this,for being stupid when it comes to these things.arrghhh!sometimes it really sucks to be me!i really feel bad about myself because even if i told her that i love her,its already too late.she's already commited.now,you see why it sucks to be me...

i'm really having a hard time right now because she told me that she also loves me as me,not as friend but also not like a boyfriend,she simply loves me as me.im still quite confused 'bout what she told me but im also happy to know that she loves me,that this love is not unrequited.may be im confused because its my first time to be caught up in a situation like this.i've always been "mr. sure-ball" or "mr.certain", i usually don't easily get into something that i'm not sure of.in other words, im afraid to take risks but she isn't it.i'm mr.sure and she's ms.risky,what a nice combination right?

i guess, i simply have to rely on my heart this time 'round.if i use my mind in this case i feel like stopping right away but i don't want to coz im happy.in the long run i may regret having this decision but who knows in the end i'd eventually end up with her happily.something i would no longer see if i give up right now but then again if i fail at least nobody got hurt and no one else is to blame except me.

i may be confused and somehow brave enough to take risks this time but still there're two things that i'm 100% sure of...

im happy.
i love her.

too late

2005-03-14T20:17:00.000-08:00

"laging nasa huli ang pagsisisi"

what a way to start this post...indeed,its true.you'll not realize how important something or someone is until its gone.

i admit,luiboi is currently in-love with a certain girl.a certain girl that i have known for years already.i just recently realized that i'm falling for her or more proper to say,i'm in love with her.i'm regretting that after all those years that i've known her its just now that i realize that i love her.i know its already late to tell her these things because for one she's committed and another thing we may be goin' our separate ways a few weeks from now.

may be destiny wouldn't let us be because back then i already like her its just that i can't do anyhting 'bout it coz im in a relationship but now that i'm the one who's free she's that one that isn't.its really hard to be in the situation that i'm in right now.i really want to tell her what i feel but i simply couldn't coz she's in a relationship and i wouldn't want to ruin it.i'm not the type of guy who steals another guy's girl.i'd rather be in pain that ruining a good relationship.you wouldn't probably believe me but it's true.i'm doin' it because i don't want the same thing to happen to me.

i know she already knows the way i feel coz she's already asking me why am i acting different lately?im doin' things that i don't normally do like textin' her and even calling her.but what can i do?i simply can't help it but at the same time i lack the courage to tell her the way i feel.

right now,i'm freaking confused 'bout the things that are happenin' around me but nobody is to blame except me.if i had only realized this before then i wouldn't be in this kind of situation.arrrghhhhh!!!

i'd end this post with a few lines from Parokya ni Edgar's "Sayang".this song simply describes what kind of situation i'm in right now...

sayang,bakit hindi kita niligawan
ngayon ako'y nanghihinayang,kasi naman
tatanga pa ako noon
walang humpay na pag-hintay sa hindi dumarating na pagkakataon

lagi naman kitang nakakasama
ewan ko kung bakit ba wala akong ginagawa
kahit na napakadali mong kausapin
ewan ko ba kung bakit ang hirap pa ring aminin
madalas naman tayong naglolokohan dinadaan ko lang sa biro
ang tunay kong nararamdaman kaya siguro
hindi mo sineryoso aking mga sinabi yun tuloy walang nangyari

moving on

2005-03-14T20:13:00.000-08:00

my college days are numbered,in two weeks time it'll be graduation day.i still can't believe it that my four years are already up.im really thankful that i'll be able to graduate on time and that i was given the chance to study cause not everybody is given this oppurtunity and sadly for some who were given the same chance,they are just simply wasting it.

after 14 years of staying inside the 4 corners of my classrooms i was able to experience a lot of things,things that most teenagers/students probably do.i met all sorts of people throughout my student life.they range from the friendly,nerdy,cool,eccentric,loners,energetic,popular even the nasty ones.through the years i've gained a number of friends,lost some of them along the way but eventually gained some new as well.i might say that i'm really friendly coz even if i had my own set of friends other groups still welcome me to tag along with them,in other words i had no hard time being with other people.though occansionaly i still want to be by my lonesome.

its really sad to say goodbye to my student life.i know for a fact that after graduation,the faces i regularly see everyday would no longer be there.i'm goin' to miss each and everyone of them,my blockmates,classmates,friends,acquaintances and professors that have also become friends.i'm goin to miss the moments that i spent with these people,the up's and down's,even the fights.as cheesy as this may sound but even if we'll be goin' our separate ways after graduation these people would have a special place in my heart(naks!).

this post is not only about moving on from student life to the real world.this post is also about literally moving on,for after graduation we'd be transferring to another apartment.right now we're living in St.Andrew's Field,Manila(San Andres Bukid)and a few weeks from now we'd be transferring to Pasig City.my aunt told me that they decided to transfer so that we could save money that is spent on gas.we'd be transferring to a place near her office so that it wouldn't consume a lot of gas because Pasig City is quite far from where we're living right now.

it's our second time transferring from one apartment to another.during the first time we transfer there wasn't any major adjustments for we transferred just a few blocks away from our previous one.this time its quite different for we'd be transferring miles away from our previous home.for sure there'd be a lot of adjustments like adjusting to a new environment.i just hope it wouldn't be that hard.

a few weeks from now not only would i be saying goodbye to my student life but to my home as well.i have stayed in this community/area all my student life reason why it would be quite hard to say goodbye to this home.not only would i be leaving it's walls but my friends as well.most of my friends live near our place and moving away means that i'd no longer see them on a regular basis.the things that are 'bout to come makes me glad but saddens me at the same time as well;graduation and moving on but i could no longer do anythin' bout it,guess i'll just have to accept the changes that are about to happen and just live with it.as they say;"nothing is constant except change"

again,i might sound chessy saying this nonetheless i'd like to say to my all of my friends, even if we'd no longer be seeing in each other on a regualr basis remember that y'all will not be forgotten.i'm goin' to miss y'all for sure.also remember that i may be movin' away but i'm still that same ol 'luiboi that y'all know.the same corny,good-lookin',friendly friend that y'all have grown to love.

just remember that i'm just a phone call away in case you might need me.you may reach me through my mobile phone,email addresses,friendster account and of course here at my blog.

i guess that wraps up this post,'till then...

im goin to miss y'all!
i love y'all!

its all been done

2005-03-10T14:40:00.000-08:00

finally,after two tiring weeks, our play production is over!haaayy!all our hard work really paid off,our group won best play for comedy play fest.man,it was such an overwhelming experience.we really didn't expect that our group would bring home the award.i also would like to take this oppurtunity to thank my groupmates,it was really nice working with you and to my friends & family ,thanks for all the support!

i think i'll just keep it short this time around.i 'll be postin' my actual post may be next week.'till then...see yah!

NOTICE

2005-02-22T21:04:00.000-08:00

due to my busy schedule i might not be able to post in the coming week or 2.i'd be back probably after my finals (which happens to be on the 1st week of march).until then...take care and good day!

turnin’ emo (a.k.a. the post valentine post)

2005-02-18T20:05:00.000-08:00

I don’t know what’s gotten into me but it seems like I’ve been inclined lately to write emotional posts (like this one and my other post entitled “SHE”). May be its because of the music I’ve been listenin’ to lately…emo and emo-punk. If you’re not quite acquianted regarding what emo is, just try searchin’ it on the net cause me, I’m not that knowledgeable when it comes to emo. I only know a few things ‘bout it like; the lyrics of the song are mostly emotional or have deep emotions embeded into the lyrics, its something like a love song. As to how my buddy (who plays emo) defines the music; “it’s noisy but at the same time melodic”. Some of the emo-artists that I’m listenin’ to right now are; ataris, finch, good charlotte, story of the year, dashboard confessional and these two artists which I’m not quite sure if they’re emo, yellowcard and starting line. If you still don’t get what im tryin’ to imply just consult somebody more knowledgeable than me. On with my post…

I’ve been single for two years already and I’m quite lonely and somehow enjoying it at the same time. It’s really a confussing feeling and it’s making my head ache. Valentines has just passed by and it’s already my second year having no one for Valentine. Its not I’m making a big fuss about it, I just miss having somebody special. I miss having someone to talk to, text with, look at, go out with, watch movies with, eat out with, celebrate special occassions with (i.e. birthday, monthsaries, anniversaries…) and a lot of other things which couples usually do.

I know it’s my fault for feeling this way because I was the one, as you all know, who opted out of my previous and only relationship I ever had. I might be regretting ever making that decision but I have already moved on and I think so did she (But I wouldn’t elaborate more on that relationship cause its another story). Over the course of the past 2 years, I admit, even until now, I’m still looking for that special someone. Friends often tease me to court different ladies that they think is best for me. I could have followed their advice cause these females that they are teasing me with have the qualities that I’m looking for in a girl. These girls would really make a man fall for them. But the question is; WHY WOULDN”T I? Now my friends are already teasing me that I’m a homo cause it’s already right there at my footsteps but still I wouldn’t seize the oppurtuniy.

May be they’re right, may be something is really wrong with me. My reason for doing this is because I just want to be sure. I want to be sure if I’m already ready to commit into another relationship. I want to be sure if I really have special feelings for that person and I’m not just physically attracted. If I were to get into another relationship I want to be sure about my feelings and myself. I may look like a player but I ain’t one. I’m not the type of guy who takes someone for granted, takes advantage of someone and most importantly I don’t cheat on someone. I’d rather end the relationship then and there before I’d ever get to the point of cheating. It’s not that I’m lifting my own chair by telling these things but it’s really the truth and even my closests friends could attest to that.

What happens now? May be I’d just stick to my being single cause it’s just now that I get to enjoy this state of my life. Ever since I got attracted to the female specie all I ever did was court girls but most of the time or almost all of the time it ended in failure and misery. I may regret this decision in the future but it’s ok cause nobody got hurt except me. For now may be I’d just continue to focus on my studies cause its just two months away before the big day, our graduation! While I’m at it I’d still continue listening to emo, still try to start on my comic book, which until now I haven’t yet decided on my character sketches and continue to upload my artworks/sketches and pictures on my deviant art webpage as soon I get them scanned on my cousin’s pc cause I got no scanner of my own *sigh*.

Ending up this crap I really hope that you guys had a wonderful hearts day celebration!

clueless and tired

2005-02-17T19:19:00.000-08:00

basically that's what i feel right now.once again,i'm practically dead tired after the events that happened today.just like what i've said on my previous post i'd be taking the exams today for the call center and i just did that.regarding the audition i wasn't allowed to because they were looking for undergrad studes only.

thankfully,i passed the exam and the evaluation part,question is would i get hired?they told me i did good the only problem they saw was that i was speaking in monotone,which i admit.the reason behind that is because i was never used to having a coonversation with using the english language.i know how to speak it's just that im really not used to reason why i ended up speaking in monotone.thanks to my blog im somehow able to practice my writing skills though i feel that it still needs a lot of improvement just like the way i speak.anyways,goin' back the person evaluating me told me that he'd contact me these coming days,question is would he really do that?

im really clueless with my status right now but good thing is i still have a couple of exams/interviews lined up for next week.i'd really perform well on those tests so that i wouldn't end up feeling like this again.

just like my cousin'ela i also got my own discov.of the day:being a call center agent is not as easy as it may seems.

the job fair

2005-02-16T18:36:00.000-08:00

i went to the job fair at school today. i passed on my resumes to my "future" employers.graduation day is fast approaching and just like what millions of filipinos nedd today,i also need a job.at the job fair most of the job openings applicable to my course (which is a.b.mass communication) is being a call center agent.i did some intial interviews today,luckily and with god's help of course,i passed all of them.i was already given my examination schedules with one startin' tomorrow mornin'.man,i'm really hopin' that out of the 11 or 12 companies i applied at,i'd be accepted even if it's just at one company.im really eager to work right away cause i want to help my family and earn my own money of course.

would i make call center my permanent career?it depends.if i wouldn't get bored with the job then propbably i could stay there as long as possible.but then again,of course i also want to get into the broadcasting field cause that's what i studied for 4 years.i dream of becoming a tv personality (dream on luiboi,dream on...) may be a tv host or a movie critic or anything to do that is associated with media.

wazzup wazzup would be at school tomorrow and i think i would join the audition for the campus tadjock.i don't know what will happen but at least i tried.its like fulfilling a long dream or something.anyways,i'm practically dead tired after today's events so i'd probably end it here already cause i still have to study the script for our final play production and prepare for my exam tomorrow in the mornin' then the audition in the afternoon.arghhhhh!

all i can say is...wish me luck and please pray for me.

thanks

a simple greeting for everyone!!!

2005-02-14T20:26:00.000-08:00

i really got nothing to say for this post...i just want to greet everyone a
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

as usual i got no date for this year (well,honestly its already 2 years since i had a date) but somehow i was able to enjoy it with some of my college buddies.we just hang-out at the baywalk and waited for the sunset.its just a simple celebration of hearts day.simple but fun.

'till next time...

the lay-up

2005-02-07T13:54:00.000-08:00

this is one of the pictures i submitted for my phtojourn class.this pic is entitled "the lay-up".you could view my pic by clicking here or you could simply visit my deviant art page.please feel free to say what you think about the picture.well,i guess that's all for now.

elektra movie review

2005-02-01T20:20:00.000-08:00

i had the oppurtunity of watching this movie last week and here's what i think 'bout this movie;

marvel comics has once again brought one of its charaters to the big screen, Elektra.the story of this movie is somewhat a continuation of what transpired on daredevil (it tells of what happened after the events in daredevil since elektra's charater was introduced in that movie) but the story of this movie seems to stand on its own because none of the characters in daredevil were discussed.jennifer garner fans wouldn't be disapointed for she still do stunts and action scenes just like in her tv show.the movie is not that action-packed there were only a couple of fight scenes.the story also wasn't that good,for there a couple of things unexplained (like the existence of the HAND).the film wasn't able to have a good back story and character development.the only strength of this movie and what makes it worth-watching are its special effects.the special effects in elektra was simply superb!you'll be amazed in the effects in this movie, especially what they did to one of the character's Tattoo.cinematography was good,nothing spectacular though.this movie is short,you'll end up wanting for more but sadly there's nothing more.this movie is nice but it could have been better.so if you're not a fan of jennifer garner,marvel comics or special effects you may pass out on this one.its nice to watch this movie with your friends.

rating:3/5

*this what makes this movie worth-watching,the effects.

playin'

2005-01-30T14:01:00.000-08:00

i'm just playing with the webcam in the shop that i'm in right now.i really got nothing to say for this post.

-i'd be postin' my elektra review next week.tomorrow is our play presentation for "why women wash the dishes".its my midterm for my subject "intro to drama" and i'm directing/acting in that play.'ope everything goes well.wish me luck.

-that's 'bout it.enjoy the rest of the day!:)

luiboi 101 ver.2 (a.k.a. what people say bout me)

2005-01-26T22:01:00.000-08:00

-during my previous post with the same title, i told you some information that you may want to know 'bout me.this time its quite different.you'd learn more 'bout me through what other people say.the following statements are not fabricated and they are all taken from my testimonials back at friendster.this might be lenghty but rest assured you'd learn a few things more 'bout luiboi.i've been already thinkin' this post for quite some time now and its a good thing that i was finally able to do it...

THERESE, Saturday, June 12, 2004:
hmm.. hi louie! um thanks for the testi.Ü i met louie thru blogging, he jus started nga eh. pro he's one of a kind nh. he's super nice tlg and very friendly too.. he has a lot of good qualities that a girl looks for. kea grls!! :P hehe.ü anyways, wer nt that really close, but he seems cool nmn and wat pa ba? eheh. bsta yun! he's nice. tke cre a!

Jackie Lene, Tuesday, June 01, 2004:
ryan louie o. villanueva is one of my closest guy friends back in high school. we used to talk a lot; not only because i'm very close with his "sinisinta" back then, but also coz he's nice to be with and is really funny. mabait po si louie, totoo yun! i still recall when we'd even talk on the phone, telling each other's heartache and heartbreak stories. madami ding alam si louie about me, i believe. too bad we haven't had contact yet after we graduated... i just want you to know that you're in
my thoughts very often and in my heart constantly. i do miss louie boy; wala na kasing cartoons na doug... anyways, you take care louie. i'd love to bump into you one of these days..

Brenty, Tuesday, May 04, 2004:
c lui ay matinong lalaki(daw!) bait nyan, ulirang anak at kuya. malapit sa mga tsiks ksi friendly tlga sya, mahilig mag drawing, musta na yung gngawa mong comics, nung hayskul p tyo nun ah? a good listener and adviser, walang bisyo bukod sa pangbababae nya...

Sublime Paradox, Thursday, April 29, 2004:
Hi kuya ryan... syempre dapat magalang diba? My apologies for my SUPER LATE testimonial... Sorry naman, I really had so many things to catch up kaya i
only had the chance to make you one (lusot na ba?)... anyway, ryan's my
cousin (and ka-pangalan mo rin pala ung ex ko... non-sense... share ko
lang)... We are really not that close but I do hope we will eventually get
to that point. I find him quiet, suplado pa nga minsan, mysterious, and reserved. First Impression lang un, There's this adage that says silent waters run deep... I really think we will get along well. Since our school naman is in the same vicinity, we could meet some time for some coffee or whatevever (hindi ung bigla nlang
kitang makikita sa mall with someone... reverse psychology... ako ba un? hahaha)

Xx.mark.xX, Wednesday, April 28, 2004:
Louie! what's up! hehehe Well louie's one of my hs friends in saint anthony
school! Always on the go for good laughs and is fond of singin' as if he's jc chasez (joke)... nah, for the real score, he's a good friend... willing to give sensible advices and has a good head on his shoulders...he's to skinny way back our hs days, now?? m not really sure coz i haven't seen him since 2001... anyways... keep it real and be safe ayt! good luck!

Jhams, Tuesday, April 06, 2004:
luiboy-chickboy... magkarhym noh, well kse c luiboy na yat ang pinka chickboy na nmeet ko.. pro ironically wla cyang gf... pano nmn kse masydng mataas and standard nito.. lahat na yta ng mga chicks nd as in chicks tlaga eh nagpropose na s knya, nd inuulit ko ngpropose sa kanya eh tinurndown niya.. pihikan kse eh... pro one thing
n good sa kanya eh faithful tng frend n to sa mga magigng krelasyon niya.. joke... hehehehehe.... pro totoo yun... heheheheheh

Qnz, Thursday, March 11, 2004:
wel wat cn i say bout ryan..gwapings, lakas ng dating, habulin ng chicks, mesrtizo and a "papa" material..ah w8 ryan louie villanueva pla ito no..4get evrything i said kla ko kc c ryan agoncillo ang nilalagyan ko ng testi.. wel anyweiz c louie yng tipo ng taong nde corny and nde xa msyadong ignorante [ofcourse u ol na kabaliktaran lhat ng snsbi ko] wel mrming girls n ang dumaan kay lui hlos lhat busted xa its just like a 1:10 ratio..as in sa lhat ng niligawan nya 1 p lng ang nging girlfriend nya wel its because pihikan to c lui and he's a one-man-woman..hehehe cge fre ingatz na lng..

Theresa, Wednesday, March 10, 2004:
LOuie for me is undescribable... he is an extraordinary guy. There is always
something special about him and everyone knows that. He is the only guy i know who has delicate hands literally because its very soft and you wont forget it once you've touched it. Compared to a perfect lied in music, he is pleasant to be with, coz he never fails to smile and when he does, it always give warmth and welcome. He is the type of person who always want to be happy and for three years that I've
known him he hasn't change a bit.The same old louie who is childlike in many ways and a dependable person in time of need,love's life more than anything in this world and won't let the day pass without making you smile.He may look like a happy go lucky person but he is definitely serious when time demands it. To all the girls out there this is the kind of guy I'm sure you want to have.:-)

Jc, Sunday, March 07, 2004:
Louie has a great attitude, always upbeat, very energetic and extremely polite. He's a good man.

Christian, Saturday, February 28, 2004:
itong c louie aba npkamasayahin ksama itong tao na ito kxe napakamakwento nya! isa nga xia sa mga kadaldalan nmin nila mickey un magk2klase p kmi!...minsan nman seryoso pero pag trip nya mangulit! grabe xia! at khit pa2yat-payat itong c louie mrami din xiang nat2gong talent!...gya ng pagdrawing,ac2ually sa sobra husay nya
magdrawing nak2gwa na xia ng comics eh!...masipag din magaral itong tao na ito kya kadalasan nsa honor roll xia! mahilig din xia maglaro ng basketball at manood ng wrestling! sa katunayan ang idol nga nya noon ay c "HBK" shawn michaels!...tsk tsk tsk! muntik ko na makalimutan masugid din manligaw ng girl itong tao na ito lalo na pag LOVE na LOVE nya tlaga!...i wont say any name kxe cguro nman nt2ndaan mo kung cno cno cla?...ah basta as a friend okay itong tao na ito! napakasimple nya
lng! at lagi din xia nkasmile!..well thats all dude!...

Pipo, Friday, February 20, 2004:
Si Lui ang official chicboy ng tropa.(Ang IPRIKITIK GANG) Nung highschool sya ang tagagawa ko ng loveletters. Pagdating sa problema pakikinggan ka nyan. Goodfriend at boyfriend na rin. hehe. (sensya na tol. di ako magaling magsulat. alam mu naman kung san diba? uyy..)See you soon pare.

Winz, Thursday, February 12, 2004:
hi girls!! dis is wat he alwyz say pg nkkslubong nya ung mga mggnda nyng frends at syempre isa n ko s mga yun.. he,he,he.... tall, dark & hndsome if i wil describe him physically... sobrng nice s lhat ng mga frends nya npkarespnsbleng tao.. taas ng pangarp s buhay but i know maachieve nya ung dream n un kng ano mn un!!! tlino kc ng
tao n 'to studious sobra!!! mabait at gntlemen.. may kkulitan dn pro sweet!!! dmi kmukhng artista puros gwapo p!! no nid 2 mention kc lam nya nmn kng cno2 ung mga un... grabe abot tenga ang ngiti pg nbbnggit m s knya ung mga artista n un... i'm vry thankful n nkila2 k 'tong guy n 'to... sna d u mgbgo.. stay nice and cool!!!!take care alwyz!!!!

Jeffrey, Sunday, February 08, 2004:
NakuH! parang ayaw ko hatang gaguhin tong gagawin kong testi! ganda nung ginawa nyang testi para sakin eh! pero anyway, lui, a guy of passion and compassion when it comes to arts and accademics. very bright and witty toh! syempre don't forget about the looks that many girls are dying to have glimpse of. modelmodelan sa eskul, pasayaw sayaw with "justin timberlake's moves and singing his songs as well. favorite hata nya yun eh! sabagay hawig cla! bait nito. galing gumawa ng mga bagay bagay sa lahat ng aspeto. dati di pa kami close pero kasi parang di mareach tropa nila eh! pero dambabait naman pala nila sobra! he's a frend you don't wanna missed! be cool!

kEnZiE, Wednesday, January 28, 2004:
hay nku yang c Louie! he's d man n mron n yta lhat. Mtlino at gwapings tulad ko. mabait 2. chick boy din. mhilig 2 s chicks. kso hnggang tngin lng. shy boy kc eh. pro pg nainluv 2. stick 2 one lng. loyal 2 s ex nya. super active 2ng c louie s clas. kya nga dmi ngkkgus2 d2ng chick eh. pro ngyn luvless 2. msaya dw cya s pgiging single. enweiz msarap nman tlga mging single. bsta kung gus2 nyo nging frend 2. dont think twice. you wont regret.

lou ann, Friday, January 23, 2004:
kung may louann na male version, it will be him.. remember louie.. those nights na ..alam mo na.. may pnguusapan tau about kay... pati kay.... basta.. he's the type of guy na hndi mo kayang lokohin.. he's really nice... he's one of the persons na nakatulong sa akin nung time na confused ako.. stick to one yan.. kaya lang lagi siyang nololoko ng mga babae.. basta louie, just wait for the right girl.. god bless!!!luv yahh

meOw-meOw, Friday, January 23, 2004:
si louie..hmmm...hehe! super sweet,super thoughtful! mabait at totoong kaibigan yan. kasi lahat ng sinasabi nya sakin totoo dahil pag hindi magagalit ako sa kanya...=D grabe kapag naging frend mo yn he wil take care of u and will always b der for u,kung kailangan mo ng confidant naku magaling po yan..he's really a nice person dats why sobrang namimis ko nga yang taong yan e,yan ang lei ko..kc ako daw c chin nya e..=D and girls look out! si louie hmmm..very handsome po yan,gustong-gusto ko sa kanya ung kanyang malamorenong kutis,dun mo talaga makikita kung gano kagwapo ang
isang guy. At kapag nagka-girlfrnd 2ng kaibigan kong to,hmm superswerte..kc aasikasuhin nya ng sobra,kaya dapat ung babae worth ng love nya dahil kung
hindin lang..isa ako sa mga hahadlang! well then,last but not da least Love ko
yan!!! GodSpeed =D

JhOi, Thursday, January 15, 2004:
itong si echo este lui mis ko na pambobola skin nito..heheehe!!! this 3rd yr lng kmi ngng close nung nauso meteor garden.. kala ko suplado 'to kc isnabero nung 1st yr kmi pero loko2 pla, ang kulit, lgi pa nkasmile pagnki2ta ko obvious nman picture
plang.. hehehe!!! mnsan nagopen skin bwt sa luvlyf nya yan iba pla sya pgngmhal stik 2 one naaaksss.. oi lui sna di ka mgbgo khit di na tyo blokm8s close pa rin tyo lyk dti!!! ingat awez!!!mmmuah

Sherwinito, Thursday, January 08, 2004:
Louie, payat pero matangkad, mapagmahal pero laging nababasted(noon yon!)pero ngayon labs na boung bayan. Klasmeyt ko to eversince, tumuntong ako ng St.anthony, kasama hanngang grumadyet ng highschool, responsable, maaasahan, mahilig magdrowing kaya
naman bagay na bagay course nia para sa kanya. Tagal ko nang di nakikita.. ano na kayang nangyari, nagkalaman na kaya.. hehehehe, yun lang. TC always,luiboy

Maikee, Wednesday, January 07, 2004:
tall handsome but thin, are the perfect words to describe him physically.a gentle giant who has a very kind heart for whoever asks for his help..he has the talents in
drawing, drawing and drawing hehe.. nsync lover jc chasez pa nga ang idol nyan..louie has abig heart to everyone though sometimes he would get too serious.. torpe un lang shortest way to describe dis guy.. you take care louie!!

LoVeLy MaO, Tuesday, January 06, 2004:
louie...is the guy whom i really trust regardin to my ciaw understanding in life...the guy who's dream is to become a t.v personality(in any face) and in
return and as his friend..."lui suportahan taka"....and i am really in love with this guy(ehem) but m not dreamin to be his gurl,m in love in a way that he's my friend who really understand me...even m a bit bitch...and that's it! good luck
mr.personality (as in t.v personality)..and pls stop tellin stories bout that f4(as in fuckin 4)....:)

mArY jHoY, Tuesday, December 23, 2003:
Thank You sa testimonial mo sa ajin ha! Touch ako... ok yang si Louie... napaka
approachable! actually naging close kami nyan dahil kay JAM.. Crush nya nung High School kami..Wala kasing bukambibig yan kundi name ni Jam.. Matalino din yang si Louie, honor student and good artist.. Mabait and di suplado...Ingat k n lang lagi and balitaan mo nman me sa lovelife mo...

Mitch, Wednesday, December 17, 2003:
oist.. my ever loving pakner.. that was way back in highskul.. grbe.. chikboy
kna.. so,, hinde na HOPELESSLY DEVOTED ang theme song mo.. at hindi mo na din favorite si BUGS BUNNY.. actually, c louie, mabait yan e.. lalo na sa mga
mapuputing babae.. swit din xa.. greabe, i remember, umuusok na ata ang fone namen d pa tapos ang mga kwento nya tungkol sa mga love escapades nya.. pero one thing's for sure, maaasahan mo xa.. kahit san pa kaya makarating, kasama mo xa.. lalo na kung kasama ko c KENG.. all out ang support nyan.. dbahh...

Timothy, Sunday, December 14, 2003:
EY YO LOUIE!! how you know that I had a friendster? damn you mad good...hehe..anyways...I dont remember too much about our elementary school
years but I do remember you were skinny as HELL! ehehe..go eat some SINIGANG or
something hehe...nah just playing anyways...I do remember that you mad good in drawing and you and me always had like competition in drawing
hehe...anyways keep that up man...that'll take you somewhere someday...well you mad cool for keeping in touch with me...not like other people Im out doode stay the same and PEACE!

frances-beanne, Saturday, December 13, 2003:
c louie? we're definitely not that close!!!hahaha...we've been friends just last year lng..one thing i like about louie is his sweetness, sweet
nyan grabe!!bait bait pa..(kala mo dko naapreciate ung kindness mo noh)..deans
lister po yan kya beware!!!haha, sipag pang mag aral..wen it cums to studies
serious tlaga pro ryt after d class ayun puro kalokohan..so cool and so
funny...Most of us admire his bardkada kc they're so cool tlaga!! my 1st
impression to him, suplado intimidating pa nga,pro ayun as times goes by naging
okey nmn..mabait yan, he dont bite but he lets you bite him..haha (joke,joke, joke)!!!

ela, Saturday, December 13, 2003:
Ei Kuya Ryan! Hmmm, ano ba masasabi ko sa insan ko... Umm, besides the fact
na mahilig siyang maglaro ng basketball at playstation, liban sa sa kanya ako natutong maglaro ng RPG, besides sa fact na gusto niya sa
NSYNC, Linkin Park and Justin Timberlake, liban sa crush niya si KC Concepcion... Ummm, wala na, nsabi ko na ata lahat e... Hehehe, pero mabait 'to! Take Care!

Miqui'sGirl, Thursday, December 11, 2003:
hi louie! first of all, friend to ni miqui ko. i must say that their berks
have a good reputation in the eyes and as well, hearts of tonesians.
gentlemen. louie courted a cousin of mine :> and i remember he was really
excited bout updating me wat has been happening. sabi ng cuz ko mabait daw
and sweet. yes, he has been nice to me. i remember one of his antics. he would
hide his face with his forefinger and he would tell me "hindi mo ko nakikita.." eheh. dami kwento ni miqui sakin bout louie, and nakakatuwa naman. gudluck :>

Prime, Thursday, December 11, 2003:
lou. sobrang bait nitong taong to'. mapagmahal na anak at masunurin sa
kanyang ATE dianne.. madaming nalolokong chicks dito,ryan agoncillo kse dating nya.. masarap ksama pag kumakain,malakas kse sya tsumibog.minsan pinagsasabihan ko na mejo bawas-bawasan yung pagkain kse baka ma high-blood sya.. magaling magdrawing,promil kse iniinom nya nung grade school kme... dude ingat lagi.hope to see you soon. peace!

Meg, Monday, December 08, 2003:
Well what can i say? I've known louie for three years now and i can attest that this guy is one of the few LOYAL guys i've ever known. It's that close-up commercial smiles of his that had T..E.A squealing in the background. It didn't matter to louie that she was a looker, this one hell of a guy stuck to his girl.. BEAT THAT!!! Attention mga lalaki dyan! This guy should be your role model.. There should be a factory that makes LOUIE Clones just to make up for all the loss mankind has had in the past. Plus hardworking pa yan.. He's forever asking about assignments and things to do in school.. There have been a lot of times when i myself have failed to comply with some of the requirements. And who would i turn to? LOUIE OF COURSE! (Duh!)testimonial nya kaya to! Hello??!! lalo na sa algebra nung first year! I even remember singing Dirty Pop (N'sync) while answering seatworks in math zero... And we both jumped for joy when we got a TRES in algebra! Babaw noh? eniwei, louie is god's gift to our block so i take my cap off and salute him!!!

P BALLESTEROS, Monday, December 08, 2003:
LOUIE VILLANUEVA...umpisa pla lng ala na akong masabi ah!hehehe...yan c louie ala kang masasabi mapa nega or posi pa!pagkakaalam ko kay louie bait yan lalo na sa mga babae(ilan ba yun louie???)...c louie presi namin yan nung 4th yr(tama ba,limot ko na dami kcng kompyuter program ang sinasaulo ko eh!)galing nyan humawak ng ano...ng klase,kayo ha...ano pa ba???ang taba nyan ni louie sobra lalo na nung high
skul grabe sa katabaan,hehehe(sana nh louie)oo nga pla idol ko yan c louie,tol lam mo ba may nakatago ka pag ART WORKS mo sakn(teka hanapin ko muna!)d nga meron tlga pakta ko sau pag reunion nating SFA<--(d best section yan nun batch 2001, daig nyan lhat ng section)...louie, san ka bang channel lalabas?kapuso ka ba? o kapamilya?--
>tol, pagbutihan mo sa pagaaral gud luck na lng kta kits sa reunion(kailan kaya)<-- PAHABOL:nakalimutan ko na cge nxt tym uli madaling araw na eh! cge bye...

eMoN -kyEmONeMz, Friday, December 05, 2003:
oi tol mustah?! salamat sa testi ha....hehehe! gawin ko tong email...hehehe! cnong makulit?well, medyo matagal ko na din di kayo nakikita ah..isa sa mga halimaw sa
talent ng tone si louie...lalo na sa art at drawing! dehins na ko ng-cocomics eh...tsaka iba na dinodrowing ko ngyon...panay circuit na eh...hehehe! kaw?! well, 2loy ko tong testi...si louie eh gwapo yan...(tama ba ko dun) well, he's very kind po at sobrang bait din na kaibigan kahit di kami gaano nagkakasama nun...eh mabait
tlaga yan....isa pa eh alam kong faithful at mapagmahal yan...matiyaga pang manligaw!hehehe! well, pede bang tama na to...lalalabas lahat ng kalokohan ko eh....basta yngatz! na lang tol and Gud luck sa studies okei!

aaaaaaa, Friday, December 05, 2003:
si ryan agoncillo ba 'to?...ay hindi,si louie pala!...musta na kapatid?...one
of my closest guy friends back in high school...i have tons of good memories
with this guy!we used to talk a lot on the phone every night...he was one of
my confidantes...grabe ma-in love 'to!dami nga siya crush eh...yun ngalang,minsan yung mga crush niya iba yung crush,he he!pero luv ko yan!eh ikaw ba naman yung tawaging ate kahit mas matanda siya sa 'yo noh!behave ka louie ha!balita ko chickboy ka na daw eh!take care ryan,erm,louie pala...

Paulo, Wednesday, December 03, 2003:
c louie?amm? he's one of a hek who loves boybands..hehe,especially N'SyNC,hehe. idol nya c jc ng nysnc..mahal ko 2ng lalakeng 2,hindi ako bakla it only mins that his one of my special friend ryt now..seryoso masyado pag inlove laging nawawala pg nki2ta ang mahal nya..HMM?cno kya yn?hehe...eto ang taong laging d pnapayaan pg my lakad ang barkada pero ngyn improving na..hehe.tall,dark and handsome eto?hehe.all i can say is lyk me malakas dn mang asar especially pg inaasar nya yung friend nmin na c
shely..hehe..VERY STUDIOUS! dmo pwedeng guluhin pg nagaaral yn..mern pa lyk
me,he loves to learn about driving..masunurin sa magulang at responsableng tao 2. yun lng,bsta ingat nlng lagi..you knw that you can lean on me,jst call my name il be there..hehe. Pahabol...adict sa PS

danzenFIRST, Tuesday, December 02, 2003:
fellow anthonian. lagi naka smile. nice and polite to everyone. seryoso pg nagkacrush. wala masama na masasabi about him. seryoso sa studies. laging honor student! :) see you around louie!

xxApRiLxx, Saturday, November 29, 2003:
hi louie!!! actually, i kinda miz ur comapny too, i mis the time we talk
over the phone, grabe as in medyo puyatan din..:)..how are you?..well, louie is a nice person, sweet and gentleman 2ng batang to..chka u can to talk to him onanything under the sun..makulit tsaka matangkad!! :) balita ko nga nag-iba ka na daw,
makilala pa kaya kita pag nakita tau-JokE!!! basta talagang gudboy 2, di ba
keng? c",)..yngat ka lage and sana magkita talaga ulit tau..cge godbless!! *muah*

hErMie, Friday, November 28, 2003:
lui's been my classmate when i was still in adu, i can say hes very sweet and accommodating.."my labs" pa nga tawagan namin niyan e..basta you have to find out why.special child din yan kasi hes very witty and hes been mad about boy bands so much!!i really wont forget the time he drew a caricature of my fave pic, that served as he's "commemoration" for me daw..para daw i wont forget him..well, true to
what he said, namimiss ko nga mga bonding dun..pati kakulitan niya namimis ko..kaso everything has changed now..we dont usually hang out nowadays because, of course, were hundred of meters apart!!!basta un..hope i cud intertwine with you guys again..see you soon!!labya my labs!!!mis you all!

ShEn, Friday, November 28, 2003:
What can I say about my friend Louie?....well, I don't know him that much except that he's my schoolmate since prep to high school at SAS before, my cousin's classmate and one of the R6 people I've handled during our CAT days…currently studying at Adamson University near my school taking up Mass Communications which
will take him to some places (ryt?). If there's such thing as studyholic (he
might have that disorder)he'll do anything for his studies. He has a good
taste when it comes to girls (excluding the one who is talking).hmmm…….. okei..okei..I lied!!!(",) I really know this guy as much as I know myself…..if
not, I wouldn’t be writing this long. Nevertheless, he’s one hell of a guy I met in my lifetime! Nice to talk to, nice to be with…haaay louie,ikaw ang pinaka-mahirap gawan ng testimonial sa lahat! But let me be the first one to give this guy a testimonial he really deserves… The most hypersensitive guy na nakilala ko!(you can’t hide anything kahit sa phone, he can sense those feelings)uncommon to other guys talaga, he loves crowd very much(can see his mala-celebrity side in the future),has a great passion for music, mahilig sa mga kids stuff, values what he has and what he had…and what I like in him the most is he brings out the best in his friends like me. He’s a real friend...and he’s the first guy who changed my view in life. “thanks for letting me know what ‘reality’ means” (hey,it’s not that bad)…not at all!(",) A guy that’s trustworthy and all…. he’s got to be Louie alone! Take Care my friend! (kahit hindi na tayo close) mahal ko pa rin yang kaybigan ko!Godbless*hugz*(",)

*gasping for air* man,that was sure lenghty!probably the longest post i've ever did.never knew that copy/paste was tiring.hope you were able to read it all and hope you were able to learn more 'bout me.thank you for your time readin' out this post.

i was also able to watch elektra a while ago.man,was i so impressed!my review's comin' next week!'till next time!

she

2005-01-21T19:03:00.000-08:00

She was a girl of average height, close to 5’4”, I guess. She wasn’t your typical girl next-door type, a little bit boyish if I may add. She doesn’t always have a sweet smile to greet you. Most of the time you’ll see her blank with no emotions. She doesn’t standout in a crowd but I’m into her. I can’t explain it but everytime I see her, it makes my heart beat faster. From a distance I can see her emotionless but beautiful face. If only I could approach and talk to her…if only…

As I went to mass last Sunday, I wasn’t expecting anything. Everything seemed normal nothing extraordinary but that Sunday was different. As I stood outside waiting for the mass to start, I looked around to see if any of my friends went to mass but as I glanced to my left there’s this girl who looked familiar. It was around five mins before six and it was getting dark already and the church lights were not lit yet. I was staring at her and so does she. I didn’t realized who she was right away but as the seconds ticked away I felt my heart beating faster. It was she! I thought I was mistaken so I tried to look away. I thought it was just my imagination working. As I looked away I noticed that the church lights have been turned on and as I looked back again, I was sure it was she! She was still looking so I looked the other way and I think so does she…

I admit, I wan’t able to concentrate on the mass. My mind kept on thinkin’ ‘bout her. I was thinkin’ like; do I look right? Did she notice it was I? Is she still looking? Thoughts that I shouldn’t had been entertainin’ during the mass. Every once in a while I tried to glanced at her because it’s been years, four years to be exact, since I last saw her. I was already thinkin’ bout her last Friday because I was figurin’ out if she’d be clebratin’ her birthday that Sunday. That thought just passed me by and only came back during the time I saw her. I thought of greeting her but I was still wasn’t sure if it she was celebratin’ her birthday. I texted one of my buddies but he didn’t answer.

As I looked at her I noticed that she was wearing a red shirt and I thought may be I’m right cause I know a lot of people who wear red colored clothes during their birthday, its like a chinese belief, I guess. But then again, may be I’m wrong which made me think more. I also thought that I should greet her cause she might think that I’m a snob, which I wasn’t. I was only reactin’ like that because of our long history…

As corny as it may seem but she was the very first girl I had a crush on way back 1st year high. If I remembered it correctly we only has one room separated by wooden walls. Walls that have small openings, which let you, see the other side. I wasn’t a voyeur so I didn’t tried to peep not until that day…

I was assigned as a cleaner that day and as I was cleanin’ with my classmates I heared noise comin’ from the other side. I just ignored it but I heard a girl’s voice callin’ out my friend’s name. I suddenly got curious cause it wanted to know who she was. I tried to look unto the wall and there she was…lookin’. I tried to talk to her and asked her name but she didn’t answer back. She went away from the hole and as she was movin’ away I was finally able to see her face completely. Man, that was like the first time I saw her beautiful face. It was like love at first sight or so I thought.

Days passed by and I finally decided to come up and talk to her but just like our previous meeting she moved away. Our every meeting was like that but still I don’t know what’s with her that made me stayed. I courted her for two years and got rejected twice. Guess I never learned. I was too hardheaded or I was just plain dumb but still I kept on insisting myself to her. I still remember the days wherein I sent love letters and got a hate letter in return. Just imagine how painful was that. We share a common cirlce of friends that’s why I also experienced that whenever I came she would stand up and go away or if not she would pretend as if I wasn’t there. It just saddens me looking back how pathetic I am back in the day.

Fast forward to 2005, 6 years later, right now at this very moment and after that incident at the church I still think of her. At the church I noticed that she was with somebody, I assume it was her boyfriend cause she was holding on to his arm. I only noticed it during the latter part of the mass cause I was even plannin’ on walking her home if she was alone but sadly I was mistaken. Also, on the greetings of peace I was eager on greetin’ her and I wasn’t dissapointed cause she greeted me with a pretty smile. I just love thinking ‘bout the way she smiled at me cause as far as I can remember she never did she smiled at me nor have I remembered having a good conversation with her (though I wish I could have). If I was to compare what she looks like back in the day and what she looks like right now nothin’ much has changed except for the fact that she looks even prettier right now.

As the mass ended I was not able to bid her goodbye so I went home still puzzled if I should and how should I greet her. I called up my buddy and asked for an advice and he told me that I should call her. I was hesitant at first (what do you expect? Hello! We never had a good history) but I ended up doin’ so. I called her up twice and she wasn’t answerin’ so I just ended up textin’ her. This is what I texted her;

Hi!I just texted you to say that it was nice to see you again. Its been years since I last saw you kasi I was callin’ you a while back but I can’t reach you so I thought of just textin’ you instead. It’s your bday today right? HAPPY BIRTHDAY! May all your wishes come true and good luck in all that you do! Take care! Good PM! Thanks!*smiley*

That’s how my message went and of course I expected a reply. I was feelin’ down already cause 2 hours have passsed since I sent my sms and up until now there wasn’t any reply comin’ from her. I was already feeling down and was ‘bout to go to sleep until my phone beeped. I was excited to see who it was and to my delight it was HER! There was nothin’ special but her message though, I just felt glad cause I was no longer expectin’ an sms comin' from her until she did.

As corny as this may sound but I have to admit, even up to this day she still holds a space in my heart. May be its not as big as what it used to be but still she does have that little space. I don’t know as to how far this would lead or where this feelin’ would end up (most likely nowhere) but what’s important is that right now…I am happy.

for the sake of havin' somethin' to post ver.2

2005-01-19T18:38:00.000-08:00

again,i have nothin' to say for this post.i'm still thinkin' 'bout somethin' worthy enough to be posted unlike this one...until next time!

whereabouts (a.k.a. the long overdue post)

2005-01-10T20:16:00.000-08:00

well,vacation's over and i'm back to my same old routine only on a brand new year.as usual to make up for the time i was away this is goin' to be another lenghty post.

there's nothin' much i did during the whole vacation.i didn't attented any parties ('xcept for our family reunion) but instead i stayed at home and helped out at the chores (like doin' laundry,gardening,dishes and other stuff).i only went out two times to have a good time with my cousins.first i treated them to star city because i had 50 cancan tickets (a ticket enables you to have one free ride) that i got during my radio practicum at love.second,we went malling at festival mall,which has been a yearly activity for us.its the only time of the year wherein we would go out by ourselves without any adult supervision ('xcept for my cousin dribs and me).we've been doin' that for three years already.except for festival mall and star city i've never went anywhere else except to my cousin's house playin' video games but majority of my time was spent at home.

our christmas celebration was simple,it was just the usual thing we did every year.spendin' time with each other and eating,eating,eating and did i just say eating?the whole christmas week until new year was a feast.man,talk about a lot of food.i somehow grew tired of pasta during the holidays.in fact,i even did eat spaghetti for breakfast,lunch and dinner(it's not obvious that spaghetti happens to be my favorite food right?).good thing i never got fatter cause i already have a big tummy.(its not a beer belly ok?my tummy grew because of my being a lazy boy.)which now leads me to another part of this post,which is...

my new year's resolution

just like what i've written above i already got a tummy which i plan on removing this year.im not thinkin' 'bout liposuction because first its costly and second, im afraid of operations.im thinkin' bout' workin out this year and as a matter of fact i already started going to the gym today.to tell you guys honestly,my arms and shoulder are hurtin right now, which makes this post a little hard to do compared to the usual.anyways,i know this pain is only temporary and the hardships that i've goin' through right now are worth it the moment i achieved my dream body that is...a little like ryan reynolds' in blade trinity...so that when i apply for a job i would easily get accepted not only because of my skills but also because they would be mesmerized with my good looks and sexy body.(haha!dream on luiboi!dream on!)

but seriously speaking,this is only the time i thought about body cause ever since i was a kid i was skinny and a lot of my classmates and friends could prove that.somehow in the coming months i really wish that i could achieved the body that im dreaming about.

speaking ' bout new year i almost got myself hurt.during new year's eve my cousins and i was lighting up fireworks i almost got into a fatal accident,in other words "muntik na kong maputokan".you may ask what kind of firework it is?its a roman candle.man,it really sucks just thinkin' of it.

what happened was as i was holding up the roman candle i was also running around which caused the gun powder to slide downward and caused another spark at the handle which i was holding.i only realized that there was another spark at the handle was during the time that i felt that its getting hot.good thing,i threw it immediately cause if i didn't, it could have exploded during the time i was holding it.thank god i only got burns on my left hand.that night as i was goin' to bed i could feel my left hand burnin' and no one was to be blamed except me.reason why i didn't get to enjoy eating afterwards cause i could really feel my hand burnin..sigh..

but that wasn't all,our celebration wasn't really in a festive mood because my grandmother was feelin' bad that night.in fact she was confined to the hospital the mornin' after.good thing though,she's all well now,thank god.

well,that's 'bout it all regarding my whereabouts during my holidays.on with the usual thing i do at this site...

movie reviews

like what i've said during my previous post i'm goin' to do a review for blade trinity and kung-fu hustle.doin' movie reviews is also somethin' i missed doin'.on with the reviews...

blade:trinity

this is the third installment of this series from marvel.blade,a vampire hunter whose series started as a comic book from marvel.i'd say that among the three blade films this happens to be my favorite.why?when in fact there was nothing new in this movie,the fight scenes and special effects was just all the same.what made me like this is not because of anythin' this movie has got new to offer but because they were able to maintain or if not even improved their formula which made this series interesting.the addition of the nightstalkers (ryan reynolds and jessica biel) to the fold gave the movie a more existing twist.now,you're not only limited to seeing blade and whistler.now you get to see new faces.previously,blade was more action-packed,not that im sayin' that it was less this time,it still is but with an added humour.hannibal king(ryan reynolds),was able to put a touch of comedy in this action-packed movie.cinematography was ok cause just like what i've said nothing much has changed in the series.if you've already watched blade 2,you may get an idea what i'm talking about.except for a few expected scenes and less gore,this movie is good.i recommend it to be a great barkada movie.

rating:4/5

kung fu hustle

this is another comedy from funny man,stephen chow.just like his previous work,shaolin soccer,this movie is insanely funny.this movie is about two brothers who are wannabe gangsters.they tried a lot of things(though a lot of them failed) just to be accepted as one.this movie offers action-packed fight scenes.you'll be astonished about the great kung fu in this movie,not to mention the special effects.the cgis were great for an asian film(its not that im bein' discriminant its just that im not used to seein' these good special effects in an asian movie),the special effects were good enough to compete with western films.the only thing i find dissapointing 'bout this movie is that this movie has poor character development.everything was fast so fast paced,some characters was given less attention like stephen chow's love interest.one moment,she's this young bullied girl then next thing you know she's this ice cream vendor then she's gone for a while then there she comes out again before the film ends but then again,who cares too much about the story when the movie is insanely funny mixed with great kung fu,righ?its a movie worth of your money and time.this is definitely a great barkada movie!

rating:3/5

my bill is gettin' quite costly already so i think i'd already end this up.
'till next time.

this blog is on break

2005-01-07T21:44:00.000-08:00

sorry guys i still haven't finished my new post because the computer is still not workin' properly.also, if you have time this weekend, go out and watch either or both "blade:trinity" and "kung-fu hustle".trust me,its your moneys worth.i'd be postin my reviews hopefully by next week along with my long overdue post.once again,i'm out for the weekend as usual,im goin' home to cavite.

that's 'bout it.'till next week.

(i got a friend who's just new into blogging,jamboi,you could click on my link to check on out site)

back from the break

2005-01-02T18:15:00.000-08:00

finally im back after 2 weeks of R&R.i really missed blogging/blog-hopping.i'll not be able to post the things i did during vacation coz im still out on a rental and im busy checking up my emails (which is quite numerous)coz i wasn't able to check them and this blog during the whole time i was away.thanks for everyone who visited the blog during the past year.

once again,i'd like to say that...i really missed blogging.

the last post for the year (expect this to be lenghty)

2004-12-15T13:50:00.000-08:00

I know this is still to early for a year-end post but it just so happens that I would have not internet access this coming holidays because I’d be spendin’ it in cavite. I’d be back next year when our classes resume. I’m goin’ to miss blogging/blog hopping because I won’t be able to do it for 2 weeks or so. As the year ends, I would like to thank those people who somehow find time to visit my blog (you already know who you are…) because if it weren’t for you guys I may have quit blogging already. I’d also like to thank the passer-by’s cause I know even if you haven’t leave out your comment you we’re able to read my thoughts and got luified.

holiday wishes

I got the inspiration for this post from ms.ala's blog and its ‘bout makin’ 10 holiday wishes. You can tell your friends ‘bout it so that they could also make their own. You could make any wish you want, big or small, material or not. After which you could see their lists and if its possible you could make some of their wishes come true. It also goes the same for you, if your friends would be able to see your wishes they could make it come true. Isn’t it nice? well, enough ‘bout this intro and on with my list…hehehe

MY 10 HOLIDAY WISHES

1. good health for my family
2. be able to graduate this comin’ march
3. own a PS2 (really been wantin’ to own one)
4. own a copy of Leinil Francis Yu’s Superman:Birthright Tradepaperback
5. own a decent functioning and somehow updated PC (even just enough to support Adobe Photoshop)
6. own an original cd of any of these artists’ latest albums; yellowcard, new found glory, simple plan, good charlotte, story of the year
7. learn to draw better (especially perspectives because I’m havin’ a hard time makin’ my own comic book)
8. learn to change and update this blog (I’ve already started with my links appearin’ on a new window)
9. have a casual coat
10. meet, talk, have an autograph and have a picture with my biggest celebrity crush, IYA Villania (I’ve already seen her once but wasn’t able to do any of those things; you could also refer to my previous post “the wazzup wazzup experience” as to when I saw her)

Actually its ok even if none of my materials would come true this holiday season. What matters to me is my 1st and 2nd wishes because I know someday I could grant my own personal material wishes. As for my first two wishes with God’s help it would come true. I’m also hopin’ that my 10th wish would come true even if its not this comin’ holidays but I hope it would come true someday…soon.

As for my material wishes, I wished them liked a little kid. Do you still remember the days when you were young that you made wishes to Santa? I wished them something liked that. I’m hopin’ that somehow Santa would still grant my wishes even if I’m already 20 (me and my childish thinkin’ again). But just like what I’ve said even if I can’t have it, its still ok cause I’d be able to buy them when I start to earn my own money.

I know that not all people would be spendin’ happy holidays. We all know that our country has just suffered from typhoons and still suffering economically reason why I’m still thankful for all the blessings that the Lord has given us. May be I don’t own that much but still I’m thankful because I know that I’m still fortunate as compared to other people. Jusy by the fact that we still live, eat regularly, have a home to go to, havin' clothes to wear are the things that we should be thankful about.We should be grateful for what we already have because some may still be wishin’ to have what we do…

bein' luified

for the regular visitors of this blog you may have noticed that i changed the header of my blog a couple of times already. first it was luiboi;i'm the best there is, the best there was and the best there ever will be at doin' nothin' (which i think is quite pathetic and lame).then i changed it to luiboi;the pencil is my guitar and art is my music (this just shows how frustrated artist and musician i am) but i am not postin' any of my artworks so i decided to change it again. now its luified;the luiboi experience.i decided to change my header this way because by simply visitin' this site,i was able to share what goes on in my head, even in my life (and at times also my movie reviews) and by which you were able to have a luiboi experience.i can't explain it clearly kaya basta yun' na 'yun and somehow it does sound a little bit catchy,isn't it?

here's a little somethin' from me that i want to give to you guys.its not that much but i hope you liked it.please click here
good day!'till next year!

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!

a worthless post

2004-12-14T19:50:00.000-08:00

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i'd be postin' tomorrow my actual post.hehe.

Four years ago & Three months from now

2004-12-08T18:25:00.000-08:00

Four years ago I graduated from high school.fours years ago I entered college and enrolled in the institution that I am in now. Fours years ago I parted ways with my high school buddies, though not permanently, I no longer see them on a regular basis like we used to. I spent 10 years of my life with these people I call friends, who are almost like brothers to me.

Each one of us became busy with our own lives. Studyin’ or just doin our own things. We have less communication or in the case of others, none at all. Good thing though is that some of us still see each other on a regular basis, on the weekends, to be exact. Sad thing is, I am not inluded in this mini-get together. Its not that I don’t want to be with them anymore, in fact I miss their company, it’s just that weekends are family days for me.

Four years and I got to have new set of friends and so did they. Good thing is we never forgot each other. Our friendship is still there, even if it’s really seldom that I see them, my love for them is still the same during the time that we begin to build this friendship.

Four years pass by and I see my friends one at a time. The last time we got together completely (meaning it included those people who are always absent which particularly includes me and a friend) was during a birthday of our friend. That time we tried to catch up on old times, tell stories and joke around. The thing I observed is that they all have grown except for me. Grown in a manner that they have matured in a lot of ways as compared to what I remember them during high school. They matured in a way I can’t clearly explain but in a good way of course, its like I see them as already somebody responsible and capable enough to start their own family.

I envy them. As I look at myself, I’m still that high school kid. I only aged and matured physically but I admit that I’m still childish in a number of ways particularly my hobbies. Of course I could already handle myself, its just that the things I do mostly are child stuff like video games and comic books. As compared to them, they already experienced a number of things that I still haven’t but I would no longer mention these things because probably you already got an idea of what they are. I know I may not be missing out big time but still those experiences help you grow.

It’s not that im comparing myself with them because there’s no point in comparison, we’re friends. Its just that after these four years I still see myself as a kid, which could be good and bad in a number of ways. Good because I could still enjoy the simplier things in life without having any complications, bad thing though is that I may not be able to know what to do when the time comes for me to mature.

I know its up to me when I would grow up. Its just that im still enjoying my youth (even if im already 20), may be its because I wasn’t able to have the freedom that others do. Its not that im bein’ locked up or anythin’ its just that we we’re all raised up differently. Some are allowed to go out partyin’ and some or not. I’m not sayin’ that im deprived of these things, in fact as I look back there may be a number of times that I want to rebel but I chose not to because I know it would just be pointless. The more I resist, the more complicated things would be so I gave in, which is not a bad decision though because at my age now I now experience the freedom that I previously don’t.

May be that’s the reason why I see my friends more mature than me because their parents know that they are already mature and responsible enough to take care of themselves and thus give them the freedom that they deserve, which is only now that I begin to have. Just like I said earlier Im still childsih in a number of ways reason why may be its only now that my parents start to see that I’m already old enough to start to learn things on my own and be responsible enough for my actions.

Three months from now hopefully I’d be graduating. Im already in the state of completing the requirements for the application of graduation, reason why I did this post because I still can’t believe that I’d soon be leaving the institution I went in four years ago. I also don’t know what to expect when graduation day comes. I still have questions in my mind like; “Am I already ready for the real world?”, “Am I mature enough to take care of myself”, “Would I get a job immediately” and other questions that a kid like me still puzzles about. The only thing I know is that when the time comes or when the situation calls for it, I’d be ready, hopefully.

ending up

I know I don’t always get to write serious thoughts like this, so you may be a little surprised because as you all read from my previous posts I usually write my experiences, plans or activities. May be this is the start that I’m talking ‘bout. May be this post is a sign that I’m beginning to see things in a different light or may be its simply because that I begin to realize that I’m no longer a kid and that I’m not getting any younger. But still I won’t forget or throw away the kid in me because I know for a fact that when I do that, my life wouldn’t be fun anymore.

My thanks for readin’ until the end of another lenghty post which I somehow regularly do.hehe.good day.

i'd also would like to share that i just bought this week the latest albums of my favorite bands particularly that of simple plan's "still not getting any",good charlotte's "the chronicles of life and death" and linkin park & jay-z's "collision course" and just a few weeks ago i mentioned 'bout having new found glory's "catalyst".yipeee!in fact i just finished recording my favorite tracks to my mp3 player.man,i so love these artists.in fact that's what inspired me to have a mohawk haircut which i would be mentioning on mah next post.good thing i'll have something good enough to listen to on the holidays.it's gonna be one punk rockin' holidays.hehe.

this might be my last post for the week because i got no classes tom and on friday because the Immaculate Concepcion celebration was moved tomorrow and on friday would be the investiture of Adamson's new president so it only means that i'd have a long weekend,again.yahooooo!!!until next week.i'm out.

blog update

2004-12-06T19:50:00.000-08:00

i would just like to inform the visitors of this blog that i have already learned how to make my links appear on a new window without holding and pressing shift anymore.im really thankful that i already learned it because i've been wanting to know that for a long time already.

i'd like to thank my cousin ku' allan for teaching that to me.

web counter

finally,after some time my site reached a 1,000+ visitors.im really happy 'bout it because after months of putting up this blog (in fact,i did some count check on my previous posts)i finally got a 1,000 visitors.yippee!!though this may be a small thing but for me,it somehow means something because i never thought that 1,000 people would visit my site even if my site haven't got that much to offer yet 'xcept for my posts.having achieved this,it somehow inspired me not only to improve my blog but also continue blogging.as what you have may read in my previous post somehow im beginning to lose interest but with this it really got me inspired!hehe!

dtour

i just send an email to dtour(you know that show on studio 23 on sunday nights) which contains my suggested name for their new segment.i really hope that my suggested name gets picked!

as always i'm still out on a rental reason why this post is in a hurry.hehe.

just for the sake of having something to post

2004-12-02T14:10:00.000-08:00

i guess the title says it all.im out of words for this post.don't know what to write or better yet i'm simply bored.i still haven't written the review 'bout the incredibles which i have been talking 'bout,sorry and i also have another review lined-up and it's 'bout alexander,which i watched last night which im also quite dissapointed 'bout that movie.i also got the chance to see one of my high school buddies,eckian last night at the movie house.never expected to see him there.well,that's all for now.i think i'd just be sleepin' coz i got no classes today.before i forgot,im also sportin' a new haricut...a mohawk!a true mohawak you know the hairstylee which blink's travis and mr.t have.oh,well that would be all.

the post before the long weekend

2004-11-26T18:35:00.000-08:00

actually i'm having a hard time doin' this post because it seems like something does not want me to finish this post.i already did a rough draft of my actual post but it seems that every computer that i use when i type my post hangs up.argghhh!its really pissing me off!good thing there's this long weekend ahead of us....

as always i'ma be spending the whole weekend back in our place at cavite.its another 3days of r&r plus a couple of other things like i'ma be setting up the x'mas lights this week just like what my grandma asked me to coz i finished putting up the x'mas tree last week.i'ma be also doin' some photo shoots for my photojourn class.im required to have 2 pics of animals for human interest and 2 landscape pics.i already got my subjects in mind.for the animals i'ma be usin' my cousin's BIG dog(forgot the breed though) with his assistance of course coz not only does his dog doesn't know me,im also afraid of dogs 'specially the big ones.i still can't imagine how am i goin' to conduct this shoot.my second subject would be one of the roosters bein' raised back in our place.as for the landscape i think of goin' to tagaytay coz its near our place(5-10 mins to be exact) and just i'd just choose when i get there.im really quite excite 'bout this activity coz its my first time doin' such.

i'd just be postin' up the remainder of this post(including the review)next week coz im already goin' to cavite tonight.enjoy the long weekend guys.

the wazzup wazzup experience

2004-11-19T22:05:00.000-08:00

guys,guess what just happened to me?i was on the set of wazzup wazzup just a while ago and man,did i enjoy the experience!aside from the fact that it was my first time to be able to go to the abs-cbn compound(which also happens to be a nice place) i was also able to see what goes on at wazzup wazzup,in fact i was also able to sit at the set(you know the coffe-shop like) and my cousins who watched the show told me that they saw me on tv.hehe.

but how did i got to it in the first place?well,they have this segment at wazzup which is "wazzup with you" and my school,adamson,is featured in that segment together with ust.yesterday,some people went to the school to shoot and interview some people and i got included because the tadjock for our school,tj, happens to be my classmate!though my part was edited out,im still happy because i was included in tj's extro and not only that i was there during the live broadcast.yaaahooooo!!!

at the set i was able to see the hosts vhong,drew and tuesday but still there was still something that really surprised and made my trip to the set such a wonderful experience.guess who i saw?i saw my biggest celebrity crush,IYA VILLANIA!i never really expected it to happen(though i wish it would).it was liked an answered prayer because i was really dreaming of seeing her in person.sad thing though,i wasn't able to talk to her or get her autograph because the show was broadcasting live during the time she was there and by the time the show ended she was gone but still just seeing her was enough for me.i just wish that i'd be able to see her again.haaayyyyy.she was rrrreeeaaaaallllllyyyyyy sssooo pprreeetttyyyy!!!!haaaayyy!!!thank you lord!!!!

-i just watched the incredibles last wednesday.i'll be postin' the review next week.

-it's already late.time to go home.bye.

a long weekend of ragnarok,nba live and driving

2004-11-16T20:35:00.000-08:00

well,im here back after that long weekend and man i did a lot!a lot of time playin' around specifically ragnarok,nba live and basketball(the real sport).i did own a ragnarok account but i never paid much attention to it,i just have an account so that i get to have a feel what its like to play the game.in short im never really into it not until now.why?simple because i was able to play it with my cousins.its really fun to play an online game when your with other people rather than just playing by your lonesome.another thing is that in the game you know that somebody's watchin' your back and you wont die easily cause you help each other to make it through the levels in the game and also you get also to ask for extra items or money which other players wouldn't normally give you.

i never thought that we played the game for four straight hours!cool!as an added bonus we were able to meet a new found friend.there's this character who has chatting with us but we just ignored it and just continued playing.then after some time she gave out her email address and asked if we could add her up on friendster.we just laughed at the idea and thought it was just a guy playing a prank on us but to able to find out if this person was telling the truth,we opened my friendster account and searched for her.to our surprise she was really a girl and man was she so pretty!she might have been the prettiest lady i ever knew playing ragnarok.suddenly things changed...we started chatting with this girl.all the while she was a member of our guild yet only one of us was paying attention to her my youngest cousin,marco,he was friends with this girl even before we saw her pic.good thing were now friends with her.

as for nba live 2005 (my favorite game as of the moment)we played it again last weekend.for three consecutive days we played it every night and for three consecutive days,i never won.arrghhhh!i'll really win next time.

driving alone

our family went to my aunt's house last sunday for a visit but i went home earlier than them cause my cousins and me were scheduled to play that night.i went home,played basketball,ate dinner,played nba live then watched tv.as i was watching one of my cousins called and told me that we were going to go to my aunt's house to fetch my family cause my dad was sleeping drunk and so we went.when we arrived i saw my dad sleeping and then my mom approached me and asked if i can drive the vehicle home.i easily said YES!man,was i so happy to learn that!its my first time driving our jeep home,alone,without any adult supervision!(though i already have my liscence they still wouldn't allow me drive).i was so happy that i'd be able to finally drive on my own and i didnt dissapointed them.they were in the car at the back and i was in front as i drive.they saw that i can indeed drive and hopefully this would be the start of letting me drive the jeep or the car even in my lonesome!!!!yipppeeee!!!!

im out.:)

Luiboi 101

2004-11-08T19:43:00.000-08:00

here are just some of the facts that would help you know me better...

 Ryan Louie Ortiz Villanueva is my complete name
 At home, my family and relatives call me “Ryan” but most of my friends call me “Louie”
 My birthdate is August 14,1984
 Leo is my astrological sign and I was born on the year of the rat
 I only have one sibling, a younger sister, Diane
 My hometown is Amadeo, Cavite but I was raised here in Manila
 I studied nursery in Amadeo, Cavite but I took up prep,elementary and high school here in Manila at St. Anthony, Singalong and Im currently studying at Adamson University taking up A.B. Mass Communication and Im already in my senior year and hopefully I’ll be graduating this coming March
 Right now I don’t have any pc. It broke down last September. Im currently using my uncle’s cpu
 Im a comic book collector and some of my collection includes; Fantastic Four, X-men, Spider-man, Justice League, Superman, Wolverine, Out There, Battle Chasers, Wasted
 My favorite comic book artists are; Humberto Ramos, Joe Madureira, Pat Lee, Salvador Larroca, Jeff Matsuda, Michael Turner, Leinil Francis Yu, Elmer Damaso, Gerry Alanguilan
 My other hobbies aside from collecting comic books includes; drawing, playing video games, basketball, blogging (obviously), surfing the net, channel surfing, sleeping
 I only own 4 shoes; a leather shoe, 2 sneakers and a rubber shoe (I’m not really into shoes and besides it’s costly)
 I’m a frustrated artist and a musician
 I know how to sharpen a pencil using a cutter
 I can open a softdrink in a plastic bottle using my mouth just & as what the toothpaste ad says “what a mouth!”..hehe
 I listen almost to any type of music from pop,punk,rock,r&b,hip-hop, I really got no specific musical genre as long as its good to my ears I’ll listen to it. The only ones I don’t listen to are that of hardcore rock and reggae
 My favorite artists are; NSYNC, Yellowcard, New Found Glory, Good Charlotte, The Calling, Boyz II Men, Story of the Year, Usher, Hoobastank, Simple Plan
 Armageddon is my favorite movie
 My other favorite movies include; Matrix Trilogy, LOTR trilogy, Star Wars series, She’s All That, Van Wilder, The New Guy, Resident Evil 2, The Last Samurai
 I have a huge crush on IYA Villania
 Melody, Maricar, Grace, Muppet, Bambi, Precious, Minerva are the names of the girls who rejected me back in high school. I got rejected 7 times in four years!!! What a Life!!!
 I got only one ex-girlfriend, Shen. We lasted for 2 years and 3 months or so.
 I turned down two girls in college..(you might think im stupid but I did because of some valid reasons)
 Im currently single and very much happy ‘bout it.
 Ever since I joined any basketball league the most I did was 3 points because im spending most of my time as a bench warmer. Again, what a life!!! but its all good though.
 Hopefully I’d be able to get a job in the field of advertising or media
 My wildest dream is to be a tv personality, actor or a commercial model
 I own a sony playstation one and wishing to own a PS2.
 NBA Live Series, WWE wrestling games, Breath of Fire 4, Final Fantasy Series, Resident Evil Series are my favorite video games
 I havent ride on an airplane yet nor have I went to any other country (though I wish I could), locally the farthest I’ve been to is Bagiuo in the North and Batangas in the south.
 You might probably see me at Robinson’s Place Manila coz its near our house (a jeepney ride to be exact) and I hang out there most of the time coz that’s where I buy my comic books.
 I almost died back in 2nd year high because of my stupidity, I fell down from a jeepney while I was “nakasabit” . thankfully there was no vehicle behind and I only got some bruises in my arm as a result. My friends who were with me at that time told me that as they saw me fell down and roll, they saw that my foot reached my nape..
 I know a little spanish. “ mi hablan a little espańol”
 The cd in my player right now is new found glory’s “catalyst”

luiboi is back online!

2004-11-03T18:58:00.000-08:00

Luiboi is back once again! I was away for quite some time but I’m officially back! Thanks for all the people who visited the site while I was away! Now that I’m back it only means that my sembreak has officially ended (sigh). I never noticed that my 3 weeks of R&R is already done, time really pass by so swiftly.

During the course of sembreak I never did anything much. I never went to any place or any parties (main reason? I had no money.hehe). I just spent all my time at home, resting and helping out. Kinda boring? May be but for me its just fine coz I was able to get a well-deserved rest that I have been mentioning for ‘bout two posts already.

Sembreak routine

just as what I’ve mentioned from my previous posts I spent my sembreak back in my hometown in Cavite and my life in the province begins early.

7:30-8:00 am – wake up time
8-8:45 am-clean up the house
8:45-9:30 am-gardening (watering the plants)
9:30-9:45 am – I take up a bath
9:45 am- breakfast
10-12:00 noon- idle time (watching movies, tv, reading, listening to cd)
12:00 noon- lunch
12:30 pm- wash dishes
12:30-3:00 pm – siesta
3:00 pm- merienda
4-5:30 pm – basketball
5:30 pm- rest and take up a bath again
6:00 pm- dinner
7-9:00 pm- I go to my cousin’s house to hang-out and play pc , Grand Theft Auto-Vice City and NBA live to be exact
9:00 pm-I went home
9-12:00 midnight-idle time (watching movies,tv, reading, listening to cd, drawing)
12:00 midnight-sleeping time but if there’s a good movie that im watching im still up to ‘bout 2 in the mornin’

well, that’s how my life revolves during the sembreak. That was my routine for Mondays to Fridays though coz weekends are quite busier and my sked is little bit random coz all of my realtives are at home, somewhat of a mini-reunion every weekend, I still wake-up early though.

movies,anime and nba

as you can see from my sembreak routine I have my idle time that includes watching movies, tv, reading, listening to cd and drawing. Speaking of watching movies I watched a couple of movies during this sembreak not only movies but also a couple of animes coz my cousin, dribs has quite a collection. Here’s the list of the movies I watched, I haven’t made any reviews though.

 S.W.A.T- I love the story!
 Shrek 2- funny! I think the human shrek looks like Edu Manzano.
 Finding Nemo- even if it’s a funny movie the story is quite dramatic though.
 The Last Samurai- a new favorite! I liked this movie a lot especially the story!
 You Got Served- a cool movie! I learned quite a little black lingo like; ‘zup playa? for sho’(did I spelled that correctly?it was their version of: “for sure”) the choreography of the dances were ‘stig!as if the dancers had no bones at all!it also has a nice story.
 Video Girl AI- a nice anime. It tells of a broken hearted guy (coz he was rejected by the girl she liked, which I can relate to very much) that rented of a video tape that has girl coming out of the video to help him out ease his pain away but eventually fell for the video girl in the end. It contains a bit of naughty scenes though.
 Tenchi Muyo 2nd Movie- if I remembered it correctly the series of this anime was shown in local and cable tv in the past so you might know quite a bit ‘bout this anime. As for this movie it tells of tenchi’s supposedly future daughter coming back in time to kill him.
 Love Hina- a romantic-comedy anime. I wish I could have watched the series coz I was only able to watch the OVA’s (Original Video Animation or the animes that werent shown on tv). It has a nice romantic story. It tells of a guy who made a promise to this girl when they were still young. He promised that they would go to Tokyo University together bcoz they believed that if lovers went to the same university they would end up heppily ever after. Years pass and the two kids parted ways coz the girl’s family moved away. Eventually the guy and the girl crossed paths once again, they took up the entrance exams together and eventually passed. But this was a different girl, it wasn’t the same girl he made a promise to. When the real girl showed up it was conflict but the guy eventually ended up with the girl he thought he made the promise to. I learned a couple of Japanese urban legends in this anime.
 Hunter X Hunter 3rd OVA- a popular anime. You might have watched its series on local tv. This OVA took off where the tv series ended. Its about 7 cds, 14 episodes to be exact. It tells of Gon and Killua’s adventure in Greed Island. Gon was able to locate his father after he finished the game but its still open ended though. I never thought I’d finished this series.
 Gate Keepers 21- another popular anime, I think gate keepers was shown on AXN a couple of years back. This OVA takes place years after the series, it tells of another batch of gate keepers led by the daughter of the lead character of the first series.
 NBA Ankle Breakers- this nba special features some of the coolest cross-overs ever seen in the game!’stig!
 NBA 100 Greatest Plays of All Time-‘nuff said. This features the greatest plays in the game.

the beginning of the end

now that sembreak is done it only means that I’m back to school. As what most of you know im already in my senior year and this semester is my last semester. I still cant believed that I’ve already reached this level and I’m quite worried ‘bout graduating and finding a job. Its still months away but I’m imagining what might happen when I already reached that stage. Im wonderin’ what would I end up? What kind of job would I get or do I get a job right away? Did I learn anything after years of studying? These are the things I worry but as I’ve said its still mothns away so I’d just enjoy each day until that day comes.

I only have 15 units left in my curriculum or 5 subjects to be exact. I have a nice sched this semester, my sched during every MWF is 3-6:00 pm and 3:30-6:30 pm during TTH and I got no classes during weekends. Now that I havent got much load I’m planning on going to gym and work out. I already got a large tummy and its ‘bout time that I work out so I’d look better when graduation comes. Its also a nice alternative to pass time coz just as what I’ve mentioned from my previous post we no longer got no cable tv. Im not dreaming of having an action star body nor a 6-pack abs. I just want to have a regular decent build with no fatty excess. A little like Randy Orton’s body (if your watching WWE you’ll know what im talking ‘bout) he’s muscular but not that much. I only hope that I’d be able to achieve this dream.hehe.

comic book update

this my other alternative while we have no cable tv. Im still not starting though coz im still studying perspectives. So that when I start I’d be able to have different angles in my panels, a little ambitious but I’d be able to do it hopefully through constant practice. I already finished drawing my characters and I’d be posting some of my sample works in the coming days as soon as my cousin gets his other computer back coz that’s where his scanner is attached to. He’s doing his thesis right now that’s why his other cpu is with his groupmate, he’s taking up computer science and their doing a program for their thesis.

As for the story of my premier issue, it’s ‘bout a guy who crosses path with the girl who rejected him back in high school. Though the girl rejected him back in the day their situation was different this time around. Things are happening so fast and the guy does not even expect the things that are happening to be possible. He fell for the girl once again and so did the girl. But when the time came that the guy would confess his feelings for this girl something happened. The girl went away. The guy wasn’t able to tell the girl his feelings. He eventually learned that the girl was just in the country for a visit. The girl did fell for the guy but the girl chose her priorties over her emotions that leave the guy broken hearted once again.

Just as what I’ve previously told you in my previous posts I’m doin’ a comic book in the tradition of WASTED (Gerry Alanguilan’s masterpiece). Its not a superhero comic book but rather a tragic love story, its like a pocketbook turned into a comic book. I loved this idea that’s why I thought of creating my own. I planning after making my first issue to have a series based on the guy and his friends. They are in a band and I’m planning to tell of their different stories, their love stories to be exact. But my stories would not all end up happily ever after, just like Wasted it would be tragic. Im planning to tell of stories that guys are hurt too, that they are not always the one playing, that they are not always the one taking things for granted and other sad tragic stories. Just like Wasted some of my stories would be semi-autobiographic coz I experienced a couple of tragic stories as well and I’m planning to tell them through my comic books. If this would all be successful this would be the first series that our comic book group that my cousin and I started, and we call our group the “The Dagatan Project”.

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this sure has been another lenghty post coz I’ve not updated my blog for some time and this post makes up for the time that I was away. In fact I already have another post ready which im planning on posting up tomorrow or on Friday. That just shows how I miss blogging. I hope you werent bored with this post and that you were able to read all of my thoughts for this post.

‘till next time.

an update post

2004-10-18T16:10:00.000-07:00

i'm back!but not quite(huh?).i'm just back here in manila for the enrollment and distribution of grades.im back for 3 days to be exact.i just got my grades awhile ago and i'm quite happy with the results.tomorrow i'll be goin' back to school for enrollment.man,i cant believe i only got one semester left.yahhoooo!sad thing though when i got back yesterday i found out that we no longer got cable tv.wwwaaaahhhhh!!!imagine we no longer have a telephone and now cable tv!!!!!damn this economic crisis!its really not that funny anymore!i just hope that those corrupt politicians would realize that people are suffering while they're gaining lots and lots of money..have some conscience guys...now im back to just listening to my mp3s or my discman,doing comic book sketches and other old stuff.sigh..boring..

while i was in cavite i was able to do a couple of stuff.im back practicing my driving(i already got my license but im not that good yet) skills,helping out in the chores,drawing,basketball and most important of them all..sleeping!im now getting a well deserved rest!im goin back after enrollment and luckily we got cable tv there but there are a lot of tv shows that i'll be missing,such as:queer eye for the straight guy,review night,wwe shows,movie channels,axn and animax.hopefully we'd get cable tv again,soon.

im gone again....

the last post for the semester

2004-10-11T17:16:00.000-07:00

its already our sembreak!yaahhhooooo!!!i could finally rest for 2 weeks!yaahhooooo!!!i'll be spending my sembreak at cavite as usual so it means that i might not be able to post for quite some time..the whole sembreak to be exact.for my friends who want to contact me,you could just contact me through my cellphone or just email me(but im not sure if id be able to check it though).this sembreak is also goin' to be my last coz the next semester would be my last.i got only one semester left and hopefully i could graduate come march of next year.this semester has been really tough for me,the thesis,asian civ and some stressful problems that is not even worth posting here.i just don't get it why there are some people who are so shallow and narrow-minded.damn!it really pisses me off!but enough 'bout it,its already done and just what i've said its not even worth the space here in my blog.i'd just forget 'bout it coz happy days are here already.yaahhhoooo!

but before i go off-line for 2 weeks or so i have one movie review left.sadly,i missed out on fahrenheit 9-11(i've been busy with my finals) but i was able to watch another movie instead.i was able to watch wimbledon and here's what i think about it...

movie review

this movie is a nice romantic comedy,paul bettany and kirsten dust look good together,they have a nice chemistry.the acting was nice,paul bettany was funny and kirsten dust as usual was lovely.i was never really into the sport but i was able to enjoy this movie.i liked the way they presented the story,love story + tennis isn't bad at all,though the story isn't that original at all,you might have watch other movies with stories similar to this one,they only changed it by putting a different twist,tennis.the movie was also able to show the development of the characters' relationship and the matches as well.but what i liked most 'bout this film is the cinematography.the camera shots were nicely done, especially in the tennis matches. its like watching a tennis match on cable tv with cinematic treatment.in some matches(especially in the final match) it would even drive you to the edge of your seats,the cinematography really help bring suspense and excitement in this movie.the only thing i dont like 'bout this movie is kirsten dust isnt that convincing to be a top notch tennis athlete.she looks weak to be a tennis player for me, but then again may be its just me.except for that i liked this movie.a good date movie,i guess,coz i watched this movie alone.

rating:4/5

ps2 & comics

its sembreak and i'll be spending a lot of time playing ps2 with my cousins.i just bought nba live 2005 and this game really rocks!i also bought tenchu 3 and nightshade cds.aside from playing ps2 hopefully id be able to finish the comic book i was telling 'bout from my other post.

that's bout it guys..'till next time..luiboi signing off.

a before i go home post

2004-10-03T19:30:00.000-07:00

i usually dont go out at sundays except going to church but this sunday was a little bit different bcoz i went to onstage at greenbelt to watch a play for my finals.i watch shakespeare's "merchant of venice".the play was ok but it was a little bit boring,i've never really went to watch plays anyway except if its a requirement.i also went to a play last year,it was "a midsummer nights dream" and that one i like.i felt sleepy in some parts watchin' this play but still it was good.im on my way home i just dropped by here at the computer shop to check my mail and then i decided to create a new post as well.

UAAP/NCAA ALL-STAR GAMES

yesterday i watched the all-star game of uaap and ncaa (at home) and it was quite a show.the slam dunk contest was great!kg canaleta really brings down the house with his slams!he's really awesome!patrick cabahug and noy canuday won the 2-3 ball tournament!go falcons!sadly the team of UAAP 2(DLSU,ADMU,AdU,UE) lost to NCAA 2,it was a close game though.

Rodman comeback?

still basketball news,i read over an article at nba.com that dennis rodman was having practice sessions with the denver nuggets last week.they say that he looks and plays great but question is does he still have enough juice to play the game?

MTV

last week i helped out my good friend,Jeff in his mtv shoot.he was making an mtv for one of his subjects.he asked if could be an actor and i agreed.he was making alicia key's "if i aint got you" (was that the correct title?),the duet version with usher.guess what?i played usher,may be it was because of my complexion.for my part we did something like what was in his confession video.i hope i did great.he just gave me my copy and im 'bout to watch it as soon as i get home.i really hope i didnt look ridiculous because its really my first acting stint(naks!) cause usually im behind the cam.

well that's 'bout it.its finals week this week.sembreak is just round the corner.yahoo!