luified:the luiboi experience

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Y’all know what I just recently went through emotionally, right? Funny thing is here I am going through it all over again only difference is that its with a different person. Its either that im just plain downright stupid or im simply hard-headed and I never seem to learn my lesson.

I don’t know what it is with me but I always seem to get involved with a girl who’s already committed. What’s worse is that I keep on falling for that girl and hurt my self in the process eventually. But why can’t I fall? The girl’s got all the qualities that would make a guy easily fall for her. The only real problem is that she’s already committed.

I don’t know if destiny’s just playin’ with me because why does it always have to be like this? Can’t I be the one with the happy ending and not be the one always on pain’s receiving end? I know its up to me to have that happy ending that im longing for, may be I just have to keep on waiting, waiting and waiting….but when would the waiting eventually stop?

A friend recently told me; “when love feels like magic its called destiny when destiny has a sense of humor its called serendipity.” He told me he got it from the film serendipity (a film which I haven’t seen up until now) and over the last few days im thinkin’ may be its true.

May be what im having right now is serendipity itself or may be destiny is simply playin’ with me. Never in my wildest dream have I ever thought that I’d meet this certain girl I’m falling for right now. She’s nice, pretty, sweet, simple, interesting or lets simply say she’s just wonderful, somebody near perfect, somebody a guy would easily go crazy and fall for (reason being I ended up like this once again). The thing I’m really surprised about is that we’re neighbors! Its like everything just simply falls into place. Its like we’re really meant to be or may be these things are just false signs because she’s committed.

It feels like magic but it doesn’t seem right. Everything seems so perfect except for the fact that she’s already into a relationship. But then again may be this is just destiny’s way of bein’ funny and may be somewhere along the way destiny would stop playin’ with me and grant me serendipity. May be, just may be we could still end up being together. If not, well, what else is new, right?

And the search eventually goes on…

Here’s something to ponder on as I end this post…I’ve read it from my honey’s post.

“If loving you now is a wrong time then would tomorrow be a good time to be with you but what if we realized that there will be no tomorrow for both of us.”

I sent an S.O.S tonight