"Pretend it's not for never,
I'll pull myself together
I'll say that I'll forget her,
I'll breathe.
And I'll say she never hurt me,
And look at it as learning,
And laugh about the good and the bad.
Because I won't live forever
We don't belong together,
I know I'll be all better,
One day when I can make it through..."
"discovering waterfront"(silverstein)
all about me ;exits ;yours truly ;
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Monday, March 14, 2005
"laging nasa huli ang pagsisisi"
what a way to start this post...indeed,its true.you'll not realize how important something or someone is until its gone.
i admit,luiboi is currently in-love with a certain girl.a certain girl that i have known for years already.i just recently realized that i'm falling for her or more proper to say,i'm in love with her.i'm regretting that after all those years that i've known her its just now that i realize that i love her.i know its already late to tell her these things because for one she's committed and another thing we may be goin' our separate ways a few weeks from now.
may be destiny wouldn't let us be because back then i already like her its just that i can't do anyhting 'bout it coz im in a relationship but now that i'm the one who's free she's that one that isn't.its really hard to be in the situation that i'm in right now.i really want to tell her what i feel but i simply couldn't coz she's in a relationship and i wouldn't want to ruin it.i'm not the type of guy who steals another guy's girl.i'd rather be in pain that ruining a good relationship.you wouldn't probably believe me but it's true.i'm doin' it because i don't want the same thing to happen to me.
i know she already knows the way i feel coz she's already asking me why am i acting different lately?im doin' things that i don't normally do like textin' her and even calling her.but what can i do?i simply can't help it but at the same time i lack the courage to tell her the way i feel.
right now,i'm freaking confused 'bout the things that are happenin' around me but nobody is to blame except me.if i had only realized this before then i wouldn't be in this kind of situation.arrrghhhhh!!!
i'd end this post with a few lines from Parokya ni Edgar's "Sayang".this song simply describes what kind of situation i'm in right now...
sayang,bakit hindi kita niligawan ngayon ako'y nanghihinayang,kasi naman tatanga pa ako noon walang humpay na pag-hintay sa hindi dumarating na pagkakataon
lagi naman kitang nakakasama ewan ko kung bakit ba wala akong ginagawa kahit na napakadali mong kausapin ewan ko ba kung bakit ang hirap pa ring aminin madalas naman tayong naglolokohan dinadaan ko lang sa biro ang tunay kong nararamdaman kaya siguro hindi mo sineryoso aking mga sinabi yun tuloy walang nangyari
I sent an S.O.S tonight
luiboi 411
22 year old.emo kid.comic book geek.frustrated rockstar.single and searching.
